....full of emotions

the weekend was full of a lot of emotions...

a lot of emotions, most of them were WONDERFUL

i told you guys they were in love...

the two weddings that i have been blessed to partake in this year you could definitely see the LOVE, TRUE GODLY LOVE between a man and a woman

that its literally moving

its one of those things that its like "I WANT THAT, NOTHING LESS"

and that's the real...

so those emotions were very much so welcomed...

i had other emotions, that i don't know if i'll share on here...i can say the emotions were totally unexpected but i am making a mends with them...

i admitted that i no longer like emotions or feelings and that i don't know what to do with them when they come upon me so suddenly...

i have determined that a lot of times when i have a rush of emotions i become in short, a NUT CASE

and me and nutty don't mix ya dig...LOL

i like my peaceful, non dramatic existence, but i did say that i have to be open and i also said i needed to let HIS will be done in my life so i will let my personal emotions take time to evolve and reveal themselves as to what exactly they are and how and when to use them or not or whatever the case maybe

several years later and the feelings, emotions, care, is still there...

you ever seen someone you hadn't seen in months maybe even YEARS (as was my case) and the connection was still so strong its like you never missed that time at all?

like you finished thoughts, sentences...

or you have the most candid conversation EVER and its so effortless and respectful and easy...

but at the same time you know that the years are there

so the reality is that it will take time to become friends again and that being friends right now is the best thing for both of you because let's face it when you were friends that was the best time because it was the purest form of love you two have with one another it was the easiest and most joyous

so you just want your friend back, but you're more mature now, you've learned now, you understand things from a new point of view

but there is life, time, distance, all the same things that were there before...

so you hold onto the moment though because if nothing else you know you had that one all nighter conversation you have been longing for and didn't even know it...