Monday, August 28, 2006

My weekend....

So this weekend I decided that I was going to just chill...
I hadn't been feeling well anyways so I needed to chill, my body was saying chill!

Friday night, I went to see Idlewild with little big sis and JT Money...
Can I just say that I absolutely love this movie...it was GREAT!
The cinemetography was incredible, the different angles that Bryan Barber used with the camera...the concepts were innovative...the acting was wonderful.
So if you haven't already....Please go see the movie.
I honestly think its African American film at its best...this is a GREAT moment....

Saturday, I did pretty much nothing...one of my mentees and her mother stopped to talk about grad school and resumes, but other than that...I was basically chilling all day. I finally got up and decided to visit my folks...that was cool as usual...JT Money was having a get together at his spot but I was just too drained to make the trip...physically and mentally I was just drained so I passed.

Sunday, again, I did pretty much nothing. I watched ATL, and then went to Bible Study...I think that was the high light of my weekend, actually I know that it was! I sat with my mentor/second mother and talked with her and two of his "sisters" (women from her congregation) and we just talked about knowing Jehovah and building that relationship with him. I finally came to the conclusion that reading the Bible is like reading someone's journal or reading letters that they have written to you. Because that's really the main way to develop that relationship...and that's the MOST important relationship that you can have...if you are to have a good relationship with anyone else, including yourself...that needs to be firm and strong...

Being that I am about to have to start to write letters again, it helped me look at it in a positive way, like letters are ways to look into the soul of someone, it creates a bond that isn't superficial and is pure because its just you, the pen, and the paper...now I remember why I used to write poetry and I why I just loved to write, and why I started this blog...its a release just you and the keyboard...

Letters always allow you to get your thoughts out without interruption, allow you to explore and dive into things that you might not have the courage to do if you were face to face with someone...

My weekend was uneventful in the sense that I didn't do much, but it was VERY eventful in that I got to think about a lot of things and take things back to basics in the way I was looking at life and the choices that I was making in terms of my thought process...My BF actually said to me I am glad you are back because when you are upset you are angry, mean, and nasty...and I can admit that for the past what 3 or 4 days, yeah I was in a really mean mood...and I just didn't want to be bothered,and I cut folks off or kept it short...I needed that time to myself, and during that time...I realized a few things:

My life isn't easy, but whose is...
My life isn't peachy, but whose is...
I have my problems, but who doesn't...
When you get back the basics and start to focus on the bigger picture and start to understand that it's NOT about YOU...and ONLY YOU...you can just deal...

Right now there are a lot of things that are totally up in the air, but with my feet planted just right, I will be able to totally deal...and that's a great thing to get back to my peace of mind...back to peace....

2 comments:

j.a.c. said...

girl?! you using my language? "The cinemetography was incredible, the different angles that Bryan Barber used with the camera...the concepts were innovative...the acting was wonderful." lol. I was like, wait... that sounds familiar. lol. I'm glad you had such a deep and relaxing weekend. Those are always good to have. =)

T.C. said...

Yeah I took part of what you said...it sounded better than what I could come up with, and twark it a little...LOL...