Sunday, June 01, 2008

getting my Carrie on....

so this weekend was one filled with ups and downs, no i take that back it was one filled with mainly ups...when you are told flat out "you are changing, are you really happy with yourself? you not the same person..." you must take a cold hard look at yourself to see what the problem is and what YOU can do to fix it...

i do, truth be told, find myself at an impass thinking about what could be, what would have been and what SHOULD be or so i think to myself all the time....

but the reality is, you can't control anyone's reality but your own...many times i say this, i have said this over and over again on here...but for some reason for the past, ooohhhhh i don't know however many months i haven't really been living like that...i have been living for what SHOULD be and not what IS...there is a major difference between the two....


i awoke this morning to cook myself eggs and Eggo's, to stretching to ease the pain of the muscle aches from all the walking and working out that i have been doing to go to the grocery store to start to wash clothes to going off to church to stopping past my parents house to going to see

Sex and the City to home...

and i realized this one obvious truth...i did all these things alone, just ME...and i was quit content doing those things just me...

there comes a time when we must all understand the importance and value of love and happiness and that must come from within first...

that one sentence that one phrase SNAPPED me back into what IS...and for that i am and will be forever grateful

8 comments:

Monique said...

Good stuff, sis.

Torrance Stephens bka All-Mi-T said...

do u folk

Nikki82103 said...

I needed to read this post! Perfect timing.

Blu Jewel said...

Amen to that!

I like to spend time alone and to do things alone. It reaffirms my independence and gives me much needed time to just be without strings attached.

Hope you continue to stay up.

Love!

j.a.c. said...

Speaking of the weekend... Kara's having a graduation cook-out at her house around 2 I think. Hope to see you there.

jus butterfli said...

there comes a time when we must all understand the importance and value of love and happiness and that must come from within first...

say that, lil sis! you are so xactly right! please don't get me started on a rant about how no one can complete or make you happy because you need to be a whole and happy person already! for YOURSELF! no that's what's up!! i'm sooo glad and proud that you realize that! now... do YOUR thing!

you look sooooo pretty on that pic! :)

peace! love!

MysTery said...

Hey hey! Great post!

PreciousGem-Head to Toe Quality said...

Enuf said. I need this, thank you.