Wednesday, November 07, 2012


i aint gon lie
i am glad that election is over
when you work in a place where apart of your job is to watch the news
and ALL you see all day every day is footage about the elections
when it's over you are glad

and now that it's his last 4 years, hopefully the administration will stop walking lightly and make some hard decisions that will benefit the country

one thing i will say is that racism is still alive and if this election didn't show that to you, i don't know what rock you are living under
not just racism

all isms came to the forefront

it is what it is

glad it's over

one of the cute things though was that yesterday was our one month anniversary and we spent our 2 1/2 hours in line waiting to vote, together!  that was cool

my parents always went and voted together, and they always took us with them, it was like this is your right and your duty, my parents grew up during the movement, especially my mom, being from Alabama and my great aunt and uncle were IN the movement, the level of social consciousness was always something they made sure we knew

my parents live IN Alabama and although its a "red" state they still voted! my husband's home state of NJ is normally a red state and it went blue, they thought VA would go red and it went blue, i will say if anything that should show people the importance of voting no matter WHAT history or patterns show
your vote matters

we celebrated our first month anniversary

still married

working to find the time to bond and make it work

definitely enjoying this time

i have been home from work the last two days

this thyroid storm is kicking my behind!

today it's me and the lil guy, i know one thing for sure, it's the hardest thing in the world to know your child is sick and you can't do anything but make them comfortable and give them the meds and hope they feel better and just keep them indoors

it's a lot

but it's well worth it

when you see them happy and healthy

i think i want to change jobs
i like where i am at and what i do
and the security of the job makes it difficult to think about just leaving esp having a family
but i want something more flexible i'd love to be able to work from home

i also need to really think about my event planning business
i did our wedding mainly there is still a lot i can learn and do to make my visions even better
but i want to do something

we all have gifts and i need to tap into mine

we need to really figure out our purposes in live and come up with our visions

we all have a purpose in this life and we need to have the courage to fulfill it!

Sunday, November 04, 2012

609: it was the best of times, it was the worst of times

was first said by Charles Dickens in his written work A Tale of Two Cities

and that's how i can describe the year 2012 thus far and what seems to look to be the rest of the year

Let's recap
we got engaged at the end of 2011
my MLK weekend we had a venue, colors, i had my dress, and we had our bridal party set
by feb we had flowers and invitations
and my future mother-in-law had undergone minor heart surgery but ended up back in the hospital due to a blood clot
we finally got save the date pictures done in march for DC
his grandfather's health declines and by June we have lost him
by July i am in the hospital and diagnosed with graves disease
by october we are married
and then two weeks later i am going through what is considered a thyroid storm and will have to either have radiation or surgery
go here to learn more if interested

so yes
it was the best of times, it was the worst of times

we are coming up on one month of marriage and with my health issues and other adjustments i won't lie and say it's been complete and total bliss
that's kind of hard when you wake up one day and look like you've been in a fight with said spouse, which is what happened one day two weeks eyes aren't cute and neither is a face that looks like a pizza cutter
but we look at the wedding pictures daily and the DVD almost daily and it was THE best day ever and that feeling and the feelings that i have for WHY we got married are there
the vision of him dancing with his mom who has major medical issues
the vision of me dancing with my dad who has major medical issues
is just simply beautiful!
and those memories are priceless

but true to form
life has happened, just like when we got engaged
we didn't have this bliss period
we got engaged and BAM real life stuff happened
and true to form we got married and BAM real life stuff is happening

the hardest part is just dealing with it all

the ironic thing is when you have graves you aren't supposed to stress but CLEARLY with all that has gone on, one can't help but to stress

i can say that i can't see myself being able to deal with or getting through any of this with anyone other than my husband
(ya'll peep that I got a husband, HA!)
we've been there from the beginning with everything and we will continue to be there for one another

j.a.j said it best in this blog post she said: "the wedding day IS the happy ending. Look at all the movies and fairy tales we see. That's usually how it ends. Because from that day forward, is the beginning of a life full of work and tolerance"

marriage is beautiful
i am happy to be married
i am happy to be a wife and a mother
and in a bubble where the world wouldn't be happening i'd be even happier because it would be "easy"
but when the real world happens, the fairy tale ends and reality sets in

i am just happy to have someone by my side who has VOWED to go through that reality with me, that's the aha moment
no it's not the fairytale but the partnership makes the ability to deal with reality, well for lack of a better word, a reality