Wednesday, November 29, 2006

Yea I was pissed...AND

Man today wasn't looking to hot...I was really feeling overwhelmed...trying my best to just be THANKFUL for the things I DO have and not stress over what I don't...but let's just say my thoughts and everything was getting the best of me...but you ever just feel like, man why me? Why is MY life so hard and everyone else' isn't? And you KNOW that that's really NOT the case, because you NEVER really know what someone is really going through, but right now, at this moment in this space...you are questioning EVERYTHING...you just feel stuck and hopeless...

Yea well that's how I was feeling this morning....

For example, I still haven't received my papers from the insurance company yet...
I am thinking about moving because of the robbery AND because I pay entirely too much rent to be going through changes...AND I just pay too much rent not to be owning...
I am frustrated with my career path and trying to determine my purpose...I mean I like my job and its a good job with good people, but is this IT, what I want to DO with my life...
I keep having crazy dreams...


And that's just to name a few things that is going on with me

But MAN...when I say GOD can change things in a matter of moments...
I got the lady to say I could fax her my stuff and what everything is worth...
There seems to be a little light at the end of the financial tunnel, even if just for the short run...
My CEO came by to ask me about my health and I shared with him what is going on with me...he was a little shocked and I think he understands better now why I was out for a week the end of last month....
There also seems to be a little light for the career path...

So I am feeling a little better than I was this morning...still a little on edge, still nervous and still unsure...but I have been reminded by several people around me that GOD has me where HE wants me to be, and it may not seem like it, but everything is going to work itself out
I mean don't get me wrong I still have my doubts but that's where me praying and working on my faith comes in...

You got to have FAITH...
STAY UP PEOPLE!

13 comments:

Anonymous said...

You know how the old saying goes all you need is a mustard seed and He will do the rest. As long as you trust and depend on God and let Him guide your path He will take care of you. You are a very positve person you have really lifted my spirits. I might become a regular here.

T.C. said...

@ladyj-What it do!!! Welcome to the spot...Thanks for the warm words...sometimes I don't feel so positive...but I am trying my best...I am really trying my best...I am definitely going to check out your spot...

shereejoi said...

Here's something you can remember and say:

The light of god surronds me
The love of god enfolds me
The power of god protects me
The presence of god watches over me
wherever Iam god is and all is well

blkbutterfly said...

just passing through because i don't think i ever commented from when you came by my spot a while ago.

i can relate to this post in a # of ways. you're right, the light is there. the closer you get to it, the brighter it becomes.

eclectik said...

YAY!!!!!

Happy to hear about the turn around :)

Honey-Libra said...

Having faith is half the battle.

I'm glad things are working out better..God knows just what you need when you need it most..we just have to learn that it's his timing not ours :)

T.C. said...

@sehreejoi-Thank you very much for that...I am definitely going to be using that on a regular basis...

@blkbuttergly-its good to know I am NOT alone...its a hard knock life sometimes...

@e-I try I try...

@honey-you are SO right and I tell myself that all the time, its in HIS time...and Imma have to KEEP telling myself that!

NegroPino™ said...

Thats what HE does..HE Tests our FAITHS..makes us better, stronger people. Especially things u can't control nor change. I been in your predicament before. I like to look @ the bright side of things. SO just breathe....be easy..and this too shall pass.

Anonymous said...

yes ma'am...that he does...don't worry it'll get better.....PRAYER CHANGES EVERYTHING....

T.C. said...

@negropino-*breathing...just breathing...* I know you are right, and Imma keep trying to keep positive and keep pushing

@tsvw-you are so right..amd Imma definitely keep praying!

Anonymous said...

I'm always the last on these joints. Last but not least!

Royce's Daughter made a very good point in her Gratitude Wednesday post. She said something about how the experiences are building her up to be the strengthened woman that someone will need her to be someday. I liked that and I think...well I know it applies here. As I always say, keep your head up mama.

T.C. said...

@jac-it definitely applies here! I know its all because GOD is preparing me for something bigger and better, and in the end I will be a stronger more faithful and spiritfilled woman...I do KNOW that...

Wednesday was just a day for me...I have truly been staying positive but Wednesday for some reason, tthat morning, all the walls started to tumble down...
2006 has been a ROUGH one for me...and its just been one thing after another, but like my Madea says "trouble don't last always..." and I know that to be true...

In the end it will not have been in vain and I know that there is a reason behind it all...like could be a whole lot worse so I keep pushing and I am glad that I acknowledge how I felt and feel and will let meself breathe and move forward...

Anonymous said...

And as I always say, keep your head up lady.