olu

.....i am diggin sub soul right now

i haven't been really motivated to blog

there are things running through my head...i am sitting her curled up on the couch listening to the vibes of olu and nothing can really come into my head that's of substance...

the recent verdict in oakland evokes a lot of thoughts and emotions...it makes me want to pick up my Alice Walker or Assata Shakur books or even Sistah Souljah

i have also been listening to love songs lately...i've always listened to love songs though...

"love is life and life is FREE"

people tend to give up on love easily...i definitely know that i have, i'll suffer in silence before i let down all my guard admittedly something that i need to work on....

i was recently told that i should let someone "dust off my cobwebs"

really???

where does that even make since as a woman to have sex with someone just to have sex?

who still does that? i've never done that, but with the obvious as the HIV rate in this area let alone other STDs, what woman knowly sleeps with someone who she knows is not into having a relationship or children...

if that's something that i want to have one day, why would i waste time with someone i know doesn't...

*shrugs*

people don't get it and sometimes i think that they don't want to...plus its different when you're married i think you forget what its like to date or not...maybe not...

on another note i have been watching "the city" today

the owner of People's Republic...I LUV that lady...that's me in 20 years...she is really heartfelt and she really cares about her people but she takes absolutely NOTHING from NO ONE...and she speaks her mind....I really wish more people would be more honest like her...

i really like the whole "urban" professional thing but watching this type of constant always going and going, just watching it makes tired...LOL...

admittedly i am pretty boring and i like it...although i like to do stuff with friends like cookouts, dinners out, a show or two or three or just chill and go for walks...i am not a "scene" person...maybe now and then...but on the regular nah its a little overrated...

but next weekend i'll be on the scene for ni's 30th birthday bash and please believe its going to be CRAZY

i thought i wanted to have a HUGE party or something but i am cool...i'll be cool being cool..

i got my 3rd tattoo on monday..i like its location...its on the inner part of my right upper arm...does that make sense?

its a symbol for wisdom and a sun...i love it!

all of my art is black though i have nothing with color...i want something big on my back to represent my parents but that might be a bit much and i haven't had a "vision" of what i want it to be so until or unless i get that and become passionate about it i won't i mean its a permanent so i has to be something i want to look at for the rest of my life ya dig

i really don't have much to say

life is cool

i'm chillin and that's it

oh why does anyone really care where a self proclaimed King landed anyways...or better yet what would make a grown multi million/billion dollar owner write such a letter...i don't get it...he gave you 7 years to build a team around him to win a championship...clearly he gets that winning a championship is what being in the pros is all about...so why be mad? YES he could have gone about it in a different manner and his approach could have been better for the "fans" but let that man live...

we give professional athletes, etc WAY to much attention and credit...when will we care this much about the teacher of the year or the new activist that is out there doing grass roots to enlighten our people...

maybe not, not so much huh...well at least his "press conference" raised 2.5 milli for the boys and girls club that i dig...the rest of the hype not so much...

that's enough brain dumpin for one day right

peace