Monday, April 30, 2007

The Gift of Good-bye

sometimes you see the signs and you want to ignore them
sometimes you want to make it work because you know that with any relationship, its going to be work...
but at the same time...you need to know your worth and be able to remain firm to your convictions and the things that you won't stand for or the things that you just know you can't do...

so as i stood at the door and heard those words come out of your mouth, believe me when i say that it hurt, it hurt more than you will ever fully know...

but i opened that door for a reason...if you didn't want to be here, there was no need in keeping the inevadable from occurring...

begging and pleading are things of the past...

you weren't sure, but then again, you were...you needed to go...you didn't want the "pressure" the confines of a relationship...

when you want to be with someone, you KNOW...

and if you don't KNOW...then its time to say good-bye...

So today as i sit and deal with the fact that we had a wonderful time together, you made me happy and i would hope that i did the same for you...but when it comes down to it...

i have the gift to say good-bye to you because its best for me....

UPDATE:
The words here say it all

15 comments:

deepnthought said...

wow.

Consistently Inconsistent... said...

This was an amazing post. I relate more than you will know. Thanks for sharing your vulnerability.

Be blessed.
C.

jus butterfli said...

i love you.

that's all i'm gonna say 'cause you KNOW the rest already.

peace, love and hugs!

Tańtruм said...

This is deep. I have told someone that I loved him enough to let him go.

Amazing post. I hurt.

j.a.c. said...

this was indeed amazing. i admire you for being so strong.

Honey-Libra said...

I know this feeling all too well...this was me a couple of weeks ago...wanting to say good bye but not knowing if I could and then once I said it I realized that saying good bye to that part opens doors to saying hello to something else...you are sooo strong...thank you for reminding me that goodbyes are sometimes needed :)

It is What It Is... said...

Time will heal it...you and I both know this...Thank GOD for blogs...

T.C. said...

@DNT-yea

@ci-i needed to share it as much as you needed to hear it

@jus-love u right back! & you are right i already know...

@tantrum-sometimes you just gotta open that door...for every door the LORD closes he opens a window

@jac-thank you...its sistahs like you all that keep me strong though

@honey-its hard in the short term, that deep sickening feeling that bubbles up inside you, the fear of being lonely (never alone because GOD is always with me) but...sometimes you have to open that door...

@itwhatitis-in time...in time

@all-he said he didn't deserve me...and maybe he was right, or maybe it was a bunch of BS either way...it is what it is and it will be what it will be...and it hurts and will hurt for a while, but in due time, i wll be JUST fine...i am confident in me and feeling fresh in my perfect imperfections...

i accept me and all of my flaws and complexities...and I know tha one day love will find its way to me...when its the right time...because

"Being happy doesn't mean everything's perfect. It means you have decided to see beyond the imperfections!" -Unknown

thanks ladies

peace

Mica said...

be strong and time heals all wounds---this is very powerful and wish nothing but the best for you---love ya!

A woman on the move said...

You proved your love by letting go.

It's truly one of the hardest things for us to do. Which is why you have so many good relationships that turn sour- not knowing when to say "Hey this isn't working, and I want you to find the one who makes you happy."

You'll be fine in about 90 days..LOL

Blu Jewel said...

i commented yesterday, but i dont see it. it was a good one too *dangit*

anyhoo, it took a lot of strength, courage, and insight to do what you did and for that you should be rather proud. I feel your pain and sadness, which is to be expected; however, it shall pass. I thought of the Madonna song, "The Power of Goodbye" when i read this.

Hang in there sweetie and know that you're surrounded by love.

T.C. said...

@mica-love u 2! im trying my best...

@awotm-yea when you truly love and care for someone, you love them enough to let go...because you just want whats best for them...and at the same time you gotta do whats best for you too! its hard though...but hey its life...and let's try for 45 days instead of 90...LOL

@blu-dag i bet it was good too....well like you said this too shall pass...life will keep moving, the earth will keep revolving around the sun and that's what it is you know...imma definitely hang in there...

Thanks again ladies for all the love!

urban butterfly said...

You're speaking the truth here. I recently had to let go, walk away and say goodbye to someone that I greatly desired, but wasn't right for me. And yes, it hurt deeply.

T.C. said...

@urban-yea we have been on the same vibe for a while now...
it does hurt deep, like in your soul...but GOD don't make no mistakes...so we shall be aiight...in time...we shall be just fine

StaCey said...

Absolutely amazing that so many people have felt the same way I do right now!
hurt. hurt. hurt. I can't even breathe.