Tuesday, December 21, 2010
i have an hour left at work and i am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO ready to go
i have a suit on today that is literally falling off of me, i guess the weight loss is a reality...my co-workers have noticed...
so the kevin hart show was AWESOME like AWESOME like SO SO SO AWESOME
and i might add that i WON! yes your girl was FLYY and i am not basing it on the fact that i really literally was FLYY but based on his reaction to my outfit...
its always nice when you are getting dressed and you can tell that they weren't expecting what you have on...like this look like oh wow you are wearing that NICE...
plus if you add the fact that what HE wore, i picked out anyways than I still won...CLASSIC
when i say kevin hart is freaking HA LA RI OUS!
what...plus add some cheesecake factory for the after show dinner...
top notch night
not to say the weekend wasn't or didn't have its "moments of irritation" we definitely have to find the balance with each other i think when you are with anyone for what 2 and 1/2 days there are bound to be moments...
good thing is we vibe GREAT and work well as a team with the lil one...the bond that he and i have is there and we three vibe and work to get things done together well...
the issue i am having now though is getting to close...because if things don't work out i don't want to once again distance myself from the family, including this child...so now i find myself in a conundrum, although we have both decided that we will see where things go and allow things to flow...i still have to be mindful because it isn't just us, there is a child also involved...
all in all the weekend was good, not GREAT, but good and realistic
now to figure out what i shall be doing for the holidays
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
and since i don't have a title for it, it will do
wow i have written 551 posts that's mad crazy son...in my NYC voice
i have had a lot of blog topics come in and out of my mind the last view days and i wanted to blog but there has been so much going on that i just haven't had the time
if you are here in the DMV its OH SO COLD outside right now
like so cold i went and got a fofafur hat, you know one of those big hats people wear in places like Alaska! hahahaha
well if you saw a crazy lady with one on and a bubble coat this morning on the Metro that was me...actually there were a lot of people on the metro with similar hats but the older ladies had the fofamink ones on LOL
i am in a good place as the year ends, like emotionally i have my feelings (remember you guys i have come to NOT like having feelings at all)
Wednesday, December 08, 2010
Monday, December 06, 2010
i admit when i was a child this was the BEST time of year, not my fav, my bday has always been my FAVORITE...but the holidays from thanksgiving to Christmas definitely was THE next best thing and don't forget the time off from school
but now that i am a young adult (still will not claim that i am a straight up adult)
i could really CARE LESS about holiday decorations
i definitely believe if i had children i would be in the "spirit" of things
my co-worker was like "you have your decorations up?"
my response: "what decorations? i don't have any kids"
yep that's my excuse or reasoning
i mean what is the point in trying to decorate if you don't have a family
i mean the holidays are for family time and since i don't have a family i prefer to just act like its just any other time of the year...i definitely enjoyed thanksgiving this year and i am sure i will enjoy the day with extended family
but for now and definitely in the near future, i.e. next year, i don't foresee any decorations over here
p.s. i do NOT like holiday music...yea i know
Sunday, December 05, 2010
You really have a lot going for you right now. I know it gets hard when your lonely but it's not your time to share your life with some one yet. In due time you will and he will be more than you ever wanted in a man. Concentrate on doing you now for thats where GOD wants you to be. With all of my Love, peace
Thursday, December 02, 2010
COME ON i just bought this thing like 3 weeks ago!
well that's why i paid for the insurance because it is going BACK
so i realized something about myself
as a woman, when it comes to relationships, with the opposite sex
i need a few things (beyond you given, faithful, loyal, honest..)
i need STABILITY
yep, i need for you to be consistent
i need for there to be a routine
i am a routine type of person
i pretty much do the same thing day in and day out
including what i eat
it may seem pretty boring to most people, but i am definitely o k with being boring
of course we all like a little spice, surprise, something different every now and then
but i am a creature of habit and well it makes me feel safe and therefore SANE
see that's what is definitely MOST important in my life right now is peace and sanity
it makes me as a woman feel safe and secure
i don't like having room to wonder, to think, or ponder certain things
it should just be and has to be a given
so if you aren't the most romantic...
if you aren't the most spontaneous
if we live in the most generic of love songs
as long as you are consistent and reliable (in the positive, because you can always be a consistently an ass as well)
i don't know am i crazy?
i know i can be but i think with this it isn't much to ask
on another note day 5 of NO MEAT and its not that hard, again because i am a creature of habit i just eat the same thing and keep it moving
working out daily and things seem to be really coming along
i am seeing the difference on the scale, not really in my shape just yet...it probably just water weight, but maybe not because this time i am working out with it so i am hoping that this will be sustainable weight loss
even if i cut up on the weekends a little bit, if i can make eating well during the week a habit and working out a habit, just apart of my daily routine then i think i may be able to get where i want to be or need to be rather for health reasons and i'll be able to hopefully stay there
in short i am finding and fighting my way to happiness
i think its definitely something that is a conscious effort to do every single day of your life
and i am choosing to be as happy as i can be
the things that i can't control i have to let go of and simply focus on the things that i can control and right now the only thing i can control is ME