unbeweavable

so last night i was gettin my net weave sown in (shot out to my weave/braider who can sew the fool out of a weave-got me looking all delicious and thangs today)

and so we were in the spot talking about stuff like we always do

men
shopping
purses in particular
Nordstrom sale that starts on the 6th (opening at 7am and I might go before i go to work, sad i know)
trips
traveling
shopping

all that type of stuff and as you know the conversations can get quit interesting and deep...

well her other client tells us the story of her fellow co-worker that just passed away two Sunday's ago...

she played football and she went like she normally did, played that Sunday morning, the entire game, went back to sit on the bench and just like that she was gone...in an instant she was gone...

29 years young!

yes, you read right, 29 years young!

she was extremely healthy, ate the right things, worked out EVERY DAY faithfully at 4am!
but two Sunday's ago she was gone...she was from Florida and the only person she had up here was her one cousin and her fiancee, yep she had JUST gotten engaged a couple of months ago...

by the time he reached the hospital (with her co-worker that was like family and telling us the story) she was gone, just laying there...

could you imagine? i don't even want to think about it...

So i tell the story to say this:

people life is a precious gift from Jehovah GOD...precious, appreciate it, live life to the fullest, to the best of your ability...be good to others and watch GOD be good to you...be good to yourself and watch GOD be good to you...a lot of times we don't know or don't have the answers to the things that happen, but keep the faith, and keep right on striving folks because you never know...

one of my co-workers was in a near fatal car accident last year and she asked me "what do you want your tombstone to say"

yea i know caught me off guard too...but you know what...i live my life so that whatever it is, it'll be positive...

Live, Laugh and most of all Love...

ps
today is my Friday and it starts at 1pm, (in the words of Honey Libra woooohhooooooo) and i have wedding duties to tend to (didn't think i got this weave for nothing, i am walking down the isle tomorrow night) so i'll catch ya'll on the flip side

peace, blessings and love people...

oh and check this scripture out 1 John 4:12...

I need to be silent

and sit still for a minute, or a while actually...

my mind is running uncontrollably right now...

yes i know i made a mistake, and the pain of hurting you hurts me more than you'll ever really know...

so today (and maybe longer) i will sit and be silent...

and i'll leave you with this:

Now that you're here
This is the moment you've been moving toward ever since the day you were born. The world you see in front of you now is the world you've long been expecting.

Now that you're here, perhaps there are some things that you find to be disappointing. Look beyond the disappointment, though, and you'll see so very much more.
You'll see within yourself a lifetime of experience that's more extensive now than ever before. You'll see opportunities for making use of that experience to create new unique and meaningful value.

You'll realize that no matter how much you've already done, there is always some new gift that you can give to life. You'll understand that no matter what may have happened before, there is always a way to move positively forward.

Now that you're here, you can learn from the past and begin to create the future. Now that you're here, you can think and feel and dream and act in accordance with your most treasured purpose.

You've traveled through a lot of living to get to this moment. Now is when you can truly fulfill the best of your possibilities.

stay up people & be blessed

Jam of the week

ok so i haven't had one of these in a minute, but this song right here is pure fire...i mean FIRE!
I have always loved this artist but man she has made a COME BACK...or maybe we shouldn't call it a come back cause she has been here for years....

i hope you loved this as much as i do...



get it!

in the ghetto???

so have you ever had someone, call you something and you want to know what they mean by that, or maybe they said it and didn't understand that what they were saying was rather offensive, or maybe you found it offensive and others don't or maybe it shouldn't be offensive to you at all because its just who you are

Well that is what happened, one of my close girl friends decided that I was ghetto...

yes, GHETTO....

so i was rather bothered by this statement....

in my humble opinion

a ghetto is a place....it is an enviroment, it is NOT a personality, a body type, or the way people act...and it bothers me when people say that...

further more, the formal definition of a ghetto is:

1. A section of a city occupied by a minority group who live there especially because of social, economic, or legal pressure.
2. An often walled quarter in a European city to which Jews were restricted beginning in the Middle Ages.
3. Something that resembles the restriction or isolation of a city ghetto: "trapped in ethnic or pink-collar managerial job ghettoes" Diane Weathers

