i must have lost it...

what?

my swagger!!! why you say that, maybe because now that its been almost two months, and my life is so busy and full and i am just happy no matter what i just find myself happy...so with that, face broke out and all i just be stepping...and maybe because its September, its football season and folks just want someone to cuddle up with, people are checking me out...even stepping to a sistah...

hhhhhhhhhhhhhhheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

now don't get me wrong, i aint studden none of this stuff...but its nice to get the "eye" from someone, you know when someone is just smiling away at you...we all put a little extra in our step, men and women alike...

so i started noticing it on Sunday while out with P...

we are walking in georgetown and this dude coming towards us is just a looking, and i mean hard...so i am thinking oh he is looking at P, not me right, and she is like did you see that guy looking at you...

Monday leaving bowie town center this older man, really handsome was pulling up into a parking space besides me and he was just a grinning back...i couldn't help but smile because i was laughing he is steady looking and his pre-teen daughter is on her phone messing around...

yesterday i had a 2 for 1 type a day...in the morning on the way to work on the train, this guy kept looking at me...he was fly, funky kinda fly, i was diggin his style...it was a mix of funky with prep...never said anything i read my paper while feeling him looking...that was that...

on the way home this other dude was a little more "brave" we shall say...so i saw him checking me out when i got the platform, being that i dont like or want to get jacked on the metro again, i tend to be noisy (well i am generally noisy anyways) so i peeped him coming my way....so i am standing there...

him: you got some more gum
me: no
him: dag you can't ask nobody anything anymore, i was like oh i didn't mean to say no, i meant i just have anymore...(clearly noting that this dude might be crazy that i needed to check my tone)

so we get on the train, he sits behind me

him: so when we going on a date? RED FLAG
dude we are NOT young anymore...can you really open with a better line, you already hit me with "you got some more gum" come on!

me-in a sarcastic tone: well hello, how are you? my name is, and your name is?
him: oh, my name is J (showing me his ID) and i work...i'll be 29 on Saturday (RED FLAG-same birthday as my ex college "sweet" heart, superficial or superstitious i don't care what you call it but he got flagged) and your name is?
me: T....C
(HE takes a deep breathe-me wondering what the heck was that all about-looking at him crazy)
him: oh i am sorry my son's mother's name is T..., i know not all T...are the same but (RED FLAG-you got bama mama drama-you can not move past GO)

so he keeps chit chatting, he did get points for one, being very well put together, polo shirt, nice jeans, he looked presentable, nothing flashy just nice-he smelled GOOD! oh my oh my a good smelling brother is the BEST-he talked actively about his son and how important he was, in fact he stated "i am a parent-i drop him off, pick him up, he is my life" that was GREAT...

HOWEVER, baby momma drama, and his approach all OFF...i wasn't going to be able to do it...

i am not in any space to "talk to" or date anyone anyways...but when you get THREE RED FLAGS you don't get the number...period!

anywho, its nice to have my swag back, its nice to know that i am firm in keeping my standards high and keeping it moving