honey made me think about my first day of school with her going with toot on Tuesday for his first day...
i remember it like yesterday...well first let me start with the fact that i when i graduated from pre-school...i had a white dress with white shoes and a little sweater (very girlie and very NOT me) and my hair was in curls all over...i remember my parents and brother being there and how i felt so special with my cap and gown on...then i remember my mommy saying i was going to the BIG kids school...
now i remember taking the tests at two schools, but me and my brother were going together me to Kindergarten and him to the 8th grade
SIDE NOTE: me and the youngest boy are 8 years apart-i kno i kno, what the HELL were they thinking...but after 8 years my father decided he finally wanted a girl, who does that...anyways, that would explain the next what 16 years of my life being totally abused by this dude...until i learned to literally fight back...hey it was either get whopped up on or fight back, and i learned to fight back...i still don't think dude likes me, but most times i don't like him either so you know hey....
ok, so anyways, it was Our Lady Queen of Peace...that's the school...in SE right off of Riggs Road, still there by the way...
My plaid uniform, white collared shirt, blue knee socks, and them shoes, you know the ones white with blue/black in the middle and then white all around, yea those and then my MY Little Pony Pink backpack....boy i was ready you here me ready...i was so ready i did "practice runs" at getting ready for the first day of school...
got there and hated it! every last bite of it....i wanted to go home...it surely wasn't pre-school, i got over it though...but man...
i guess with all the kids going back to school it made me think of it...what i wouldn't give to be 5 years old again, walking the halls in between art and religion classes...putting a ring up my nose and getting it stuck (yes i really did that!) you know just being a little kid...getting into fights with the boys and just chilling...sliding down the BIG hill on trash bags in the snow...having my Daddy pick me up from school because he worked nights and he was always late...
to have my mom fight with me over doing my hair and fussing when i came home and it NEVER looked like it did when i left, even on picture day (which by the way, why do they make the little kids what that long, you KNOW that they gonna look JACKED all up after lunch)
just no worries, no cares, just a child living life...
ehhh well....
it was nice to think back though you know...
Friday, August 31, 2007
Thursday, August 30, 2007
over a month late
but as promised a couple of flicks from the bday....
me with the birthday cheesecake that they give you that i ofcourse couldn't eat...HA!
Me and the crew....
Me and my lil cuzos (who aren't so little, but you know will ALWAYS be) you can see my whole outfit....
the gurls doing their bootie shot for the night...me and Mrs. B aren't in it, we would have put them to shame...HA!
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
sometimes you just have to say it
so sometimes you say things to someone else ONLY to have your OWN words bless YOU!
i was talking to my bestest this morning and reminding her that she needed to stop looking at all of the negative things that has happened or is happening in her life, but if she would redirect her energy and focus on what is actually positive she would find herself not as upset but in fact happy about her life...and that focusing on the positive would do more good then spending all of her energy focusing on the negative, its just to friggin draining...
although he may not have been what you thought, its HIS issue and NOT yours...
she may have turned out not to be a good friend, but think about all of the friends and family that DO love you and support you
they may think that life is all about them, but you know better and again have plenty of people that love you and want to be there for you, not just when its convenient for them
i reminded myself of that simple lesson this morning, that life won't always be rays of sunshine and rainbows and that sometimes things don't always work out how WE want them to, but if you just focus on the positive, its not so bad...things could be a WHOLE lot worse...
its not about where you are, its about how you deal....i forgot that for a moment...i needed to say it out loud
and i'll end with this....
Whatever your cross, whatever your pain, there will always be sunshine, after the rain ....
Perhaps you may stumble, perhaps even fall, But God's always ready, To answer your call ....
He knows every heartache, sees every tear, A word from His lips, can calm every fear ....
Your sorrows may linger, throughout the night, But suddenly vanish, dawn's early light ....
The Savior is waiting, somewhere above, To give you His grace, and send you His love ...
Whatever your cross, whatever your pain, "
God always sends rainbows .... after the rain ...
i was talking to my bestest this morning and reminding her that she needed to stop looking at all of the negative things that has happened or is happening in her life, but if she would redirect her energy and focus on what is actually positive she would find herself not as upset but in fact happy about her life...and that focusing on the positive would do more good then spending all of her energy focusing on the negative, its just to friggin draining...
although he may not have been what you thought, its HIS issue and NOT yours...
she may have turned out not to be a good friend, but think about all of the friends and family that DO love you and support you
they may think that life is all about them, but you know better and again have plenty of people that love you and want to be there for you, not just when its convenient for them
i reminded myself of that simple lesson this morning, that life won't always be rays of sunshine and rainbows and that sometimes things don't always work out how WE want them to, but if you just focus on the positive, its not so bad...things could be a WHOLE lot worse...
its not about where you are, its about how you deal....i forgot that for a moment...i needed to say it out loud
and i'll end with this....
Whatever your cross, whatever your pain, there will always be sunshine, after the rain ....
Perhaps you may stumble, perhaps even fall, But God's always ready, To answer your call ....
He knows every heartache, sees every tear, A word from His lips, can calm every fear ....
Your sorrows may linger, throughout the night, But suddenly vanish, dawn's early light ....
