Sunday, September 28, 2008

liberation

what's the true meaning of liberation...
to be freed from what? half the time its to be liberated from yourself and your own "box" of thoughts that you surround yourself with or in...

terrible thing one's thoughts can be

i know that my thoughts have been getting the best of me more than usual lately...

i must admit that i have been thinking and re-thinking conversations and interactions-just things

i wonder why the ind tends to do that...go back and forth over past events...all it does is punish you...i have already reflected and i am learning but i am thinking that my mind is just processing...it all started last week when i went out of town...it was the first trip that i went on "single" in a long time...so it was weird...i am glad its over with done...

you know how it is when you start getting back into your life and every time you do something that you did with that person it takes you back a little bit...and i thinkthat happened....it also didn't help that i tend to feel extremely lonely when i am out of town for work...being the youngest person and the only person of color in the deep south did in deed take it toll...but it always seems to make me a stronger person...

then i came back only to be SICK...so i have been in the house since Thursday...i went to a work meeting and came back home and have been in the house ever since...here's the thing though...it doesn't bother me...

liberation is knowing that you are a good person but that your being a good person may not be enough for the person you want it to be good enough for...does that make sense? put it this way, i know a really good guy, i mean he is a really good guy, but he just isn't the good guy for me...just like i know that i may not be a good girl for someone else...you know...

liberation is knowing that no matter what you are striving to be the best person you can be and that your past does not define who you are, it just a chapter in your life a piece of your story...

liberation is loving yourself flaws and all

6 comments:

Torrance Stephens - All-Mi-T said...

im on top of my box and dancing on top of it

PreciousGem-Refinement in Progress said...

I feel you girl. As much as I love to travel, being gone alone is HARD, but it can teach you something about yourself. It is indeed liberating. I hope you feel better and have a blessed, productive week.

MysTery said...

'liberation is knowing that no matter what you are striving to be the best person you can be and that your past does not define who you are, it just a chapter in your life a piece of your story...


liberation is loving yourself flaws and all'

Nice post. Hope you feel better soon.

Ms.Honey said...

Funny cause I was wondering how could feel so at peace about whats going on in my life right now when I thought I would fall apart...I feel liberated :)

Thank homie

Ruthibelle said...

"liberation is loving yourself flaws and all"

Nicely put... nicely out.

T.C. said...

@ all i am still working on this though...still working through the whole "liberation is loving yourself flaws and all" but i am going to get on my box like you said all-mi-t and dance all over that joint sooner than later!