I didn't grow up in the most uppity neighborhoods, i did grow up in a middle class neighborhood, hell we didn't even have sidewalks....and as i got older, the dynamics changed and we had a crack house or two and a hooker house...

but that wasn't anything that concerned me, because even the drug dealers or whatever, respected my father and our family and kept that mess "off our corner"

the reality is that my father took me to the "ghetto/hood" when i was little, he took me there to show me what being poor or unfortunate really was, he didn't shield me from that, he made sure that i knew what i had were two extremely hard working parents that provided for me, and that i was fortunate and i should NEVER take them or my opportunities for granted...

See i learned that nothing in this life is a GIVEN or an entitlement...that i had to work hard for what i wanted...and just because my circumstances were better than someone else's didn't make me better than them, or just because someone else's circumstances were better than mine, didn't make them better than me...because they were just that circumstances, and circumstances can all change...

i love my Daddy for sharing that lesson with me...because it taught me a lot about the reality of life and what's "real" and what isn't...

i received a good education, i went on to college and on to graduate school...and i worked hard for everything that i have...

here is the reality of my personality (& if you know me feel free to add):

i am down to earth

i can talk to anyone, from the worse of the worse to the "best of the best"

i can fit in anywhere

i am book smart

i am street smart

i feel comfortable in all areas, the "hood" if you will and in the "gated community"

as HE would say "I can take you to a mud wrestling match or a dinner at the Kennedy Center"

so that means that....

i can be loud and say what i want when i want

or i can be professional and poised

or i can holla at my cousins n em on the corner

or i can get dressed and go to a ballet

i understand how the "streets" work as well as how corporate ameriKa works

i get it ALL sides of the story, all sides of OUR story...

we aren't a one dimensional type of people...we come from all types of experiences...

so i would never feel comfortable with someone calling me ghetto or country, especially with a negative connotation behind it...because i am so much more than that...as one of my other close girl friends stated. "T we are a triple threat, street smart, book smart and pretty...we can fit in anywhere, others can't do that"

and i see her point...she is right...that pretty much sums me up, hell my uncle just said that to me on mother's day at dinner...but when he said it, he made me feel,how i already feel: empowered that i should be proud of all of my attributes, even the things that are as he would say are "rough around the edges"

but when someone says "you are SO GHETTO" that's not positive to me...because i am so much more than that...so get off it already....

so for me its like, stop putting people that do not "act" like you (or how you feel people should act) in a category, stop stereotyping already...

hell if I am not being called ghetto, than i am bourgeois, or stuck up (because i am light skinned of course) but maybe its because i don't really say much unless i know you, and when i know you and i let you in, then i feel like i can talk and be stupid and silly and loud and say what i want and feel how i feel with out being judged because you are supposed to be my peoples....

ahhhhh well, you can't satisfy everyone, so what i'll do is focus on making ME happy, because

i am who i am an imma be who imma be...all i can be is ME...

and that's the reality...

peace people its all love

I'm back....

in the building...yea and I look like that A HAM!

I didn't even touch down at BWI until after 1am!!!!

but im back

Happy Friday!

so since its Friday, and i haven't posted all week, i felt the need to be a little inspirational, especially since its rainy and dark outside...so if you aren't careful you can pretty much get into a funk...(I do have something on my mind that i want to blog about...but I will do so later, once i get my thoughts together...let's just say it has to deal with stereotypes and labels we tend to place on each other without knowing it...)

but we will NOT do that today...

Today we will be POSITIVE

to much to be happy about, why because here is the weekend lineup:

Friday-
M&M
Tutoring
Shauna's graduation party (i might not make it to this, but its on the agenda)

Saturday-
Nikki & Marlin's wedding @ noon/reception at 2 with Mommy
Renada's graduation cookout
Shauna's graduation cookout

Sunday-
Church
cleaning & packing...

Monday -
off to Michigan for a week of training for my job...

so life is full, its good and it worth just being happy about, feeling blessed you know...so on that note, check out the inspiration....