The Savior is waiting, somewhere above, To give you His grace, and send you His love ...
Whatever your cross, whatever your pain, "
God always sends rainbows .... after the rain ...
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
I told honey i'd do it...so here it goes: TAG
THE RULES: Elaborate on the words below kids!
Accent – i definitely have one, its a mix of a lil "hood" with kuntry...i guess that comes from being raised in forestville area with a Alabama momma and a Virginia Daddy...even people from HERE ask me where i am from HA!
I Don't Drink – coffee, i used to drink it ALL the time, but then it got to NOT agreeing with my stomach, so no more of that
Chore I Hate – cleaning/organizing my closet! i can NOT stand it, i have too, i mean too much stuff and not enough room, even in my WALK-IN closet with room for the more than enough people, but NOT ME, i actually need someone, and i'll pay them to organize my closet and clothes for me, you know like they do on Clean House, in fact my house is extremely CLEAN other than my junkie closet
Pets – i grew up with dogs, rocs as a matter a fact...one day when i get a house, i'll get more
Essential Electronic – my tv, my stereo it would be an iPod or a Zune if i had one, i need my music all the time, unfortunately, that hasn't happened yet
Perfume/Cologne – Burberry (used to be London, but its just now the signature scent) or Gucci Rush
Gold or silver – silver or white gold...just NO yellow gold
Insomnia – times like now when i am stressed and have nightmares about various things
Job Title – Program Associate
Most Admired Trait – my complexity i think....ability to remain positive, even when i feel like i do now
Kids – 1, i am happy with one...but willing to compromise if my hubby wants more
Religion – raised southern Baptist, went to Catholic school, currently attend AME, and study with Witnesses...its all about gaining that TRUE Bible knowledge
Siblings – 5 older brothers, i only know 3
Time I wake up – depends...i can get up as early as 6am or as late as 7:45 and still get to work by 9:15
Unusual talent/skill – i don't know...talking with anyone, no matter the age, about anything...really knowing the people around me...sensing certain things
Vegetable I refuse to eat – brussel sprouts
Worst habit – always someone ELSE, "how do i look?"
X-rays – on my abdomin
My favorite meal – fresh off the stove fried chicken wings or pork chops (but they got to be nice and hot and fresh) some greens, some cornbread, with some chiterlings and stuffing...WHAT! and my momma will break that out any time, i ask, hell imma ask for it for Sunday dinner!
I tag - whoever wants do this
Accent – i definitely have one, its a mix of a lil "hood" with kuntry...i guess that comes from being raised in forestville area with a Alabama momma and a Virginia Daddy...even people from HERE ask me where i am from HA!
I Don't Drink – coffee, i used to drink it ALL the time, but then it got to NOT agreeing with my stomach, so no more of that
Chore I Hate – cleaning/organizing my closet! i can NOT stand it, i have too, i mean too much stuff and not enough room, even in my WALK-IN closet with room for the more than enough people, but NOT ME, i actually need someone, and i'll pay them to organize my closet and clothes for me, you know like they do on Clean House, in fact my house is extremely CLEAN other than my junkie closet
Pets – i grew up with dogs, rocs as a matter a fact...one day when i get a house, i'll get more
Essential Electronic – my tv, my stereo it would be an iPod or a Zune if i had one, i need my music all the time, unfortunately, that hasn't happened yet
Perfume/Cologne – Burberry (used to be London, but its just now the signature scent) or Gucci Rush
Gold or silver – silver or white gold...just NO yellow gold
Insomnia – times like now when i am stressed and have nightmares about various things
Job Title – Program Associate
Most Admired Trait – my complexity i think....ability to remain positive, even when i feel like i do now
Kids – 1, i am happy with one...but willing to compromise if my hubby wants more
Religion – raised southern Baptist, went to Catholic school, currently attend AME, and study with Witnesses...its all about gaining that TRUE Bible knowledge
Siblings – 5 older brothers, i only know 3
Time I wake up – depends...i can get up as early as 6am or as late as 7:45 and still get to work by 9:15
Unusual talent/skill – i don't know...talking with anyone, no matter the age, about anything...really knowing the people around me...sensing certain things
Vegetable I refuse to eat – brussel sprouts
Worst habit – always someone ELSE, "how do i look?"
X-rays – on my abdomin
My favorite meal – fresh off the stove fried chicken wings or pork chops (but they got to be nice and hot and fresh) some greens, some cornbread, with some chiterlings and stuffing...WHAT! and my momma will break that out any time, i ask, hell imma ask for it for Sunday dinner!
