that i have been blogging...wondering if its time to stop but then again i often times have a lot to say...so here it goes...
why did i see a homeless man masturbating on the bench while on my way to get breakfast this morning...needless to say i crossed the street on the way back so that i didn't have to expose myself to that...remember the scene from silance of the lambs when the guy did that and threw it on her as she walked out...yea that image went through my head and i CLEARY didn't want to be the "victim" this morning...he just had that look in his eyes...
i am seeing more and more homeless people these days too...DC has a large homeless population you would think that sense its the nation's captial it wouldn't but it does...
the city i think that it shocked me the most though was LA...to see downtown LA and all those tents (they call them tent cities) and drug needles and just folks for miles and miles was a total shocker...when me and my mom went to see the soloist i was like "its so real mommy" she couldn't even believe it...its not what i was expecting especially in a city where its like all glits and glamer all the time, hell you can't even just walk into a club in LA you gotta be "picked" so with all that money folks is still stuggling like that...sad...
i was in a really mean mood this week...really mean...i don't think i have been that mean in a minute...my mother told me that i have an attitude like my dad, always have...and over the years i have worked really hard to NOT be this mean overly dramatic person (yes i am still dramatic but like in a loud over the top funny type of way...LOL) so even though i had a right to be upset because this person kept something from me...today i decided to put that attitude in check and start to walk myself back to my peace of mind and of self being...that's what i think is most important is that you are happy with yourself...
i am so happy i took the time out to just date and do me...i have such created a person that i know and love and i am truly okay with folks liking me and okay if you don't...because i know i am loved no matter what...
my parents are moving next wednesday...still seems surreal that this time next week i won't have the opporutnity to just UP and go to see my parents whenever i want...i am prepared to be a nervous wreck next week and for a while...i am glad i don't have anythign to do that next weekend because i don't think i will function to well...my parents are my EVERYTHING period the end! love them like no other because they love me like no other...they are the BEST friends a girl could ever ask for...real talk...and they are truly the wisest, smartest, coolest, realest, craziest, people you would ever want to meet...
and imma miss them
June is and will continue to be crazy...but such is life...
2 comments:
You'll be fine. I can't say I know how you feel because I don't but I know that you're strong. Gives you a place to go too!!
it will definitely be tough, but i also think you'll be ok. i know the feeling, though. when my aunt moved to Japan several years ago, i was a wreck. but, i came through it and the funny thing is, we became closer.
i've been blogging for 3 years too and consider from time to time hanging up my hat, but like you, i always seem to talk about.
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