Drive

i am finally back to being in my stride...my drive

i had a good mellow weekend, not because anything spectacular happened per se, but i definitely have more energy than i have the past 3-4 weeks...
i know that me having nothing to do was extremely helpful and i was able to rest up a bit...

i was got off of work on friday afternoon, run around, clean the house and work out...
saturday chilled got up worked out, did some bridesmaid stuff ran some errands...chilled
Sunday went walking before service went to service and hung out with the family and then worked out again...

so if there is one common thread in all of this, its the working out piece...i really find peace, solace and positive energy from working out...it centers me and makes me really feel like i am doing something for myself...

the older i get the more i find that making TRUE time for yourself becomes harder and harder, even when you don't have a family of your own or significant other its hard to just really say okay this is time for me and that's it...there is always something to do or somewhere to be so working out is that one time of the day that i can say okay i am doing this for me to have a healthier life...

i have also cut out all meat and reduced my carbs considerably and only drinking herbal tea in the morning and the rest its just water this past week...man oh man what energy has come from that...i am sleeping better not as tired when getting up...so its a great difference
my line sister asked what prompted this change...

i just simply stated i wanted to LOVE what i see when i look in the mirror and be fully happy with ME...

not to mention it does get frustrating the things that people say when they calls someone FAT that's the same size as you, but because you are their "friend" you aren't fat too...puh leeze...people have a funny way of showing their support and love but that's another post for another day...not the driving force for my drive so moving on

so i got the emotional thing in check that's growing, the spiritual thing in check that's growing but i was definitely lacking in the physical health department...so working on that is a challenge but i enjoy it

i am finally feeling like i am getting my focus back, which is right on time because i definitely was losing my focus and drive...i was just like a walking out of it mess from day to day...i mean emotionally i am straight but physically and mentally i was still OFF...i was fighting my way back up but i was off...

so now i feel like okay time to make some thing happen...line somethings up stay focused at work and get this new program off the ground time to make some things happen...

i didn't go out and meet any new people last week or this weekend, but that's probably because i am not fully ready just yet...also last week was a hard week so i didn't go to the mentor meeting i did my first application as the lead so that was fun it was short and sweet but i am still nervous as i await the yea or nea...

so pretty much i feel like i am getting my stride back you know like i had it at the first of the year...i can definitely say that me taking time everyday for myself is paying off in more ways than one and that makes me happy

still got a lot of things in the fire but they just a slow simmer not at a boil just yet...
although i have made a decision about my career and what i want to do with myself i still have some time before it all falls into place so in between all of that its working and networking and all that great stuff...

i read this article this morning and here are 3 things if you aren't sure what to do next...

1. take bold action even going the wrong way is taking some kind of action
2. Believe in yourself! (you gotta believe in YOU even when no one else does)
3. Accept the risk (which is inherent in trying something new) the worst that can happen probably isn't that bad, when you think it through. its easy to let your fears become excuses for inaction....

so let's take ACTION

so the TC drive is coming back folks...