I tag - whoever wants do this
you ever...rAdomneSS (VIII)
just feel like you are all alone in the world
you know that you aren't but you just feel like you are...
i had a mini breakdown this morning...so many things are just all over the place for me right now, so many things that i don't get, don't understand, can't understand
i keep trying to tell myself that everything is in GOD's hands and even the things i don't understand now are for MY best interest...but sometimes i just get tired
i get tired of always being there for people or having my services volunteered to do stuff for other people, people i don't even deal with on a regular basis, but my name gets through out there, and then they don't even appreciate it...
nothing ever seems to work out how we expect i think...you go into certain things looking at it one way, and then things turn out a total opposite
i didn't imagine that i would be in the place i am right now, mind you i AM in a GOOD place in many aspects, BUT i just figured things would be different for me...seems to me like good folks have just been constantly tested this year...i guess that's why you make goals and not plans
but every time i get discouraged i feel better for one reason or another...things are looking up at work, got some outlining things that will allow me to grow professionally and allow me to gain some skill sets that are based on personal abilities i already have, my tutoring student wants to start back up, and i still have to finish my evaluation from my summer program M&M, so i'll be able to put some money up and some aside for birthday's and the holidays...hopefully with more responsibility at work that will mean more money, but we'll see...
i hate being sick, especially something that is viral and there is NOTHING that you can do about it, but let it run its way out...i have been sick for the past 2-3 weeks and i am tired of it...resting for the past what 5 days or so has been good for my body, but my mind is still running like crazy and that's not really a good thing you know...
my father always said, "an ideal mind is the devil's playground" and he ain't never lied...when my mind gets to running its running and its been running...hence this feeling of blah...i try to be a very upbeat person, but hell i can't take all of these jabs and it not eventually get to me...
its like that feeling you take one step forward ONLY to have to take two steps back...you know...so many many things...
i just need to vent...thanks for listening
you know that you aren't but you just feel like you are...
i had a mini breakdown this morning...so many things are just all over the place for me right now, so many things that i don't get, don't understand, can't understand
i keep trying to tell myself that everything is in GOD's hands and even the things i don't understand now are for MY best interest...but sometimes i just get tired
i get tired of always being there for people or having my services volunteered to do stuff for other people, people i don't even deal with on a regular basis, but my name gets through out there, and then they don't even appreciate it...
nothing ever seems to work out how we expect i think...you go into certain things looking at it one way, and then things turn out a total opposite
i didn't imagine that i would be in the place i am right now, mind you i AM in a GOOD place in many aspects, BUT i just figured things would be different for me...seems to me like good folks have just been constantly tested this year...i guess that's why you make goals and not plans
but every time i get discouraged i feel better for one reason or another...things are looking up at work, got some outlining things that will allow me to grow professionally and allow me to gain some skill sets that are based on personal abilities i already have, my tutoring student wants to start back up, and i still have to finish my evaluation from my summer program M&M, so i'll be able to put some money up and some aside for birthday's and the holidays...hopefully with more responsibility at work that will mean more money, but we'll see...
i hate being sick, especially something that is viral and there is NOTHING that you can do about it, but let it run its way out...i have been sick for the past 2-3 weeks and i am tired of it...resting for the past what 5 days or so has been good for my body, but my mind is still running like crazy and that's not really a good thing you know...
my father always said, "an ideal mind is the devil's playground" and he ain't never lied...when my mind gets to running its running and its been running...hence this feeling of blah...i try to be a very upbeat person, but hell i can't take all of these jabs and it not eventually get to me...
its like that feeling you take one step forward ONLY to have to take two steps back...you know...so many many things...
i just need to vent...thanks for listening
Monday, August 27, 2007
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
Q
let me tell you how today is just the "theme" for kick rocks, and OH by the wayYOU TOTALLY SUCK DAY!
so my phone has been acting up, yep my friggin $400 (as he calls it) cell phone has been acting totally and completely UP...
you can call me, but the phone won't ring...
you can call me, but i can't answer
oh and by the way i pay all that money for textin and guess what i can't text you and you can't text me
so that probably explains the lasp in communication with various individuals for the past couple of days...stuff just lost...
this is crazy, so NOW i have to get off of work and go and fuss with the friggin people at the Verizon Wireless store, oh and by the way this is AFTER i just spent 45 minutes on the phone trying to "fix" it with the tech support...
oh yea it was working just fine with the lady on the phone but NOW its not ringing and won't send any texts...
ugggggg
now i can't go home and cook, i'll have to go to the store DOWNTOWN because Bowie's store is too busy, and THEN by the time i get home it'll be late so once again, i'll have to buy something, NAW bump that imma cook my turkey spagehtti with whole wheat noodles, i am going to eat well!
like i said sucks big time, matter a fat sucks monkey's (i won't finish)
this Q can kick Rocks and i betta get a new one
this Q can kick Rocks and i betta get a new one
UPDATE: i got a new phone (or whatever it is), went to the Verizon store downtown on F Street after work, very nice and worked with me, so no complaints....no deductable or anything, just told them the issues and it was taken care of
yea...
today sucks!
yes i said it, it sucks!
its raining and its cold and i want to be at home in my bed to wollow in my self pitty but i can't because i got to be at work, to work to only pay bills, because i barely make enough to make ends meet, yet i keep getting more responsibility from people, who (some) aren't the best organized and expect me to work it out...so yea it sucks....oh yea with more responsibility, haven't heard NOTHING about more money, that REALLY suckS
so today sucks...
i have to leave work to go home and cook and wash and do stuff that i have to do to survive, when all i want to do is go home and lay in my chair and look at the wall
but i have to be an adult, which guess what ladies and gentlemen, also sucks...
so yea today sucks
i can't be friggin happy all the time
i have problems and issues and sometimes insecurities and my mind is constantly running and working, sometimes for me and many times against me
so guess what, yea you guessed it
today I suck!
