Wednesday, August 13, 2008

blah...

that's how i feel today very blah...

i am not sad, mad, or angry....but i am just blah...

certain people are fine while others just are urking my ever lasting nerves...

there is totally a lot to post about, lessons learned...the fact that an 11 year old little girl wrote a DEATH THREAT to another child
the fact that over half the robbery arrests in the Metro system have involved juveniles...

the fact that i keep getting these headaches

or that i turn my phone off at night now because after 9pm i just don't want to be bothered, more less its hard enough for me to get to sleep but i for dag on sure don't want you waking me up...

how about some stuff doesn't even make sense to me half the time...like are you serious, why are you even asking me that or telling me that...oh yea and thanks for asking how i am doing...HA!

so totally ready to go home today...my homegirl mo said i needed a nap and i probably do...

i got an email yesterday about one of my sorors getting married...she just got engaged and they up and got married...she looked absolutely BEAUTIFUL...the thing was it was totally inspiring...and i told her so...she told me that she found this here blog and that it was inspiring due to me being so candid...well i guess that answers my question about whether or not i was going to keep blogging...she said it may actually help people...well it does actually help me to get my feelings out there and just ramble a little bit...ya know...

my mom's retirement party is next week...40 years at one place! 40! most people can barely do 4 years in one spot let alone 40! i am really proud of her...she is such a strong woman...like she is totally amasing to me...and guess what i didn't know just how much i had of her in ME until recent events...i find myself being like WOW...i get it from my momma...LOL...

i gotta get her a gift from us kids and her grandkids...she deserves it...although she already got a Doonie & Berck bag from when i was in LA but you know small change small change...LOL...

i'll be back to post about the most recent reflections, how i am creating a list of goals that i want to accomplish in the next 2 years, since i'll be 30...some things are already in the making...gotta make moves, including finishing this application to go back to school...i do NOT like writing personal statements, why? because they are so personal...i know ironic right...i don't like talking about myself...but its a good program at a good school and its only a certificate, i mean i see no point in getting another master's degree...but i do want a certificate and this fulfills my need for public health (for my job) and my want to learn about mental health issues...

i will say that i had a FAB time last friday evening....me and a fellow blogger, who just so happens to be a homgurl from high school went to dinner...do you know we sat there for 3 hours! yes 3 hours just talking...she just got back from South Africa and for my birthday gift she brought me back a hand made bracelet...its absolutely beautiful and the fact that she thought of me...wow!

you know there are a lot of good people in this world and when you least expect it, things will all fall into place...(yea that was rather random but maybe not)

3 comments:

PreciousGem-Refinement in Progress said...

Hey Girl!!

I am so glad you love your gift. Of course I thought of you. Let's get together again soon.

Hugs!

jus butterfli said...

i can mos def relate to the blahs! i've been there a time or 2 or 3 & i'm sure i'll be there again... a time or 2 or 3... b4 this whole life thg is said & done. in other words... it's natural & totally acceptable 2b in that place of indifference, where u're not sad, mad, upset, happy, or anything... u're just existing. it passes, u know? jus embrace it as one of your perfect imperfections & keep it movin'! u know how we do!! (LOL)

peace! love! always!

Blu Jewel said...

aww *hugs* trust and believe we all get the blahs and of late, I've had my share of them, but you know what? the fact that we continue on in spite of them is a testimony. it's so easy to quit or say the hell with it and retreat, but you didn't and you don't. Instead you forge on and you have your blog to help you outlet it all. I admire that strength and ability to allow your weakness to strengthen you.

keep on keeping on and know that your journey will be blessed.

love!