Tuesday, September 04, 2007

i try...

you ever feel like your best is never good enough, like no matter how hard you try you will have someone just looking at you and thinking that you have another motive, like you just want something...because despite what has happened you still remain the same person...

sometimes people don't know how to react to losses, but a lot of people don't know how to accept love, and that's the really sad thing, when some just thinks that you know what i have done this or that, how are you still here, why are you still here?

that's the hardest things in life, is when you are constantly trying and it feels like your efforts are in vain, it makes you want to just say "f" it and just do what you want to do...hell giving up is the easy thing...its what is the easiest thing to do you know, just give up and say forget it...to say you know what you have hurt me, i don't care if you were hurt, you lost someone, you hurt me...but when you take the higher road, and say you know, i forgive you, i am here for you...you are up to something...

i think what it is, is that most times people feel like they don't "deserve" forgiveness, and because they have their own stuff or issues they tend to try to hold you back...you know put their stuff on you and you haven't even done anything but be a friend....i don't hold grudges, i don't hold things against people...for me if you apologize and sincerely mean it, then who am i to hold it against especially if you mean your apology...

now i am NO fool, you aren't going to dog me out and i keep forgiving you and dealing with you...i'll forgive and say i'll holla back...let it be done...

but you know when you love someone you stand by that person, remain understanding and steadfast through it all you know...

but its but so much that one person can take when they are putting themselves out there and continue to be rejected...to be pushed away, eventually you are going to push back or walk away...

i try, but i can't lose myself trying to hold you up, i can't lose me, helping you...i can't take the rejection over and over again...dealing with a loss doesn't give you the right to be mean, be nasty...

but i'll hold on to myself, my beliefs, how i view life, working hard doing what i know is right, because in my mind the apple taste better after climbing the tree, because i worked for it...

but that's just me



life is still and will remain a beautiful struggle because i am UNBREAKABLE, by GOD I am UNBREAKABLE

7 comments:

Anonymous said...

Tiff, everyone has their own walk of life and we are at different stages or another. Maybe that person has yet to forgive themselves for something that has happened and until they do and move on from it, they can't let no one else in. Continue just being there when needed and that's all you can really do.

Ki

Trapped-n-my-Thoughts said...

I understand how u feel...I was having one of these moments last week.

miKeSee said...

"To me giving up is way harder than trying" - Kanye West

Honey-Libra said...

Everyone has to live and learn in their own life...as much as we want to help and stand by them sometimes the best thing is to let them stand alone.

MysTery said...

Applause!! Wonderful blog!! Yeah, continue to be there. But don't lose you doin it!

Peace and blessings.

Blu Jewel said...

Great post! you gotta do you however you need to. each of us has our own struggles in life.

giving up instead of fighting or even trying is awful because said person will always grudge another for their blessings.

real talk when you said..."but i'll hold on to myself, my beliefs, how i view life, working hard doing what i know is right, because in my mind the apple taste better after climbing the tree, because i worked for it..."

Love!

T.C. said...

everyone i truly appreciate your support and kind words, they were truly needed and helped get me through