Friday, August 17, 2007
changes
this is really a random type of post but you know i guess with the new blog look (even though the music thing isn't workin with this template...sucks) at all i wanted to entitle it "changes" i feel like there are a lot of changes that are taking place right now, so i have to be ready for them right
my family structure has officially changed with the passing of my uncle, nobody expected it to be that soon, but it just came out of no where...and now the first of the brothers and sisters has gone to glory...most people can't say that about ALL of their loved one, but i know he was TRULY a man of GOD like he lived his life and mentored and had people growing...his adopted son, which was his grandson, clawed at the dirt trying to get to him...man
i also have a changed view on a lot of my family members, some not so great, but for the most part i learned that my family is OFF the HOOK! in a good way...like we sat around and talked much trash and basically "set out" my uncle to the fullest! i learned that some of my "corporate" cousins are just as loud and crazy as me...that was a wonderful surprise...
i found out that my fav uncle is even more off the hook than i thought (its funny how you learn new stuff when you get older and can now "hang" with your family) and my mom's bestest, is the bestest auntie, how about steaming shrimp in the MICROWAVE! what you know about that! now that is crazy...it was good too! great shrimp salad on Sunday before the funeral...
speaking of which who in DA HELL has a funeral at 6pm on a friggin Sunday! like seriously, who does that...and the burial Monday at 10am...and the viewing was on Saturday...well there was two viewings...on Saturday, Sunday BEFORE the funeral, then the funeral, then the burial on Monday...ALL WEEKEND...that was too much...especially for my grandmother...too much...she just went to the funeral...
i have been tired all week, dog tired, like so tired i don't even hear my phone tired, wake up the covers is all over tired, wake up with my scarf bout to come off my head tired...then i got some stomach virus thing...man, i just really ate for the first time last night...
my girl jac set us all an email to join this "national fitness" club...i joined
how about i think i am allergic to chocolate! every time i eat something with chocolate in it i get a really upset stomach...that sucks monkey balls, BIG TIME! my co-worker thinks it might be that i am allergic to wheat...well i go to an allergist on the 28th...but i guess until then i'll avoid potbelly's and chocolate...pissy!
so HE is back, earlier than we thought, so yea...but not so yea...so he is working for his father's company with the view of taking it over, so that means a lot more hours of working, even more than before...now i don't' have a problem with working with him to pursue his dreams, i DO however have a problem with him not trying to make the most of it...that's my whole thing, like work for what you want, just like a job or to lose weight or play ball, you work at it so work at this if this is what you want...i'll support you but you gotta work...
feeling a little discouraged about this career thing right now, don't know why, but i do...and it bothers me...but i'll get through it...
it just seems like a lot of things are changing...some for the good, some not so good, and other stuff we'll just have to see how it turns out you know...
this year i brought it in and said to myself, ok so this is a NEW year and its going to be good...
well its been alright...not over yet, i think that i have learned a lot and grown a lot you know...so with that...it'll be ok
i mean i could be homeless, lifeless, loveless...i could be a whole lot of things, so i look at my life and i just say...
life is actually looking up, in time you know....in time TC in GOD's time
peace and have a GREAT weekend
my family structure has officially changed with the passing of my uncle, nobody expected it to be that soon, but it just came out of no where...and now the first of the brothers and sisters has gone to glory...most people can't say that about ALL of their loved one, but i know he was TRULY a man of GOD like he lived his life and mentored and had people growing...his adopted son, which was his grandson, clawed at the dirt trying to get to him...man
i also have a changed view on a lot of my family members, some not so great, but for the most part i learned that my family is OFF the HOOK! in a good way...like we sat around and talked much trash and basically "set out" my uncle to the fullest! i learned that some of my "corporate" cousins are just as loud and crazy as me...that was a wonderful surprise...
i found out that my fav uncle is even more off the hook than i thought (its funny how you learn new stuff when you get older and can now "hang" with your family) and my mom's bestest, is the bestest auntie, how about steaming shrimp in the MICROWAVE! what you know about that! now that is crazy...it was good too! great shrimp salad on Sunday before the funeral...
speaking of which who in DA HELL has a funeral at 6pm on a friggin Sunday! like seriously, who does that...and the burial Monday at 10am...and the viewing was on Saturday...well there was two viewings...on Saturday, Sunday BEFORE the funeral, then the funeral, then the burial on Monday...ALL WEEKEND...that was too much...especially for my grandmother...too much...she just went to the funeral...
i have been tired all week, dog tired, like so tired i don't even hear my phone tired, wake up the covers is all over tired, wake up with my scarf bout to come off my head tired...then i got some stomach virus thing...man, i just really ate for the first time last night...
my girl jac set us all an email to join this "national fitness" club...i joined
how about i think i am allergic to chocolate! every time i eat something with chocolate in it i get a really upset stomach...that sucks monkey balls, BIG TIME! my co-worker thinks it might be that i am allergic to wheat...well i go to an allergist on the 28th...but i guess until then i'll avoid potbelly's and chocolate...pissy!