Best day ever
A new day has dawned. And with it, countless new positive possibilities have been born.
Certainly there are difficulties and obstacles in your life and in your world. Yet they are always outnumbered by your blessings.
Focus today on those blessings. Give your attention and your awareness to what's right with life.
Those who wish to control you and to take advantage of you will seek to fill your thoughts with fear and discouragement. Yet there is really no reason for you to be fearful or discouraged.
For life is not what someone tells you it will be. Life is precisely what you make it.
By focusing on the good things, on the positive possibilities, on your blessings and opportunities, you can make life truly magnificent. A new day has dawned, and you can choose to make it the best day ever.
-- Ralph Marston

The weekend

imma post about it soon...or maybe not...ok so its UPDATED
i am actually extreme tired and out of it because i have been running since thursday, actually before then...

friday-girls night

yep even through the smoke from the grill we still look beautiful....me and my ladies

my brother showed up at the steak house, and wouldn't you know it....

he literally came and took my plate and ate my food...OFF THE HOOK!

me in the club....watch out for the big gurls....LOL...imma cutie though...HELLO!

Saturday-all about Ki and her wedding day...
the bride to be

me being apart of an truly inspiring inter-generational conversation about life, love, being a woman, letting him be the man, and most of all NOT losing YOU...the lady in the middle is AWESOME it was GREAT totally ONE of the highlights of the day for me
Sunday-all about Mommy and family

Today-all about me...

but no matter if i am not feeling good and trying to rest, i still have stuff that needs to get done...so imma make it an early night...

i promise i'll get back on here soon enough...and i am fine, no worries...

listen to the song on the side...that's how i am feeling...

keep believing in you people!

Peace

rAndomneSS (IV)

you know what, people get on my every lasting friggin nerves...

let me start off by saying, that i woke up stuffy and pissed at 4am because i was hot, so the day didn't necessarily start off right to begin with...

again people get on my friggin nerves...

it amazes me that people that don't want you to do something, give you grief about it, then turn around and friggin do the SAME thing...ugggggggggggg...you, yea YOU, you get on my nerves, really and truly you get on my nerves....

i love being a woman and then sometimes i don't...like on days like today when i am having issues and needed to get IN to the my specialist just to make sure it wasn't nothing serious...and all it is, is that i need to change my BCP because the harmone isn't enough....

i am tired and ready to go home and go to bed...but my home girl is home from CA so NOPE not an option, me and the ladies is going OUT tonight, and you know our going out isn't even going OUT...we are going to dinner and then back to my house for dranks and to talk...nothing major at all...really cute...we MIGHT hit up a spot but i doubt it...

did i say i was ready to go home...

well let me say it again, i am ready to go...

i spent $68 unnecessarily today, why because i just HAD to go to H & M during lunch...why? because i just HAD to have a cute top or two and some accessories and some sunshades....uggg...

yea, i had a GREAT time with you last night, first time in a long time we had a date...an actual date...it was cute...

but trust, people STILL get on my nerves, especially you...

i need a vaca...can't wait to go to the ATL July 1st! that'll be right after our national meeting for work, so i will be real tired and ready to go and relax, my LS is preggers so she will be REALLY preggers by then and won't want to do nothing...YES...

hopfully i'll be able to hook up with Jus and C.I. while i am down there though...

oh and its HOT as HELL outside, yea you all might not think so but for someone like me that HATES the heat, the fact that i had to take my friggin butt to the doctors in this midday crap urked my last nerves...

so you can imagine how heated imma be in the REAL heat this summer...see i told you i hated heat...

m&m tonight, but i don't have to be there until 6:30, cool i can go and get my wip and then go, that way i can leave RIGHT at 7pm, and go pick up some things for me and the girl, iron, take a shower and roll OUT...

still can't believe you, yea YOU, you are on my unbelievable list, but have fun...seriously, and be SAFE...and not just in the streets, with these females out here too...notice i didn't say WOMEN...

Ki's bridal shower/party tomorrow...

