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yea so i am feeling quit random today

last night i realized that i will truly and most certainly be one of those old women who sit on the porch and know EVERYTHING that goes on in the neighborhood...i'll be that woman you know you can always come to becuase i am noisy, that's right i am nosiy i will admit it! (he'll be truly happy that i finally admitted this to you, because he has been saying this since, well since our entire relationship-HA!)

okay so i was walking up the steps to my house, i live on the top floor for those who don't know and its a walk...so walking up to the top, i hear all this yelling and slaming of the door and all that...so immediately my ears perk up because i need to hear ALL that is happening...so basically the couple that lives on the second floor (not married) but living together with her son...so basically dude didn't have his half of the rent or monthly bills (ya'll know its the first of the month) so he said he would leave she said fine, get out as a matter a fact i'll help you...(see and that's why i need my NAME on papers before i live with anyone, PERIOD) so they kept going and going, by this time i am in my house...

i leave and go work out, come back, dudes stuff is in his car (which by the way is a BRAND NEW ES 300 Lexus, yea homeboy snapped out and bought it maybe a month or two ago and in turn she snapped out and bought a BRAND NEW Honda Accord) now mind you to each his/her own, but that makes this situation even more sad...

so every night i sit on my balcony and just take in the air, one because i love spring/summer/fall nights and two because i am noisy and like to see the people coming and going...that's how i can tell you when they bought the new cars and who got one first...yea i know sad, but like i said i am noisy...so i am sitting out there and i see this man, sitting in his car, with all his belongings and on his phone, CLEARLY trying to talk his way back into the house (which he immediately started doing earlier once she told him she would help him pack his ....) eventually he left and then she came out on the phone yapping it up about what had happened to someone "girl yes that mf did...and i was like ..." now mind you she was NOT alone at this point...

who was walking right behind her?

her son that's who!

that's when my heart just dropped...wasn't like i wasn't already feeling extremely sad about the situation...because its always sad when something so public and dramatic happens and then you are thinking "my people-why" SMH...but when i saw this little black boy come out behind his mother who was CLEARLY bashing the man that had been living with them, his male figure, it just made me sad because so many things he can take from that situation...i was talking to him about it this morning, and he stated, "he is probably used to it" and he may be right...and that's even sadder...like i don't like for parents, couples whatever to argue in front of their children some things should be left behind closed doors...but to see his mother disrespect a man and a man disrespect his mother...to hear his mother down talk him and put him out...it sends so many NEGATIVE messages about black men to that little boy and it doesn't set him up for the POSITIVE side of manhood...i don't know fellas speak to me...

all i know is i was sad....on the other hand-the couple on the first floor little girl is finally home from the hospital, she was extremely premature and even though she is 6 months old she only weighs 7 lbs and some change...but the father is so happy, like so happy and proud to be a father to a little girl! he is always outside with his little boy and now he'll walk her around at night...they are a really close family the wife, the husband, the little boy and now the little girl...so yea with that positive view its a balance...

i would say that i just liked to observe life, but naw i am just noisy...HA!

love hard, love true, love real...

have a good weekend