so HE is back, earlier than we thought, so yea...but not so yea...so he is working for his father's company with the view of taking it over, so that means a lot more hours of working, even more than before...now i don't' have a problem with working with him to pursue his dreams, i DO however have a problem with him not trying to make the most of it...that's my whole thing, like work for what you want, just like a job or to lose weight or play ball, you work at it so work at this if this is what you want...i'll support you but you gotta work...
feeling a little discouraged about this career thing right now, don't know why, but i do...and it bothers me...but i'll get through it...
it just seems like a lot of things are changing...some for the good, some not so good, and other stuff we'll just have to see how it turns out you know...
this year i brought it in and said to myself, ok so this is a NEW year and its going to be good...
well its been alright...not over yet, i think that i have learned a lot and grown a lot you know...so with that...it'll be ok
i mean i could be homeless, lifeless, loveless...i could be a whole lot of things, so i look at my life and i just say...
life is actually looking up, in time you know....in time TC in GOD's time
peace and have a GREAT weekend
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
If you are afraid to STAND for something....
you WILL eventually fall for anything...
Please take a look at the video below, get the word out and let's do something about this...its up to US to make a difference in our world...
it should be surprising, but sadly...
you can read more here
This is the story of the Jena Six
let's talk about it, let's take a STAND, let's make a difference
I have signed the petition, will you?
I have gone to the color of change web site, will you?
Please take a look at the video below, get the word out and let's do something about this...its up to US to make a difference in our world...
it should be surprising, but sadly...
you can read more here
This is the story of the Jena Six
let's talk about it, let's take a STAND, let's make a difference
I have signed the petition, will you?
I have gone to the color of change web site, will you?
Friday, August 10, 2007
ok so i can't stay away
not that this will be long...just want to recommend a couple of things before i am off for the weekend..
yea i have to be AT the friggin airport by 4:30am with both of my crazy parents only to fly to Chi-town to have to deal with my OTHER crazy family...i have already told my momma
I will also be taking these two WONDERFUL items with me....
yea i have to be AT the friggin airport by 4:30am with both of my crazy parents only to fly to Chi-town to have to deal with my OTHER crazy family...i have already told my momma
"i got your back PC..."
which means that if she feels the need to proceed to curse someone out, imma be right by her side...
anyone that knows my momma knows she ONLY "goes there if prompted" and the way my late uncle's wife has been acting, she might just have to go there....terrbile...
can we just have the burial in peace and love...its not about YOU, its about HIM...but you know can't chose family....
so to keep me sane, i shall take this book
of course the BIBLE will be my first choice, that's always with me...(yes i can have my momma's back and still read the BIBLE) but this is a good book...
I will also be taking these two WONDERFUL items with me....
if you don't have these two items you are truly missing out on a musical experience...
in the meantime, imma take my little hiatous, stay positive, love yourself, love those around you...be good to the universe and the universe will be good to you...we get back what we put out...
peace
Wednesday, August 08, 2007
mind trap
a lot has been going on so i need to take a break from blogging for a while...
i think jac said it once, i need to figure some things out in my own head...so i'll be back after while
i think jac said it once, i need to figure some things out in my own head...so i'll be back after while
stay up people
its all peace
Monday, August 06, 2007
how much are you willing to give up?
so in a relationship some things you have to give up...some things people request that are actually good for you...
like your partner may ask you to stop drinking or to stop smoking
your partner may ask you to grow your beard out or your hair out, or ask you to cut all of it off
what about what you wear or where you go or what you do...
like honestly how much are you willing to give up for "love"?
if someone really loves you they are going to accept you for who you are right?
like what about going out to the clubs and just hanging with the girls/fellas-what if your significant other has a serious issue with this because they feel like its just not safe, to much happens in the club, or its just to much temptation (that's a whole nother conversation though)...
for example, you stop drinking and smoking and partying becasue you feel like you are too old anyways and its just not healthy for you, you have BEEN saying you were going to give up such things BEFORE, but the one you love was that extra push...
OR about, Mary J and how her husband told her if she came home one more time drunk he was going to leave her because he couldn't stand it...that was for her benefit right?
so i ask how much are you all willing to give up? and how much is too much?
NOTE: this will be one of a few relationship blog entries to come, i am working on another "are there any good men/women left?" so stay tuned!
is that changing to much for a person? is that bending to much for a person?
like your partner may ask you to stop drinking or to stop smoking
your partner may ask you to grow your beard out or your hair out, or ask you to cut all of it off
what about what you wear or where you go or what you do...
like honestly how much are you willing to give up for "love"?
if someone really loves you they are going to accept you for who you are right?
like what about going out to the clubs and just hanging with the girls/fellas-what if your significant other has a serious issue with this because they feel like its just not safe, to much happens in the club, or its just to much temptation (that's a whole nother conversation though)...
for example, you stop drinking and smoking and partying becasue you feel like you are too old anyways and its just not healthy for you, you have BEEN saying you were going to give up such things BEFORE, but the one you love was that extra push...
OR about, Mary J and how her husband told her if she came home one more time drunk he was going to leave her because he couldn't stand it...that was for her benefit right?
so i ask how much are you all willing to give up? and how much is too much?
