Thursday, August 10, 2006

Random Thoughts

You ever just get tired....like you don't want to be bothered you don't want to do nothing you don't want to see nothing...you just want to go home and just sit and be still...you ever feel like that?

Or like man I thought I had no life, but then EVERY time you turn around you are going here or there, this meeting, that meeting...this cookout...

oh, I am co-hosting a cookout on the 19th? You were serious, I thought you was playing...Oh, OK...that's fine...

Oh, you mean I have a meeting, a graduation cookout, birthday party/seafood feast, and poetry reading/open mic night to attend ALL on THIS Saturday, the 12th...Oh, O K

Dag on...when I am I going to get to time to clean and wash clothes...maybe I can do that tomorrow night...I want to go home and go to bed, but I can't I have some evaluation materials that I have to finish for Kiamsha...

I need gas....that's going to blow me YET again...that dag on TRUCK...I need a little 85 Nova or something to just go to and from in during the week...

I really want to move to Atlanta...I wonder what that experience would be like...
I have been looking at numbers all day, and they still aren't making sense...

Why was I so hungry this morning...I had cereal, two boiled eggs, a banana, a orange AND a omelet on a croissant...GEEZE that was a lot...I mean that's over the course of like 3.5 hours but dag on...

Man I am broke...being broke ain't no joke....I need to make a monthly budget and stick to it...I have Kiamsha on Mondays...Bible Study on Wednesdays...maybe I can get me a part-time joint to work tues/thrus/fri/sat...I can't do Sundays I need to do church and rest...

speaking of church it will probably be OFF THE CHAIN on Sunday...dag that means I need to wash...I can't get out of washing...yeah looks like I will have to do that tomorrow night...no hanging out for me...yeah I am tired I needs to chill....

why is my desk so messy...crap everywhere...I need to get it together...

I go see Jill Scott, Erykah Badu, and Queen Latifah next Wednesday...Sugar Water Festival...that will be dope....should I get my hair done for that or just wait until Thursday...yeah I'll wait so it can be fresh for the cookout...

I got Vonage phone service today...that should be a good look, and help cut down on monthly bills...man bills...maybe that's where ALL of my frustration is coming from today...
Bills, Bills, Bills....UGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
So today I will say that: Adulthood sucks!
I WILL get over it...but that's just how I am feeling today....


So many important things to talk about...new terrorist threats...cheating...love...religion....but I don't even want to talk about it...why did I watch the news this morning? Ever since I watched it (which I don't do because I always get depressed thinking about life and all of the drama that is going on in the world...its just really sad to me...) and saw the headlines...man I have been messed up...THAT ON TOP of just every day life...

Yeah today isn't a good day...today doesn't have a good look....

8 comments:

Rika said...

Girl, your blog for today is & has been my life story & the way I've been feeling today & for the last couple of days. It's horrible & on top of it all like you, I am broke. I get paid tomorrow & still am broke. It's horrible.

I feel like there is ALWAYS something going on that, no offense to anyone, I just ain't interested in.

1) I don't feel like being bothered
2) I just wanna do me & that's just chilling, laying around, doing me, & not being bothered
3) There is way too much going on in a 24 hour period & I feel obligated to go to some of them but I just ain't gonna be able to do it...why?...because I don't feel like being bothered
4) I wanna & have to go back to school so I am going to talk to an Academic & Financial Advisor today but I really don't feel like going back to school all over again nor do I feel like being bothered but I've gotta do what I gotta do to succeed
5) One of my godson's stays with me for the summer. He is 13 years old & he eats EVERYTHING. Everytime I go grocery shopping, it seems as if I never went. Why is that? Is he a human garbage disposal or just a growing teenager? Should I be mad all of the time like I am? I KNOW I eat a lot but it's MY money so I can.

I just am in a serious "I don't want to be bothered" mode & it's really not a good look.

T.C. said...

You are right its really NOT a good look, but dag on it that's how I feel so oh well...so you feeling me and I definitely feeling you

A woman on the move said...

I’m sure most of us can relate to your blog. It’s frustrating to work so hard for what seems like so little. And just when you think you’ve adjusted to the world and your finances are in order- bam here comes an unexpected expense. Bills the most awful word in the dictionary, LOL.

It sucks being a grown up! It seems like there are so many decisions that need to be made, yet time seems to always fly by. But one thing I always remind myself of is my minor issues are always temporary. Better days are always ahead...

T.C. said...

You are right...and I will have to do that...but for TODAY I am going to give myself the "IN A FUNK" card...Tomorrow IF its still the same way...then I know I am dwelling WAY too much on $ and petty things....

Jessi said...

what a great post...I totally feel you..I don't want to be bothered by anybody either...I wish I could just have gourmet food and a unlimited supply of cheese cake with rasberry sauce delivered to my door step 3 times a day...and I wish I could trade my Dell computer in for a new MAC and then I'd could use illustrator and photoshop and I'd blog and develop my magazine and my philosophies and beliefs of what I think life is and should be allday. And then, when I felt like "doing-something" I'd spend the day at Neiman Marcus shopping and then top it off with a visit to Tower Records...afterwards...I'd get on the next plane to Cairo and brush up on my Arabic....

Thanks Tiff...for writing a blog that caused me to dream....lol

T.C. said...

Hopes + Dreams = Sanity...

noname said...

Yeah, I go through hump phases myself. It's so frustrating when so many are depending on me and that leaves me no time for myself. Ugh.

Vonage rocks! Since our move from NC to Iowa we got stuck in a one year agreement with the local company here but that ends in a month and we'll be back to Vonage. I can't wait! My kids have had the hardest time ajusting to no Vonage service as we've had to limit them on calling friends and family in NC. (too expensive without Vonage and can't waste daytime minutes on our cells)

Gas prices are killing us. Bills...I hear ya!

T.C. said...

I can't wait until my service kicks in...this month was supposed to be my "recovery" month, the month that I finally am BACK...oh but it doesn't seem that way...so we shall see...