I joined....

yes after much debate adn everyone asking me I finally did it, I joined...not what you are thinking...

cause ain't NO WAY I am joining that site...

but I did finally join FACEBOOK...

so there...

off to the woods I go...

but i feel like i have sooo much to do right now today....
i can't leave work, not just yet because i have so much that i need to do...
two more systems that i need to develop and put into place...man this is truly deep...
hopefully i will get out of here by 6pm...
i still need to go to pay a bill, i want some Nike boots for the weekend and a hoodie and shirt...
i also want to stop past best buy and see what digital cameras they have on sale so that i can take some pics...
if i don't get one now i will never get one...

oh, yea back the woods...
our annual Kiamsha Conference is this weekend...well this year we are calling it Kiamsha Leadership Retreat...we aren't taking any outside youth, just OUR youth so that we can bond with them and work on their leadership skills...i am really looking forward to it...i actually always do...

so we leave bright and early tomorrow morning and don't return until Saturday night...
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this mornings conversation was EXTREMELY refreshing...
it was really wonderful that i didn't have to ASK you to take me and pick me up for the Kiamsha trip, but that you wanted to, KNOWING that would mean you meeting my youth and my mentors...you are a brave dude...those people will eat you ALIVE...lol
but that's only because they love me! I am sure that they will like you....you are such a likable dude...

too bad they won't meet you because you now have to go out of town for your job...

our conversation this afternoon was as equally special to me...you thought that i would be upset that you will be gone for 11 days...but its cool you gotta do what you gotta do...i will be here...we'll talk daily and we'll work it out...if we need to make date nights during the week then that's what we have to do...

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people on my job still stressin me out...not the job....people
got a lot more work to do...
but its really that "special" person her that gets under my skin...man...really
but hey today is my Friday so why trip
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i have to go to court on monday to testify against the folks that broke into my apartment in november. now why is it that i got to go and testify...these bamas already know where i live...i must be honest and say i don't feel comfortable with this...but hey i gotta go

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all in all life is chill people...life is chill...

looking forward to the youth
looking forward to me and him bonding on yet another level while he is away...
looking forward to bonding with me...
looking forward to just being...

Peace people

Excuse me...

....is the line that the brother spoke as I crossed the street on my way back to my office this afternoon...

so I looked up at him...seems respectful enough...but I kept walking all at the same time...


"we are sale-ing numbers today..."

You know I am looking at him like he is crazy now right...out the corner of my eye because I never stopped walking...

"but for you....I'll give you my number for FREE"

ya'll I hollered right there on G Street downtown DC at lunch time, I just burst into laughter I couldn't help it...

mind you the entire time he is talking I never stopped walking...and he is just a talking and following me back...I am cracking up so hard that the brother sitting outside at a cafe drinking his espresso couldn't help but laugh too...

and this bama is steady walking behind me talking...and I am steady laughing....

"I mean whats your name...you don't want my number...."

the whole nine...now, even if I wasn't in a relationship, YOU still wouldn't have got the number and definitely wouldn't have taken yours either...but still I mean geezy peezy...

do you really think that tired 1985 line was going to work on me...puh leeze....
how about NOPE don't think so
side note: see brothers THIS is EXACTLY women mean mug ALL the friggin time...its situations like the one that happened...that makes us just feel like, cot d@g it can't even look back at ya....bamas just take that and run wit it


Whew chile that was funny I mean that was too funny....
I thought I would share...
Have a HAPPY Monday!

Flaws & All

Ok, so many of you didn't like the Still in Love vid (see below)
but many said that the liked the Flaws...one...
I must admit that I really like this song...
it too moved me, not to tears this time (Dane...lol)
but I think it shows her having more personality to usual....

well enjoy people

Energy

Do not continue to provide more energy to your fears. Instead, take the energy from your fears and turn it toward positive purpose.

There is nothing to be gained by giving additional energy to your anger. Take the energy from your anger, and direct it toward creative, fulfilling action.

Whatever you focus upon, whether it is positive or negative, you provide with additional energy. Whether you love it or hate it, whether you long for it or fear it, your focus and attention will make it more powerful in your life.

There can be large amounts of energy in your fears, your angers, and your frustrations. The thing to do with all that negative energy is not to add to it, but to apply it toward your most positive purposes and most treasured desires.

If you truly wish to avoid something, be careful not to nourish it with your focus and your energy. Find something else to move toward, and keep that positive goal at the center of your awareness.

In each moment, you can choose where to focus your attention and your energy. Seek to keep your focus as positive as possible, and you'll move steadily in the direction of your dreams.
-- Ralph Marston

so we have been hearing a lot about the Secret since its been on Oprah (you know how that woman does, can make you or break you...LOL...gotta love O)

but the point is, that if you live in fear, or you carry around anger all the time, then that's what you life will produce...reasons to be fearful, reasons to be anger

We all have a choice in terms of how we want to live our lives and what type of energy that we want to put out there into the universe...so I say to you, be positive, think positive, look at life as an opportunity to make the BEST out of everything...

No it isn't always easy, and yes it can sometimes be scary...but you know if you are going to live, live it to the fullest...Keep GOD first and TRUST in HIM and HIS will for your life...