NOTE: this will be one of a few relationship blog entries to come, i am working on another "are there any good men/women left?" so stay tuned!
is that changing to much for a person? is that bending to much for a person?
new hair, new music
ok so i have a ton of work that i could be doing but i'd much rather blog...
(yea i know, in the car taking pics of myself at the light...i am too much....peep my sexy though)
couple of other things that happened this weekend was that i finally was able to purchase the two CD's that i have been dying for!
i so wanted the Chrisette and Common CD's but funds was funny so they had to wait...
so Saturday, after i saw the parents, and got my card (with some $) i went to the best buy to get them...and MAN let me tell you i LOVE them both!
i listened both of the CDs all the way through...that's hard to do now and days...i needed so new music...
having good music is like have good shoes-just certain things that i like NEED to keep my spirit up...and good music is truly one of those items...
another GREAT item to have to keep the spirits up is a good hair do...my gurl Poo hooked me up YET again...with my hair being all na-tu-ral now, its hard to figure out what to do with it, but she keeps coming up with cool ideas and thangs...
so check me out
(yea i know, in the car taking pics of myself at the light...i am too much....peep my sexy though)and finally your girl, looks cute today! ha! CLASSIC!
i know...but i got up and put on some slacks (that are really jeans), my long shirt dress and a white shirt some gold earrings, some gold shoes...hell i even did my makeup this morning...
sometimes you got to do that get your spirit a little make over...is my mind still running a thousand miles a minute YES...but hey i know in the end it'll all be aiight...
3 more years...
as i sat in my living room last night that's what i thought to myself...
"dude i have ONLY 3 more years until i'll be 30 years old!"
geesh that's NOT really that far off...like what i am i going to do with the next 3 years of my life? where do i want to be? what do i want to be doing? who do i want to be?
like there are so many thoughts running through my head right now...
professionally: of course i am satisfied in my current position, but NOT that satisfied that THIS is where i want to be in 3 years...i want to complete my project management certificate, i want to get my public health generalist graduate certificate from GW
personally: of course i would love to be married or at least planning a wedding...thinking that i would have a child by 30 is out i guess, but you never know, but 3 years doesn't seem like a long time especially when you really think about getting married and coming together with someone you know
financially: i would love to be out of debt, like really...truck paid off, credit cards, the whole nine. that will require some major sacrifices but you know it'll be worth it if i can get out...i would also LOVE to buy a condo and be a home owner before i am 30, hell i'd love to be one now, but previous financial mistakes and the past housing market wasn't going to allow for that, but now its a possibility
spiritually: i want to just keep growing, in mind, body and spirit! i have come alone way with my faith and my ability to remain faithful no matter what...and i want to continue that growth to the fullest you know...nothing like growing and building a relationship with GOD
confidence: finally i am feeling GREAT in my own skin, in my own decisions, in my own life, and i know that even when mistakes are made i will continue to grow into my own...
i have learned NOT to make a "life plan" but rather to set "goals" for myself...can't plan life out, seems to me that every time you do, you end up disappointed, but rather if you set goals and are open to the changes that life may bring, you tend to do better...at least that's how i see it...
man, only 3 years until 30, dude/dudets imma gettin up there, ya know...but hey the lady at the MAC counter thought that i was just turning 21, no seriously, HA!
"dude i have ONLY 3 more years until i'll be 30 years old!"
geesh that's NOT really that far off...like what i am i going to do with the next 3 years of my life? where do i want to be? what do i want to be doing? who do i want to be?
like there are so many thoughts running through my head right now...
professionally: of course i am satisfied in my current position, but NOT that satisfied that THIS is where i want to be in 3 years...i want to complete my project management certificate, i want to get my public health generalist graduate certificate from GW
personally: of course i would love to be married or at least planning a wedding...thinking that i would have a child by 30 is out i guess, but you never know, but 3 years doesn't seem like a long time especially when you really think about getting married and coming together with someone you know
financially: i would love to be out of debt, like really...truck paid off, credit cards, the whole nine. that will require some major sacrifices but you know it'll be worth it if i can get out...i would also LOVE to buy a condo and be a home owner before i am 30, hell i'd love to be one now, but previous financial mistakes and the past housing market wasn't going to allow for that, but now its a possibility
spiritually: i want to just keep growing, in mind, body and spirit! i have come alone way with my faith and my ability to remain faithful no matter what...and i want to continue that growth to the fullest you know...nothing like growing and building a relationship with GOD
confidence: finally i am feeling GREAT in my own skin, in my own decisions, in my own life, and i know that even when mistakes are made i will continue to grow into my own...
i have learned NOT to make a "life plan" but rather to set "goals" for myself...can't plan life out, seems to me that every time you do, you end up disappointed, but rather if you set goals and are open to the changes that life may bring, you tend to do better...at least that's how i see it...
man, only 3 years until 30, dude/dudets imma gettin up there, ya know...but hey the lady at the MAC counter thought that i was just turning 21, no seriously, HA!