Nikki's wedding next Saturday

Shauna's graduation party next Friday night (oh and I DEFINITELY going NOW)

Shauna & Renada's graduation cookouts next Saturday....

i am like booked every friggin weekend until the second weekend in July...

are you serious, i am NOT that important...imma have to revamp some of this crap i know that...i can't do EVERY friggin thing....

my nephew left me a v/m last night tell me that he loved me...

i think i need to listen to that...as a matter a fact, i got pictures from his mother showing me his first visit to the dentist....she is really a good mother...and he is a cool kid...

that just made me smile...

ok, so its me and the ladies tonight, funky fresh, dressed ready to party...so no more worries...

have a GREAT weekend people...

PEACE

90 day review

so yesterday i had my 90 day reveiew
it was about a month late, but it was really good!

i got basically all good and excellent, positive remarks
the only thing is i have to report to basically 3 (about to be 4) different people, that's 4 different styles and at times, they are all pullin...so i don't hide my frusration very well at all...so i need to work on that..but other than that

i really love my job! like really i do, i care about the mission, the vision, the purpose and about the people here! so i am really blessed and happy right about now....

my supervisor also stated that one of my projects is being extended and that she is definitely looking for ways (and wants me to think about) for me to make my mark and have items for my portfolio...so its on

your girl is ON HER WAY!

Weekend in review

weewww...i never thought that i was going to be able to let you guys know what happened over the weekend...man it was a good one...

Friday

got out the 2nd all day meeting, came back to the office to wrap some stuff up and then out the door i could make it to Music & Morals

finally get to M&M and the kids had just finished watching a video and were being off the hook as usual, one dude even cursed (all of the participants aren't teenagers we have some young adults in there too) so anyways, but we have to get used to each other and i think we'll be ok...

per my mother and a couple of other folks, who will be happy that i said that "they told me so" i received a phone call on Friday...decent enough, but i needed to talk to a male to get a perspective, so me and SH talked after Music & Morals for about an hour...he and i have known each other for some years and he even dated one of my close girls in high school, so he is like family (that's how Kiamsha is though) so he gave me some insight and i gave him some as well with regard to his current situation...it was a great dialogue and i left feeling refreshed and ready to chill

so that's what i did went home and chilled for the evening

Saturday

got up and began the house cleaning process

got dressed and heading with my mother to my little cousin's house for her 2nd Annual Mother's Day Brunch (now mind you she ain't so little, about to be 24 and having a baby in July)

it was really nice i love being around the women in my family, we laugh, joke and talk, all generations...and i got to spend some QT with my mommy!

after that she and i ran a couple of errands and then i went home to nap before the Eric Roberson Concert:

yes i went to see Eric Roberson Saturday night (yes the #1 stunner got up and out the house) and let me tell you he was AWESOME! he put on such a GREAT show...

it was a nice evening and my co-worker (shots out to AM) thought that the doors opened at 8, but they didn't until 9-so since it was off U street we went to Ben's Chilli Bowl got some good eats and laughed and talked...at 9 we were at the door walking in to the smooth sounds of this dude as a dj:

yes ladies the Idris Elba was the dj for the night, and with his London accent and all, he ROCKED it!

Then Eric cam on about 10:20 or so and did his thing until AFTER midnight!

it was one of THE best shows i have been to in a while and i really enjoyed the music the atmosphere, the people, just being able to chill listen to some GREAT music, hang out with my girl and not worry about no one trying to "holla" and no one acting a fool- it was just what i NEEDED after the week i had...get way to unwind, celebrate my success, and deal with my pains....

got home and was in the bed at about 2am

Son-day

my mother calls and wakes me up about 8:30am!

it was cool though, i needed to get up and go to church, got there for the 10am service and was truly blessed

Phil 4:6-7 Prayer, Praise and Peace! (look it up)

left there and went to check on my parents, and did some running around, got some ribs from around the way off the truck (and let me tell you they are BAGGING) and went home finished cleaning, did a little shopping at the town center for a couple needed items and just chilled...

all in all i had a GREAT weekend...

this weekend is packed with events from visiting with the ladies Friday night, doing KB's bridal and bachelorette party, and then Mother's day on Sonday...plenty plenty to do...which is always a good thing!

yea me!

hope you all had a great weekend as well

10 Weird/Unknown/Crazy Facts About Me

so i got this from jac, who got it from teej...
so here it is...

my 10 most...

