Tuesday, September 14, 2010

mood: sucks

at a new job, but this is it...

period the end i am done...after all i went through to get here and to finally be OFF probation

it started off ok and then it took a left turn down the dumps FAST...

on my anniversary date then there was so much other stuff going on

here is the thing, i don't know how i feel and everyone has an opinion and its WAY to much because its like if i don't agree with you i am letting this person influence me, and vice versa

how about everyone has a point and most of them are good some not so good, some valid some not

i don't know how i feel and i do NOT like feeling like this nor do i want to feel like i don't have control over my feelings or understand my feelings

the only person i want to talk to is my mom because she let's me talk she doesn't have an opinion and she let's me just work through my issues she doesn't act like she "knows" but she does know and she always make me feel better

even Golden knows that i am upset she kept giving me kisses to try to make me feel better...that's my boo for real

Kiamsha started again last night and it was a good orientation night i think the youth really opened up and we talked about what they are facing so that was good

i was truly in a bad mood but when i left i was in such a better mood they make me feel better because they don't want anything other than for someone to listen and to pay attention to them

but isn't that what we all want

3 comments:

blkbutterfly said...

yeah, it's very disappointing to find that the position you worked hard to get isn't all it's cracked up to be. Good luck on getting where you really need and want to be. it sounds like the Kiamsha group is a possibility? have you considered parlaying that into something full time?

mrstdj said...

Sorry that things aren't good at the job. I can relate, having been at a few bad gigs along the way. I hope that you are able to transition into something better.

T.C. said...

No nothing is bad at the job i just had a miscommunication and it was a bad "mistake" so it was hard to swallow and fix...

the job is GREAT...