Thursday, April 01, 2010

AS...my soul is NOT for sale

"...God knew EXACTLY where HE wanted you to be place...change your words into truth and that truth in LOVE"

still keeping with the whole "song" theme that has been running lately..

i love Stevie Wonder for sure...he's a definite CLASSIC musician...his political and social justice messages always resonated with me...and in short all his messages end with LOVE...

i have been feeling good lately...i am finally like really cool...the pieces of my lil heart have been pasted/taped/stapled/tacked/sewn...back together...

and as the days go on the more and more i feel the pain become a distant memory and the more and more i truly enjoy where i am in my life...

i mean i am about to enter into a new decade of my life and i can't afford to go into my 30s carrying things the same way that i did in my 20s...

i gotta take the lessons learned...emphasize the good, work on the bad and LEARN from what didn't work...

i told one of my mentors that i am too old for her to be keeping things to herself, if she sees something TELL me...i don't have time to have time to feel like my feelings are hurt...NO i need to know what's what so i can make better decisions...too old to keep bumping my head over the same stuff...i worked hard to get where i am and i keep working to get where i am going...but if i don't love and take care of myself first then how can i truly expect someone to do the same...

too many times we wait on others to take care of us to validate us to fulfill or complete something...and that can be our friends, our parents, our children, our spouse, a job, having money, having the latest and greatest clothes, car/truck, whatever...it can be a multitude of things and/or people

when truly i mean TRULY the ONLY person that can do that is YOU and the ONLY thing that can fully complete you his HIM-GOD

"Take care of yourself, set goals, share your wisdom, learn from experts, be prepared"

i am really diggin that quote...i just want to learn and grow learn and grow...feel secure in my own skin inside and out...i can't say that i am a 100% secure but by golly i am soooooooooo much closer than i have EVER been in my life and that's AWESOME...

my quest for biblical knowledge continues to increase and i have all kinds of questions and i am asking them that's for sure! my quest for knowledge in general has been resparked and i am definitely on the proll to take it all in and learn as much as i can...what's the % of our brain that we use like 7% i mean i could AT LEAST double that to 14%!

every day i walk a mile from my office to L'Enfant plaza metro station...its amazing how beautiful the city can be in the evenings how i feel such peace just me, myself, and I and the music BLARING from my ipod...i just walk and walk and walk...its definitely a great feeling to finally feel like i am taking care of myself all the way around...

knowing that i am finding my purpose in life, i can't be bought i can't be sold...because i belong to something that NOONE can even grasp...

so people don't always "get" me...i am totally out of a box any box that people try to put me in, or any box that I try to put MYSELF in for that matter...i am on another page in a variety of books...but there's absolutely nothing wrong with that...FINALLY aint nothing wrong with that...

my brother said last night that i was weird...i smiled and said YEP i sure am!

MY SOUL AINT FOR SALE

1 comment:

j.a.c. said...

This does indeed make me smile. I love it.