1. I can't do anything until i iron my clothes...that's right, i won't eat, sit down and relax, NOTHING until i FIRST figure out what i am wearing to work the next day and iron it...once that is done, i can eat or whatever else...

2. when i go to sleep it has to be absolutely competely dark, and totally silent...i have to have all 3 locks and my top bar on my front door and my bedroom door has to be locked

3. i love my bathroom, like that is THE room that most relaxes me when I come home...i will just go in there and sit, read, look at mags all that stuff...i have even fallen asleep on the tiolet before...lol

4. i hate hair...like literally i hate hair...i would shave it all off if it didn't itch so friggin bad when it grows back...lol...i would have a cesar cut the whole nine if that wouldn't mean me looking like my brother

5. i can't do the "copied" CD/DVD/MOVIE thing...i have to buy the "real" thing...something about it makes me feel like its stealing (which it is) but also i need the inserts of the album, the credits, the extra screens on the DVD...i need to see the movie on the big screen not in my house

6. i love love love Harry Potter! I have all of the movies and I go see them, when they come out, ALONE on the first day...like i'll take off work or go doing lunch to see it...

7. i hate the heat...like hate heat...i will put the air on if its the least bit stuffy, take my lunch so i don't have to go outside in the heat for lunch...all that...sweat sucks...

8. i can't shower at night, it doesn't make sense to do so, becasue if i do, i still will have to shower in the morning becasue i sweat in my sleep no matter what I sweat...

9. i don't eat or allow anyone to eat on my dinning room table...its totally set up already and its clean and i don't want my wood messed up...so you eat sitting on the living room floor or standing up in the kitchen i don't care...just don't eat at my table

10. i have to change my comfoter set every 6 months or so, i mean like go out and buy a new set...i don't move furniture or anything, but i need my room to be different...so its like a spring/summer look and then there will be a fall/winter look...i know i know...

I don't think that is that weird but hey

Hump Day....

so today is like any other Wednesday, except for the fact that tomorrow i will be doing my first presentation EVER for my job and hosting 2-1 day meetings...

so needless to say i am extremely nervous, BUT at the same time, i am feeling pretty good because i have actually been on top of everything that needed to be done..

for my first meetingS, planning from beginning to end including the content, i think i am doing alright...

now just to make sure i stay this confident and do well with my presentation and taking notes and then final reports...

its funny to actually be at a job and really feeling like OK, I am making a name and career for myself...i have like a million and one projects going on at the same time, but yet i feel like i am staying on top of it all...pretty cool i think you know...

so here's to hump day being just that the middle of the week, last day in the office, and two days of meetings that little will always be done by 4 don't start until 9, and after tomorrow i will be just fine...(corny i know...)

but i am really excited about the content of both meetings and so being away from my computer my suck a little (but i can still check e-mail via my smart phone) but all in all...here's to moving up the career ladder here at work and getting more knowledge and experience in my new field!

yea me!!!!

UPDATE:

my presentation went GREAT! (that is what I was told by my direct supervisor, who also happens to be the Deputy Director of the Organization) she stated: that i did an EXCELLENT job, the presentation was GREAT and I ran the meeting like I owned it...i ran it with precision and was able to reach all of the meeting goals we left with clear next steps and objectives

all of the participants came up to me and told me how well i did...

now here's my review:

i think i did well, i talked through my presentation, made it conversational, didn't read from the slides, I kept the meeting running even when there were items that had been added, still got the next steps out of the group and still ended ON TIME...but there is ALWAYS room for improvement and although i was engaged i feel like i can be even more engaging once i really get my feet wet in the content area (EHR systems are new to me, to all of us...but I handled it)...

but all in all YEA ME!!!

tomorrow's meeting I run in terms of logistics and am only secondary in terms of content NOT the led, so I can chill now...HELLO!!!!