Monday, February 02, 2009

in a good place

last week i started a blog entitled "about to explode" because that's exactly how i felt was that i was about to explode i was stressed i was running around like a chicken with her head caught off...and i was trying to get a week's worth of work done in two days before i was out of the office for the rest of the week in Chicago...

it was needless to say stressful, so stressful in fact that i didn't even get to finish the blog and post it...

but last night as a laid in my bed i realized that i am honestly in a really good place in my life...like really good place...

i have said it before but i am really happy...i have a lot going on so much so that i need to carry my planner around at ALL times but i have been having some very real very frank conversations, even with a mentor of mines who was honestly sending me a lot of stuff all at once and it was making me really get an "attitude" not because of whatever but really because i stated to her i nver wanted to "disappoint" her and NOT do what it was that she wanted or needed me to do, but that i really needed her to understand that my schedule isn't flexible and that i can do stuff as long as it is planned...

and that's the long and short of it all...i can do stuff a LOT of stuff but i can't just be on the cuff with my life, i have entirely to much going on in my life NOT to be scheduled...


but here's the thing...i am in such a good place, i am performing well in all of my jobs, if i must say so myself...but i am admitted "green" about a lot of things and okay with that too...i am now gaining more responsibilities and it will be a lot of work but i am ready for the challenge...


i am not sad, lonely, afraid, NOTHING of the sort...NOTHING negative, i mean its a lot its life, but its cool, you know i am cool...man i can't remember the last time i have felt this way...
there aren't like even long term "goals" or plans or anything of the sort going on...no pressure on myself other than to get up everyday and do my best...that's all i can do is my best give 110% you know

i have been waiting for YEARS to be in the place, in this space and i am so thankful that I am...so so thankful...i truly am who i am...and i am truly grateful for the fact that i don't feel stuck...i feel good about my age, my life...ME!

I totally feel good about me, my life...all of it! Wow I can totally see why people, why women once you hit your late 20s hit their stride...that's how i feel...that's what it is...

i have hit my stride!

7 comments:

j.a.c. said...

congrats boo boo!

The Insatiable One said...

Good for you!

PreciousGem-Refinement in Progress said...

Good job girly!!

Blu Jewel said...

Good for you sweetie and may the blessings and good feelings continue to rain down on you.

love to live; live to love!

Torrance Stephens - All-Mi-T said...

always good to count your blessings, and a godd pklace for me like u will always be my bed

rdb

Ms.Honey said...

WOOHOOOO..you know I love being at peace

Ms. Confessions said...

Yo Go Girl!!
Yes, I truly came into my own in the last few years ( maybe around 25 is when it started).