Wednesday, January 31, 2007

I'd rather be with you...

You every just get that feeling, "I can't stand you, but I'd rather be with you...."
like when you are getting to know someone...like really getting to know someone, no cut cards, no BS, just straight shots, no chassers...

Thats how I have been feeling, getting to know someone is tuff, but what makes it tuffer is when you are getting to know someone and you realize certain things about yourself and so you get to see your flaws even more in the forefront, stuff you KNOW is there but you really have to face it because you want things to work, so you have to face YOUR OWN stuff...

Well that's whats up with me, facing my own stuff to work through stuff and come to an understanding...Man its rough

I have come to understand that I am a lot like my Dad, I like to nit pick about the "small stuff" and for what...its just that small, but I ALWAYS got to have something to say...and for what...I ALWAYS got to have the last word...and for what...

So TC moves into yet another level of understanding about herself and life for the better of course...because the place of peace, peace of mind is the frame of life that I am determined to live in...

I continue to smile at my growth, I continue to smile about our progression...and I realize that I would rather be with myself, steady evolving, and I am grateful for you wanting to be along for the ride....

So I , We move forward and make it happen...

12 comments:

Honey-Libra said...

I totally sometimes find something wrong with someone or something and I've heard over and over that I always have to have the last word to which I reply No I don't (lol)...you and I are alike....finding out stuff about me is eye opening to say the least but hey at least we recognize it and grow :)

NegroPino™ said...

I analyze myslef and situations all the time. I go at it hard from so many different angles. ANd it is tough out there.

Paula D. said...

You summed it up nicely! Moving forward together is what makes it a journey :-)

Lady J said...

I wish you well on your journey. Sometimes self discovery is hard especially when it's something negative. Have a great weekend & be safe

T.C. said...

@honey-you and I ARE a lot a like, the more I read about you I see stuff that I do...I tend to OVER think stuff A LOT...but its definitely all about the growth I want to be the best WOMAN I can possibly be

@negro-I do it too...I think its good to look at yourself from the outside in from time to time, it makes you "keep it REAL" with yourself..we always tend to have something to say about other folks, but not ourselves...so I think its a good way to keep you honest with YOU & to grow

@paula-yea that's what makes it a journey...he's time enough for me...LOL

@ladyj-yea sometimes it is hard in the beginning but its always worth it...you have a GREAT weekend and be safe as well...

Blu Jewel said...

TC, this is a great post girl. I love to read/hear about people getting in touch with themselves and not making excuses for it. I commend you for opening acknowledging and embracing the evolution of self. ^5

Kep said...

That's beautiful, Tiff. We've been doing that too. I look at it as an adventure and a challenge when I start to realize those things about myself that I need to work on. It's like "Hmmmm. . .what can we get through now?"

I don't know. I just like to think about the result of conquering whatever hill instead of the hill itself. We've been getting that crucial crash course in relationships 101, and I'm becoming more and more confident that she's the one the Almighty has prepared for me. Best part of the course is when we pass a test together.

There's the makeup, us being closer, and the following flashbacks to those first few weeks of bliss right before we have to start cramming for the next test, lol! It's a wild ride, BUT I'M LOVING IT!!! Nice to see we're both growing.

LOVE YA SIS!!! Definitely been a while since we rapped. Much to catch up, my dear homie. Much indeed.

Peace,
Kep.

TDJ said...

Good luck to you both on the journey. Self discovery is an amazing thing.

emptyHEART said...

I think that the hardest person we can ever get to know is ourselves. Sure we think we know who we are, how we act, what type of decisions we make but every so often we are struck with a moment of clarity that shines the spotlight right on our souls and we discover things about ourselves that have always been there, we just didn't realize it.

So let the discoveries continue, understanding ourselves happens on a daily basis and is an ongoing process.


1st time on your blog, I will definitely be back.

The Sarccastik Variable Why said...

hey TC...you okay....just checking on you...let me know your still there...

j.a.c. said...

So I'm WAAAYYY late, but this is a beautiful thing chica. I know I don't need to say this but Keep Evolving!!! Ditto everything that everyone else said. Love ya!

Oh and where you been?

T.C. said...

@blu-yea you gotta face it, its always hard to do that, but you gotta do it...you know...^5 right back at you...

@kep-yea we need to get up and talk...it is a journey, but I think yours is probably going a little better than mines...

@tdj-Thanks!

@emptyheart-hhhhhhhhheeeeeeeeeeyyyy
& welcome! Please make sure to come back around here...yea self discovery is a GREAT thing to have and it does in fact keep us evolving in the right direction

@svw-hey...thanks for checking on me, man I have been sick with the flu & it aint no joke...

@jac-yea Imma keep evolving sis! Love you too! as the post above said...the FLU sucks