Tuesday, March 15, 2011

umi says...the people

so i have come to a crossroads or conclusion in my life

i have decided to step down at the end of the year from Kiamsha as the director

its just time, its been 10 years, its run its course and its time for new people to come in and pump some fresh blood into the organization and the youth

i love the kids

so i will always be around but i just don't have it in me to go every monday night anymore

i am as my homegirl said "on the upswing of life" i am trying to build things right now and its not fair to the kids or the organization if i feel like my attention needs to be on my life and what i am personally trying to do

i got kids to feed (yes i know dramatic) but i do and spending time with those kids and family and figuring out what i want to do with my life right now is key

its just that time

what will i know do with my monday nights?

i have no idea, maybe focus on school or building a life for myself

i will always give back that's apart of my spirit, my blood, my dna...maybe i'll focus on mentoring one on one, or just being there for the few youngins that i know that have already come through

this world can be a cruel place and we all can use all the support we can get

maybe i'll finally go back to school and study african american history get my PhD

maybe i'll have a kid of my own

its just time to let that part of my life go and move on and forward

my heart isn't IN IT like it was before like it should be these youngins need people that aren't tired of the politics of things or frustrated with the way things are done or not done...

now what to do next?

2 comments:

miss alisa said...

I think the beauty of life and maturation is knowing when to press forward and knowing when to step back or step away. You have more than paid your dues at this point... Your being there now especially after you've admitted that your heart isn't in it like it used to be could be a.) stopping you from achieving something in your own personal life or b.) stopping Kiamsha from moving to a different level with a new director. I think you can gracefully bow out now. You've given so much of your time and energy and effort to so many kids over the years... You've touched so may lives and made such an impact. Now it's your turn to concentrate on Tiffany, what Tiffany wants, and what's best for you!! Love you, chick!!

j.a.j. said...

I was wondering if you were going to be the director forever! Lol. I think you're making a good decision. Like Alisa said, you've done your fair share of giving back as a director. The hardest part about taking a step back though is that you won't be as connected as you used to be. And that's hard when you have a love for the kids. I went through that when I told Mrs. Dunn I am no longer one of the faithful few. On the upside, you'll have plenty to focus on as you continue your personal upswing. Congrats on your decision. I know it was a hard one.