total rAdomneSS

stuff never ceases to amaze me...or should i say people...let's start off with the positive:


I got this message today:

TC: Your example and your words are more powerful and inspiring than you know. At 24 years old, 25 in February, I would love to say that I've outgrown the position of mentee, but it appears I still have much to learn from you, big sis. Looking forward to it.


I must say that it truly brightened my day...well actually I went into the day with a pretty postive attitude because we had our Kaimsha Family Reunion last. The KAA group worked really hard to make sure that everything that needed to be done, including a documentary that included my momma was put together very nicely...i saw a LOT of people I hadn't see in YEARS and it was good to see those that came up under me come back and that they are doing extremely WELL! so that had me in good spirits...


then you know life takes control and you realize that it is really what it is, and that no matter how hard you do or work towards something there will always be something else that other people feel the needs to say or do...what really blows me is how badly other people's attitudes can really SUCK and when i say SUCK I mean suck majorly and i am not digging it..and i am really trying to NOT let it affect me and how i carry myself but sometimes its really hard when all people want to do is emerse the air with negative energy...


i am doing well at my pt job...worked on saturday and on day 3 the store manager was like he wanted me to come in so that i can be trained on the register...that my work was amazing...yea its only a pt but you want to do well on any job and it feels good to be recognized at least at one place

all i can do is keep my head above water and keep moving forward you know what i mean...

i am still not dating and have no interest in dating...i still don't worry about marriage or having children...i know that i want those things to happen, but i am also pretty sure that i have no control over it happening or not, so my energy is better suited to praying that GOD helps me remain faithful in HIS plan for my life...i am not bitter or angry just not focused on that

so that's what i have been doing...praying and reading the word...I have been reading a chapter of Proverbs a night, it really does have some very powerful and practical guidance and to me that's the best way to prepare to start off the new year...with guidance and ways to be wiser, better, stronger and more connected to GOD...

so yea i am a little frustrated today, i just can't dig the negativity you know...i try to do what i gotta do...so i am thinking i am going to keep right on channeling PC "do your work and mind your business" is my motto for this part of my life right now