Thursday, March 06, 2008

silence

for the last past couple of days i have been living in silence
i get up and turn nothing on
i ride in the total silence
i just live in silence...

for some reason the silence gives me an over arching peace, peace of mind...which is much needed...

i know that i will keep living like this for a while because it helps me quit my mind, and helps me listen to my heart...

its like i am trying to find myself again...one of my mentors said to me, "you are the realest of all my girls, and i don't like the feeling that you are becoming fake, you have to maintain your realness...."

she said this to me a couple of weeks ago but i have been processing that statement for a while...like wow...what seems fake...maybe because i don't talk to people as much anymore and i have found myself just being serious all the time...that's not me i like to enjoy life and enjoy just being down right silly...laughing, joking, smiling, talking trash...its amazing how outside forces can take such a toll on you and your spirit....

there are a lot of negative forces pulling on me right now, and i gotta shake it all off...

so i'll keep living in silence for a minute...so if i don't talk to you or email you...know its nothing but love...

i just have to be still and be silent....

5 comments:

Trapped-n-my-Thoughts said...

There's absolutely nothing wrong with being silent...trust me it works. It gives u a chance to process and work things out. I'm going through that right now...riding in silence, getting in bed early with no TV...just thinking...it works Tiff. Keep ur head up.

Ananda said...

in the silence we find our truth. follow your path deeper into the silence. stay there as long as you need to. it is a blessing.

Kepa Freeman said...

Long time, no talk to, sis! Just trying to add some positivity in the midst of this negativity that's gaining up on you right now. . . if it still is. I didn't check dates.

Anyway, just wanted to be on my peter pan and give you some happy thoughts to soar with:

For starters, I have a ridiculous amount of love and respect for you.

Secondly I'm sure you're getting closer to the Almighty by the day.

Thirdly you're growing into an even more beautiful person by the day.

And last, but certainly not least, (and certainly not all) you have made and continue to make positive changes in the lives of many youth who desperately need the type of help and lov you're willing to give. Even if you don't see it immediately, a lot of gems that you drop start to surface later.

Peace,
Kep.

T.C. said...

@trapped-yea its worth it totally

@sistahlov-i am truly learning that in silence you can find your true core and essence

@kep-much needed to hear!!!! much needed to hear especially since i haven't been feeling like much of a help to anyone lately...i'll find my center again...i trust that i will

thank you all!

MysTery said...

...be still and silent...and wait for the Lord to speak!!

That's right!!

Don't let your spirit be weighed down!!