Tuesday, March 17, 2009

a day

that's what i am having...maybe its a couple of days...mainly because i just don't feel like my happy normal self...
i feel tired i feel drained i feel like my drive is beginning to slow down, but maybe its because i am feeling burnt out...i think that's it...i have been burning it at both ends of the candle stick and now i am just plain old tired...

so what do i plan to do about this? get me some rest!
i have nothing on my schedule this weekend and i plan to keep it that way...oh i take that back i am going to 'belly dancing class' saturday morning with my Aunt and dinner Friday night with my cousin and her mom & sister and my mom...oh my home boy said he might come up this weekend and be in the area, i told him to holla at me...

DAG ON IT! What happened to my nothing weekend...

i was doing well with the workout, okay i have only missed two days but still that's not good i need to remain focused on the Kanye workout plan...don't hate...i am in two wedding this summer i keep telling folks i will NOT be the FAT bridesmaid...speaking of which i sure hope people respond to my meeting request for the bridal shower meeting

two doctors in two days...not fun not fun at all people...but hey i told you before i wasn't feeling like myself...CLEARLY i am not

i know saturday after dance class imma go home and chillax it on out...well after i clean and all the other crap you have to do on saturday...lol...then i'll do absolutely NOTHING...lay on the sofa and watch tv and that's it and that's all

church is a MUST on sunday and family dinner which is normally early so i can then go back home and do nothing...you notice a pattern right, yes NOTHING is the key to my weekend...how did a weekend of nothing turn into a weekend of events in the matter of a few lines...geeze...

stuff always seems so last minute in certain in certain aspects of my life...
i need to learn the art of saying NO, NO that doesn't make sense NO I am not emotional about it, actually YOU are the emotional one you just aren't used to and don't like it when others say something in contrast to what you are saying...CLASSIC

i need balance right now i just really really need balance...life is good but its starting to spin a little away from me and i have GOT to pull it back, starting with me getting some much needed rest and having some much needed me time...

also cutting back on some relationships, some people again just don't care nothing about you...and it shows in the way that they treat you, talk to you or even act towards you...

i took a quiz today and my conclusion was this:
You may not be reveling in everything the world has to offer yet, but you're definitely on your way. The main reason? You believe you deserve the best. That's clear by the way you stand up for yourself without putting others down. Plus, you know how to put a positive spin no a bad situation-and kick a good thing to the next level. You welcome challenges, are up for new experiences. Whether a matter of good home training, positive role models, or simply an inherently honest and open mind-set (maybe all three in collabo!), your healthy approach is already paying off. but as life gets more complicated (bigger job, wider social circle, more people relying on you), you'll need to be vigilant about priorities-putting yourself first while attending to the many demands that are placed on you. Set reasonable goals and take time to relax upon accomplishing them.

That right there especially the last part that is in BOLD is how i am feeling, don't get me wrong i know my little funk is just that a little a little funk and things will definitely get better but i just got as it said be VIGILANT in my priorities and be true to me...ya dig

2 comments:

Blu Jewel said...

you sound like you're experiencing what I'm going through. While I'm usually up and at 'em within 5 mins of the alarm going off, lately I've been pushing the envelope further and further. Once I'm up, I'm good, but it's getting started and I'm getting enough sleep. I strongly feel like I need some time out/off. I need to go someplace where I don't have to do a darn thing. Jamaica comes to mind, but I'm currently not sure the $ is gonna be available for it. Florida is a viable option as the flights are much cheaper. Hell, I may just put myself on self-imposed exile as I've done before and lock myself in the house for a couple of days. Whatever it is, I'm gonna do it and I hope T.C that you'll do the same.

I think back to when I first started reading your blog and you've come a long way sis, so continue to be good and true to yourself. I'm digging the words in bold and hope that you truly will adhere to them.

Wishing you well.

love to live; live to love!

Torrance Stephens - All-Mi-T said...

hope u feel better and two drs in two days dang whats up folk