random hAppineSS

yes i am totally randomly happy...no particular special reason other than everyday we are able to get up and see another day and be healthy is another day to be happy...

December 1st was yet another step in the beginning of preparing myself for Jan09, can you believe its about to be 2009 already? I know right its a marvelous thing though I am totally excited about all that 2009 has to offer me...i know life won't always be easy but it surely isn't all that hard...and here is the real deal

you can't love the life you live until you live the life you love...

now isn't that some real talk...like you only got this one life this one moment and opportunity to make your mark on the world so what are YOU going to do...sit around and wait for the world to come to you, or get out there and go into the world...so that's what i am setting my sights on...

stuff hasn't fallen EXACTLY into place as i would like or as i wanted it to, but its falling and will fall exactly how GOD sees fit for it to fall and i already KNOW that it will fall better than i could have every imagined...

did i tell you that my cousin got engaged? YEP she is 25 will be 26 and she is getting married in June. he proposed on Monday of last week and we found out at dinner...she wants a simple wedding in the backyard at night...its her and him though all the way they are very chill people, they don't need a "show" (i needs me a show...LOL...i want the HUGE church wedding with all the bells but that's me and my personality you know-but who knows) so that now takes me to dress #7! Cool with me though i totally love being around and helping people on their special wedding day...PLUS i know that they love each other they are both working on PhDs are both dedicated and loyal and just all around GOOD people!

thanksgiving was GREAT, even though people were looking at ME because i am the oldest girl and they just KNEW i would be first to get married, because i just have this as my aunt said "matenal thing" yea but i can do that without getting married, no no no people not have a kid by turkey baster i am talking about being a mentor and loving my neices and nephews and all the babies that are around me...i got plenty to share the love with...LOL and more important i am not settling so i'll be single...i have SO MUCH to just be thankful for in terms of life and love and just being happy!

my male cousin Jocko told me that i am a lot to handle...while this i believe is indeed TRUE i am an independent woman it is also TRUE that i am totally ready to as JAC said "let the man lead" HOWEVER i am NOT letting a fool lead me anywhere...so therefore, i'll just be chillaxin until that time...i KNOW that there are good men out there, i mean my homeboys are good guys, my brothers and cousins are good guys...so in time when GOD is finished working on ME then i'll be ready, until then i am going to keep focusing on making me whole

did i tell you i am still not interested in dating...yep totally not, but boy oh boy do i love to look...men are GORGEOUS oh me oh my...so i have fun watching men dressed up on the train. Man that's a handsome look to just see a man dressed in a suit or shirt and tie, some hitting shoes and slacks that fall just right over the shoe with the coat...and the face shaped up just right...so i smile and enjoy just looking at everyone from the Metro train operator to the trash man to the business man you all beautiful!

okay let me stop now...LOL

Kanye did it again...808's is HOT the first song "say you will" is on constant repeat the beats the entire thing just gets me into this whole level of calm and just chill...the dude has definitely got some serious talent that's for sure!

my cousin moved here from Chi-town, and truth be told we didn't even know we were cousins until we met face to face...my other homegirl Ms. Perkins just wanted me to look out for her and come to find out, that her mom and my mom are first cousins and thus so are we, the girl is BAD you here me, Masters already and not even 24 yet...she is good....but she is also humble, down to earth and we have so much fun just laughin and jokin...

i sat back and thought about my girls i mean my REAL girls, i mean we all have girls that are for a certain purpose like to party with, or to talk to about a certain situation but i sat back and thought about my girls that are there no matter WHAT and can tell you i was blessed

let's see what else...oh i am also dieting, or continuing my healthy lifestyle change...i have now added the WHEY protein shake for breakfast then some oatmeal and then some soup and then a nice snack and then a healthy dinner...smaller meals throughout the day is the way imma go...but healthy smaller meals...and of course exercising i am up to 3 miles total! YES! then i do some other stuff so we'll see what december holds...OH and i got back on a multi vitamin...i guess since i have been struggling really all my life because i have always been thicker than my friends, but now yes i want to lose weight but it just want to feel and look good for ME not for society or societies standards because people are ALWAYS going to have something to say but just for me...

well that's it and that's all folks nothing more really going on with me...just having a good time and enjoying life