Sunday, August 05, 2007
Fab U lous
can we say my birthday was OFF the HOOK!
i woke up and prayed and meditated at about 6am, giving thanks for GOD giving me another year of life...man I am 27, only 3 years until 30, time to really make some goals....but that's another blog for another day....
upon finishing my prayers, he calling telling me happy birthday! That was the first great gift...
i heard from the bestest and then my mommy...
i got up and ate some breakfast, went to the mall and found an outfit all by myself, will not really because i sent KC pictures of two different dresses (thank goodness for picture phones) but the accessories and all of that i did by myself!
NOTE: i seem to always be able to pick stuff out for others but never for myself...
then it was off to the spa (i specifically deceided that i was going to go to the mall before my spa treatment so that i would stay on task)
so i get a swedish whole body message, a deluxe pedicure and manicure...can we say peaceful! Aww man it wasn't enough time in the day...
after the spa, it was off to try to find a pair of jeans, and how about this the woman that can NEVER find jeans that fit me, found not ONE but TWO pairs of jeans in the GAP...
so my birthday so far, is just absolutely GREAT...but wait it gets better...
grab a salad and went home to iron my clothes for the evening because the ladies and I were going to dinner
but before i could go to dinner i had to go and get my "face" done at the MAC counter (hey why not, never had it done before)
so i am totally nervous and it turned out to be extremely beautiful!
so back to the house to get dressed...
the bestest was there waiting on me, and she helped me talk out my corn rows and make my hair fluffy anf full...
so we are dressed and off...
we meet the ladies at Kobe's in Largo and had a BALL you here me...a total BALL!!!
Games included....YES JCroft and KC organized the event, and JCroft brought games, and I loved it...
we laughed and joked and had so much fun....but this was just the beginning....
I tend to not like going out to much anymore (yes jCroft i know i suck, but hey what can I say, i don't party) but we decided to go to the Avenue...my brother's friend works the door, so not only did we get in for FREE but we didn't wait in line...AWESOME
we get inside and the DJ is actually pumping....needless to say we partied our little hearts out...it was such a WONDERFUL time....we partied back...i mean partied
my brithday was FAB U LOUS!!!
i had so much fun, i mean i haven't had a birthday like that in i don't know how long...there were a couple of times when things that were totally out of my control could have totally gotten to me, but i decided to totally practice what i preach and that is CHOSE MY ATTITUDE....
Friday was MY day, and I made the most of MY day, and the little things like the guy getting smart with me about my pedi or the people at the MAC counter being taken aback because the last appointment should have been for 5 and not 6, but that wasn't my problem, i patiently waited and let them figure it out and got my make up done....
so i learned a lesson, i already knew though, things you have no control don't stress, you can create your enviroment...and i was totally blessed and just appreciated that, and had the GREATEST time ever....
so to my ladies (yes that includes you Jai ) THANK YOU!!! Words cannot fully express how wonderful it feels to have sistah's such as yourselves...
ps pics to come
i woke up and prayed and meditated at about 6am, giving thanks for GOD giving me another year of life...man I am 27, only 3 years until 30, time to really make some goals....but that's another blog for another day....
upon finishing my prayers, he calling telling me happy birthday! That was the first great gift...
i heard from the bestest and then my mommy...
i got up and ate some breakfast, went to the mall and found an outfit all by myself, will not really because i sent KC pictures of two different dresses (thank goodness for picture phones) but the accessories and all of that i did by myself!
NOTE: i seem to always be able to pick stuff out for others but never for myself...
then it was off to the spa (i specifically deceided that i was going to go to the mall before my spa treatment so that i would stay on task)
so i get a swedish whole body message, a deluxe pedicure and manicure...can we say peaceful! Aww man it wasn't enough time in the day...
after the spa, it was off to try to find a pair of jeans, and how about this the woman that can NEVER find jeans that fit me, found not ONE but TWO pairs of jeans in the GAP...
so my birthday so far, is just absolutely GREAT...but wait it gets better...
grab a salad and went home to iron my clothes for the evening because the ladies and I were going to dinner
but before i could go to dinner i had to go and get my "face" done at the MAC counter (hey why not, never had it done before)
so i am totally nervous and it turned out to be extremely beautiful!
so back to the house to get dressed...
the bestest was there waiting on me, and she helped me talk out my corn rows and make my hair fluffy anf full...
so we are dressed and off...
we meet the ladies at Kobe's in Largo and had a BALL you here me...a total BALL!!!
Games included....YES JCroft and KC organized the event, and JCroft brought games, and I loved it...
we laughed and joked and had so much fun....but this was just the beginning....
I tend to not like going out to much anymore (yes jCroft i know i suck, but hey what can I say, i don't party) but we decided to go to the Avenue...my brother's friend works the door, so not only did we get in for FREE but we didn't wait in line...AWESOME
we get inside and the DJ is actually pumping....needless to say we partied our little hearts out...it was such a WONDERFUL time....we partied back...i mean partied
my brithday was FAB U LOUS!!!
i had so much fun, i mean i haven't had a birthday like that in i don't know how long...there were a couple of times when things that were totally out of my control could have totally gotten to me, but i decided to totally practice what i preach and that is CHOSE MY ATTITUDE....