Side note: don't be afraid of love, and of living...we all have career moves to make and goals to accomplish, but if you don't stop and smile sometimes, enjoy the flowers and the sun...then once you make that VP position and you go home at night to just you, then what...

Life is so much more than making it to the top, so much more than the almighty dollar, so much more than material things and being recognized by the world...so much more than being afraid of the unknowns, like loving someone...like loving yourself, like honestly being happy....

Life is short, Break the rules, Forgive quickly, Kiss slowly, Love truly-unconditionally, Laugh uncontrollably, And never regret anything that made you smile.

Life is about the journey...never loose sight of that...

Still in love

So there has been a bum rush of B (Beyonce) this week because her deluxe CD dropped yesterday that includes a video anthology...and VH1 Soul and MTV Jams have been showing all of her videos...

KC even did a blog about it, to which I have made my feelings clear about all of the vids...I agree with mikesee when he states they all look like they were done in ONE day with the same basic concept...but this song...

This song, brought tears to my eyes literally...

maybe because my relationship is growing and everything and there are all these feelings bubbling up inside of me...

But anyways...check out the vid...



now that is what i am talking about...the singing, the song, the lyrics, the music, the emotion....and its a take on one of my all time favorite songs....so to me this is just beautiful....


UPDATE:
here is the original!
This IS totally awesome & beautiful and you can understand why J, was so adoment about people understanding that the original was much better and is a timeless classic!
and I agree...I still think B does a decent job...

the total rAndomneSS (III)

so I really like doing these random items because you know...it just lets me get stuff off my chest...cause its my house and I can say what I feel right..right!

• allergies are seriously kicking my butt...i have them year round but these particular allergy season is serious
• ok so what if I get on your nerves, NEWS FLASH...you truly get on my nerves too
  but its ok...like you said, you still my baby...and this much is true
• man i haven't seen you in almost two weeks...I hope i remember what you look like
• you know i really enjoy getting to know you, its like you are one of my best homies...we can talk about anything...everything...i actually like you...as a person I like you...
• truth is, men are just as sensitive if not more, than women...but again, i like you...
• i mean i actually watched the final four games with you (via phone since you were out of town) ONLY because i know how much you love Georgetown-your Alma Mater and how much you love basketball...yea i like you
• i promised myself that I was going to get back into the gym as of April 1st, and I did it! YES...I don't think I want to lose weight so much as I want to tone up and just be physically fit...despite the media and popular opinion...I enjoy being "thick" its alright with me...i could stand to go down a size or two...but i honestly love my curves and don't want to lose that
• you know that brings me to another point...I am totally alright with me, why is it that people feel the NEED to say stuff like "well your mother is 'thick' so you are bound to be 'thick'"...what you are really trying to say is because my mother is heavy i will be heavy so just face it...oh how skinny folks have the nerve sometimes...they don't mean any harm, but really who told you that I wasn't happy with my size...oh, that's right YOU did...bug off and go and eat something...(I know right i am OFF the HOOK)
• i just think that too much emphasis is put on weight...you know...i mean because i have been a size 6/8 my freshman year of college, and i looked sick, literally like i was on something...my mom was like "chile EAT"
• my brother still gets on my ever lasting nerves...dude you are 35, GROW UP already
• i enjoyed the service last night, truly something that was a total new experience and makes me want to learn more
• you ever notice how much more positive you are when you go to church on Sunday or you pray or you read a scripture...its like you have that protection around you...and you just keep pressing forward
• i am looking for to Sunday service...I know that it will be packed at church but i look forward to the blessing..
• why am i so friggin hungry at 11:30am...geesh
• ok so i think i have my gym schedule down, Sun, Tues, Thurs, Fri/Sat...I might just go all weekend though...they say you are supposed to workout 5 times a week to lose weight and 3 times a week to maintain...so i am thinking 4 times a week to lose some, but not much and to tone is a good look right...
• i got assigned more responsibilities at my job...that's a good sign right? my 90 days will be up on the 8th of this month...so i guess it'll be time for my review....
• my Dad is doing so much better...his meds have been adjusted and he is doing good...happy about that...
• i have cornrows now...i know i know...i can't keep my hair in one style to save my life...lol...but with my hair being natural i needed to put it up since i started to work it out....
• my line sister is expecting and got engaged...happy about that...that makes 3 weddings next year so far...i still am in one in June and have one to attend in May...geeze...you gals are killing my pockets...
• again i guess its just that season in our lives...after 25 everyone seems to be getting married
• man i'll be 27 this year...3 years to 30...man...i think i need to really sit down and write out the goals that i want to reach before i reach 30... like do i want to get my second masters....like what things in MY life can I work towards...
• certain people, or should i say those who are judgemental and self righteous to the extreme, get on my nerves...i encounter 1 every day...and she is starting to bother me...and she is a "christian" but has something to say about EVERYONE...i want to yell "ah HELLO, that's not the Christian thing to do..." but you know whatever...

ok so i think i am done...nothing more really to talk about...just random stuff that has been on my mind...

nothing major, I am in a good mood, life is good, everything is good...and I am happy with ME...

Stay up people...

Peace