Tuesday, June 01, 2010

get live.....

....cause you never knew live like this...get it out the bed its a beautiful day, put the tape in the tape deck and press play....

all my peoples got to stick together....

never, never, never....everybody getting down to this...

have you ever listened to the strange fruit project?
the fact that they named themselves after Billie Holiday's song "strange fruit" gave them dope points off the break...but the music itself is pretty dope

it took me going 1206 miles away to do a couple things i have been meaning to do

1. i finally got my "courage" tattoo on my left wrist...i didn't get "wisdom" on my right a. it was to damn painful and b. courage is what i need to keep on my left at all times...many people won't get it but for me its a daily reminder to always be courageous no matter what comes my way, i didn't get a symbol its actually spelled out and i LOVE IT

2. i finally saw "the hangover" CLASSIC movie indeed

3. i finally saw episodes of the boondocks...he holds no cut cards for anyone and i dig it

4. of course last but definitely not least i finally saw my precious little god daughter...she melted my heart she's so chill she doesn't fuss or cry to much or nothing unless she is hungry or tired other than that she is laughing and moving her mouth like she is talking and i know she really has something to say you can see it in her eyes and i love it

i had a good time doing much of nothing it was straight chill time mostly shopping, eating, chilling, get up do it again the next day...glad i know lil big sis well enough to know to pack as many chill outfits as cute outfits...

chilling HARD was exactly what i needed being around folks that i know love me AWAY from home was much needed DMV break fo sho...i got plenty of vitamin D from the TX sun and just had a great time...it was what your girl needed to keep her attitude positive and moving forward i hadn't been on a plane since august of last year...as much as i hate it the checking in the boarding the cramped seats the waiting for your luggage...i missed getting away...i went from going to a new city every 30 to 45 days to going NO WHERE for like 9 months...yea not good...

only thing is i never knew i could miss someone so little someone that can't even talk yet so fast...it won't be another 9 months before i get on a plane that's for sure...

it was good to be around a young black family, lil big sis, big d and baby d...they love each other unconditionally...they accept each other the good the bad and the ugly...they are extremely affectionate and in tune as a family...they aren't "perfect" but they are perfect in their imperfections....and the best part is they loved on me just as much as well...it was good for my spirit and my soul to be around such love and joy...

i told lil big sis, dude you living the "ameriKan dream" her response will stay with me forever

"i am not living the ameriKan dream i don't know who made that up, i don't have a white picket fence, i don't even want one, i am living my dream, making my rules, who says we have to do it 'their way'"

to which i said..."well alright"

i feel good...things are falling into place with regard to renovations for this house and its honestly pretty good...

and another lesson learned....

i HAVE THE COURAGE TO MAKE MY OWN RULES!
i AM MY OWN ameriKan DREAM
i DREAM
i LIVE
i LOVE
i AM
WILL BE
ME

4 comments:

E'Lisa said...

I couldn't have summed that up like you did if I tried. Awesome job Big Lil Sis!!

And yes you are loved unconditionally no matter what. And you will always have a home away from home as I know I will always have you in my corner.

Nothing like fam and we miss you already too!!

Glad to have ya!!

Love ya much!!

Li

blkbutterfly said...

I'm thinking of getting my 1st tattoo next month; something to honor my mom. i'm nervous about the pain, though.

i LOVED The Hangover! it def lived up to the hype.

love your sister's quote about living her dream. :-)

T.C. said...

lil BIG sis you already know what it is...it means a lot that you commented, you get it you get me....love you too

butterfly-it just depends on where you get your tat the one on my back didn't hurt at all but this one since there is little skin and a lot of tendons in that area hurt like the dickens i won't lie....any good tat shop and tech will tell you where stuff will hurt or won't...i think that's beautiful that you will honor your mom...

and yes lil BIG sis be dropping that knowledge :)

j.a.c. said...

You always leave it wrapped up with such inspiring words. I love that about your posts. I'm glad you had a good time.

P.S. Sooo did you get in trouble yet for the tat, cuz I know someone's about to get you!