being happy...

that's how i feel...how i been feeling a lot lately

i think it has to do with me really i mean really coming into my own and then i have so many WONDERFUL friends around me that are doing so many wonderful things and its totally inspiring...i mean to watch others around me, so positive, so forceful, so strong, so confident, in their own talents...

ni: a teacher...teaching kids 8th grade science...she is one of those people you WANT to teach your kid because she is such a compassionate person, she really wants to and will FIGHT with them kids to get them to learn something...she is enjoying life and making moves

li: up and moved to TX...just her...and is working and doing the dag on thing...you know how strong you gotta be to move a 2 days drive away from your family because you know that, TX is the place you need to be right now to do what you need to do for yourself-now that's brave

mo: another one, got a promotion, took the class, about tomove cross-country to make her dreams happen...working hard and playing hard is her thing, and she is making it work

the new mrs: my homegirl, mother of my twin god-sons..wife, mother, full time worker...i sat in their house saturday and watched her and her family interact, her washing clothes, playing with the boys, laughing and joking with her hubby...good stuff

kc: following her dreams...working a job, rehearsing, hustling, doing her thang, whatever it takes to make her dreams come true...singing, singing and performing and its not about the record deal its about the art, she truly works hard and haves fun doing it

jas: flying all over the country singing, perfomring, making moves and connections...never letting the stumbling blocks get in her way...constantly on the go just grinding to make her dreams come true

ki: married, child, and held down the fort while her husband served his country over seas...of course she had her moments, but she held it DOWN for her family...no matter WHAT she held it down...kept him focused on his job so he could come home and he'll be home this week

jac: working in the NYC...doing the thing for a company she loves doing what she went to school for and loving it! (not many of us can say that) and all the while being a fashioista

jcroft: is working for the presidental campaign!!!! WHAT we are on our way to the white house!

p: working full time, going back to school full time...about to move and doing things that people would love to do...traveling seeing the world and truly making a difference in the lives of her people!

my ls': getting married, having children...working, being stay at home mothers, in medical school, getting master degree's, buying homes, moving across country...i mean really if that isn't what power is i don't know what is...

my kiamsha family: i have such an extended family full of such wise and wonderful people. my mentors keep me grounded, keep me prayed up, keep me sound...one of them said to me on saturday "you have really grown in these last five years, you have really come into your own" i don't think she knows what those words meant to me, but they did indeed mean the world...then the younger brothers and sisters coming up that have graduated from college are just so dynamite its like WOW you guys are so strong and amazing...

my homeboys (ad, mc, sm): working, getting their masters, homeowners, into the word...again, making moves and doing right, honest, loyal, faithful men...


my blog sistahs: writing books, poetry, moving out on their own, facing fears taking chances, some are even falling in love!

this is just the surface of what is going on around me...

so many strong, wonderful, smart, impassioned, brave, inspiring people...

my plans for the next two years are going to take a little longer than expected but i am still pumped I am still totally happy about what is coming my way...because its all a lesson, its all about patience, doing things RIGHT not just right now...learning what I really want as a person, a human being, a woman, a sistah...

and no matter what bumps may come my way...i know i'll be okay

i am happy and you know its because i am cool with me...really cool with me...like really really cool...
my size, my hair, my imperfections, my flaws, my spirit, my soul

i feel full of joy
i feel empowered
i feel full of knowing who i am and whose i am
i feel like i am growing into my TRUE self and my TRUE purpose
i have learned SO much this year about what love is, and isn't
about what priorities are and are not
about what is real and what is fake
about justice
how patience is a truly a virtue
and how having confidence can shine through your very spirit just like not having confidence can...
i am who i am and i can only be who i am going to be...there isn't much more to life than that...
and for that i will NOT apologize