Friday, August 17, 2007

changes

this is really a random type of post but you know i guess with the new blog look (even though the music thing isn't workin with this template...sucks) at all i wanted to entitle it "changes" i feel like there are a lot of changes that are taking place right now, so i have to be ready for them right

my family structure has officially changed with the passing of my uncle, nobody expected it to be that soon, but it just came out of no where...and now the first of the brothers and sisters has gone to glory...most people can't say that about ALL of their loved one, but i know he was TRULY a man of GOD like he lived his life and mentored and had people growing...his adopted son, which was his grandson, clawed at the dirt trying to get to him...man

i also have a changed view on a lot of my family members, some not so great, but for the most part i learned that my family is OFF the HOOK! in a good way...like we sat around and talked much trash and basically "set out" my uncle to the fullest! i learned that some of my "corporate" cousins are just as loud and crazy as me...that was a wonderful surprise...

i found out that my fav uncle is even more off the hook than i thought (its funny how you learn new stuff when you get older and can now "hang" with your family) and my mom's bestest, is the bestest auntie, how about steaming shrimp in the MICROWAVE! what you know about that! now that is crazy...it was good too! great shrimp salad on Sunday before the funeral...

speaking of which who in DA HELL has a funeral at 6pm on a friggin Sunday! like seriously, who does that...and the burial Monday at 10am...and the viewing was on Saturday...well there was two viewings...on Saturday, Sunday BEFORE the funeral, then the funeral, then the burial on Monday...ALL WEEKEND...that was too much...especially for my grandmother...too much...she just went to the funeral...

i have been tired all week, dog tired, like so tired i don't even hear my phone tired, wake up the covers is all over tired, wake up with my scarf bout to come off my head tired...then i got some stomach virus thing...man, i just really ate for the first time last night...

my girl jac set us all an email to join this "national fitness" club...i joined

how about i think i am allergic to chocolate! every time i eat something with chocolate in it i get a really upset stomach...that sucks monkey balls, BIG TIME! my co-worker thinks it might be that i am allergic to wheat...well i go to an allergist on the 28th...but i guess until then i'll avoid potbelly's and chocolate...pissy!

so HE is back, earlier than we thought, so yea...but not so yea...so he is working for his father's company with the view of taking it over, so that means a lot more hours of working, even more than before...now i don't' have a problem with working with him to pursue his dreams, i DO however have a problem with him not trying to make the most of it...that's my whole thing, like work for what you want, just like a job or to lose weight or play ball, you work at it so work at this if this is what you want...i'll support you but you gotta work...

feeling a little discouraged about this career thing right now, don't know why, but i do...and it bothers me...but i'll get through it...

it just seems like a lot of things are changing...some for the good, some not so good, and other stuff we'll just have to see how it turns out you know...

this year i brought it in and said to myself, ok so this is a NEW year and its going to be good...
well its been alright...not over yet, i think that i have learned a lot and grown a lot you know...so with that...it'll be ok

i mean i could be homeless, lifeless, loveless...i could be a whole lot of things, so i look at my life and i just say...

life is actually looking up, in time you know....in time TC in GOD's time

peace and have a GREAT weekend

2 comments:

j.a.c. said...

i actually feel you on this. not anything in particular, but the whole mood of the post. i'm kinda feeling the same way, but like you said, life is always looking up. keep your head up lady.

Ms. Confessions said...

It's important to keep a positive look on life, even when all hell breaks loose.

Struggle, pain, and loosing is all a part of the natural elements in this thing called life.