Friday was MY day, and I made the most of MY day, and the little things like the guy getting smart with me about my pedi or the people at the MAC counter being taken aback because the last appointment should have been for 5 and not 6, but that wasn't my problem, i patiently waited and let them figure it out and got my make up done....
so i learned a lesson, i already knew though, things you have no control don't stress, you can create your enviroment...and i was totally blessed and just appreciated that, and had the GREATEST time ever....
so to my ladies (yes that includes you Jai ) THANK YOU!!! Words cannot fully express how wonderful it feels to have sistah's such as yourselves...
ps pics to come
Thursday, August 02, 2007
life
as quickly as it can begin, things can come to an end
but in the midst of the dispear i will bare no tears
because the cycle of life just continues to grow and flow
most people can't honestly say if they know or believe that a loved one has reached eternal peace
but i can say with confidence and love in my heart that i know you did
full of joy
full of wisdom
full of a reverance for nothing other than GOD and family
a man of my own heart
if i join with a man that is half the man that you are-then i will be truly BLESSED
a pillar of strength
a heart golden
so though my heart is sad
my mind full
i am at peace with the fact that you suffer no more
i love you now and forever
rest in peace Uncle Ollie
8-2-07
but in the midst of the dispear i will bare no tears
because the cycle of life just continues to grow and flow
most people can't honestly say if they know or believe that a loved one has reached eternal peace
but i can say with confidence and love in my heart that i know you did
full of joy
full of wisdom
full of a reverance for nothing other than GOD and family
a man of my own heart
if i join with a man that is half the man that you are-then i will be truly BLESSED
a pillar of strength
a heart golden
so though my heart is sad
my mind full
i am at peace with the fact that you suffer no more
i love you now and forever
rest in peace Uncle Ollie
8-2-07
Wednesday, August 01, 2007
what it do...
today's post is pretty much about nothing...
nothing at all, nothing in particular...
ok, so i got back from the Chi late last night, and had a pretty chill morning, i didn't have to be downtown until 9:30, and on my way into the office for an 11am meeting i did a little window shopping...so needless to say i am in a pretty pleasant mood...
in fact i had a fijita and some sorbet for lunch! totally being a "fat gurl" and am totally ok with it, ALTHOUGH my new diet and exercise plan was supposed to start TODAY...well at least i'll hit up the gym, that's if he doesn't fly in tonight! yes he might just fly in tonight, but we'll see, not getting my hopes up because you never know, but regardless he'll be here on sunday...
he said the sweetest thing this morning, but i'll keep it to myself....
my uncle is stable! yes GOD is GREAT! and my mommy is on her way back home!
my daddy is up and about today as well...
you know i am tired as hell...i mean tired as hell...maybe i'll leave at like 4pm today, because man i need a nap before i pick mommy up OR see my honey...
dude, can we say, i am actually happy in a relationship, EVEN though he gets on my ever lasting nerves...seems like we have been a lot closer since he has been gone...
my ladies are planning an eventful bDay for me! that will be GrEAT....i know that it'll be a ME day because imma do that, ME! can we say SPA day! HELLO!
Life is always life...just wanted to touch base with you all...
i have some thoughts floating around in my little heaad and will get to you all soon on some stuff you know
faith
love
dog fighting
Common's new CD
books...
oh and my birthday!
so i'll holla!
UPDATE:
he is HERE!!! can we say HAPPY! he flies right back out tomorrow night after he takes care of some bidness stuff, but imma see my baby tonight...happy early bDay gift...he was on his way the ENTIRE time! awwwwwwww
nothing at all, nothing in particular...
ok, so i got back from the Chi late last night, and had a pretty chill morning, i didn't have to be downtown until 9:30, and on my way into the office for an 11am meeting i did a little window shopping...so needless to say i am in a pretty pleasant mood...
in fact i had a fijita and some sorbet for lunch! totally being a "fat gurl" and am totally ok with it, ALTHOUGH my new diet and exercise plan was supposed to start TODAY...well at least i'll hit up the gym, that's if he doesn't fly in tonight! yes he might just fly in tonight, but we'll see, not getting my hopes up because you never know, but regardless he'll be here on sunday...
he said the sweetest thing this morning, but i'll keep it to myself....
my uncle is stable! yes GOD is GREAT! and my mommy is on her way back home!
my daddy is up and about today as well...
you know i am tired as hell...i mean tired as hell...maybe i'll leave at like 4pm today, because man i need a nap before i pick mommy up OR see my honey...
dude, can we say, i am actually happy in a relationship, EVEN though he gets on my ever lasting nerves...seems like we have been a lot closer since he has been gone...
my ladies are planning an eventful bDay for me! that will be GrEAT....i know that it'll be a ME day because imma do that, ME! can we say SPA day! HELLO!
Life is always life...just wanted to touch base with you all...
i have some thoughts floating around in my little heaad and will get to you all soon on some stuff you know
faith
love
dog fighting
Common's new CD
books...
oh and my birthday!
so i'll holla!
UPDATE:
he is HERE!!! can we say HAPPY! he flies right back out tomorrow night after he takes care of some bidness stuff, but imma see my baby tonight...happy early bDay gift...he was on his way the ENTIRE time! awwwwwwww
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