Monday, June 11, 2007

emotional...

ok so today i am extremely emotional...

yes i am emotional...i am sensitive, all over the place and things that wouldn't normally bother me are getting to me, slowly but surely...

i am not the type of woman that tends to have PMS or PMDD bad...but man i have it today...JCroft has written about this...so i know others that experience it, and man am i experiencing it today...

and what makes it worse is that HE has quit the little attitude, now don't take me for my word about this, because it might again be because i am emotional...but i hadn't talked to him all firggin day and he calls only to say HI and to let me know that he was at the new facility today and will be there for a while and he has a LOT of work to do...

so i immediately go into my supportive GF role and say "you'll get through it and i will support you, and i am here for you...." you know the whole, I am here for you, will hold you down spill...its not really a spill, its the truth, but even in my emotional state, i dug down deep and pulled it out of me, just so that i could be there for him, because i can tell he is drained and stressed well he doesn't say anything in return...and that was basically the end of the conversation...dude you could have at least said "thank you, momma/baby" something....

ok, how about i don't feel like talking to you and your raggedy butt no time soon...sure you sound stress and maybe that's a given, but just last week you appreciated me and know what you have and today you can't even say THANK YOU....

go kick rocks....

so see as you all can tell i am a tad bit emotional...the dude has been at work since 5am and probably been busting his butt, but i don't care all i care about is the fact that i was being supportive and he didn't care...

in the grander scheme of things this doesn't even matter...but today with my head, neck, back and stomach hurting....with my emotions being all over the place, today was not the day for his little pissy attitude...today is MY day for a pissy attitude....

and you know what imma keep it....so there!

15 comments:

RM said...

Wellll...LOL!!!!

You know that I think you are just extra. I mean, you really tak extra to another level...LOL!!!

But on the real, no, I have never expeienced symptoms of PMS (knock on wood and thank God) but being a woman, I can understand where you are coming from.

Women are emotional beings anyhow and it never helps any when we are going through some hormonal changes and chemical imbalances. We instantly become a HOT AZZ MESS.

Girl, I hope you feel better soon.

T.C. said...

@rm-i have NEVER had pms like this...not on an emotional level...YES I know its coming...but my emotions being HAM is totally NEW for me...totally! and i don't like it...like you said I am already "extra" & "special" so to add this is NOT a plus...

and the fact is I KNOW he is under a lot of pressure and stress and a lot of times, when you are, you don't think to simply say "thank you" your mind is going and running...

but cot dag it, if today wan't the day NOT to say...

It is What It Is... said...

Yes, I'm with Rika, you are Special..and extra. And so am I...and that makes it even worse....

But I know first hand that PMDD is real. People always want to walk around like its a joke. But its for real. Its really changed my life. I can barely function some times...

LMAO!!!

But seriously, Everybody has those days...just thank GOD for the blog girl...

And remember, there is help for those who need it. There is medication to help fight this tragic disease we know as PMDD. LOL

j.a.c. said...

lol. oh goodness!! drama drama drama!! support for PMDD...the tragic disease!!

ya'll know i had to laugh at all this... =)

T.C. said...

@it is-yea i am soooo extra....but whatever...i'll get over it, him with his "extra butt" will get over it...special is as special does....HA!

@jac-i knew you would find it funny and entertaining...so you joy brings me joy....in the midst of my clouds....

jus butterfli said...

awwwww, butter-cup!! i'm sorry you're feelin' so 'motional, but hell so am i. i say we jus get our rant on together and fuck the rest!! (LOL)

no, seriously tho'... jus remember our deal and holla if you need me!

love you lots!!

T.C. said...

@jus-HELLO! but its just a mood...HE and I are actually rather jazzy...meaning getting along really well, we are both happy...but you know when he is stressed watch out and when i am pissy its hard too...and its not like he is mean or anything, just distant and not himself...and i am like ok, "so what if you are going to be busier than you already are, you can do, and we'll get through it..." but you know he as to go through his own motions and i'll go through mines....

but YES i got you and you got me....

lov you lots!

Blu Jewel said...

i see it like this here, why the hell can't we be emotional? why do we have to justify it with PMS or the like? sweetie, you're a woman. a sweet, gentle, emotional and loving woman. it you're feeling some kind of way, then feel it. don't question yourself or feel you aren't warranted to have an emotional outburst. At least you're allowing yourself to feel; unlike some of us who hold it in, make excuses, and then flip the hell out later on.

baby girl, it's all part of being a woman and if you're approaching 30, it's very much a hormonal switch and there's little you can do about it. take care of your needs, take a bath, go for a walk, listen to Maxwell; or whatever else will make you feel better.

men have thier moments too, but they can't or dont blame it or hormones, it's the job, their girl, life, The Man or whatknot and we deal with it, so eff em and do you!

*hugs* lil sis

Consistently Inconsistent... said...

KICK ROCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just felt like being emotional with you sis.

dc_speaks said...

ok..can I just give you a azz out hug and call it a day as a cousin or big brotha type cat.

(((((((((hug)))))))))

Shai said...

Relax, relate, release drop-kicks if need be. LOL. I feel ya sis. SMH. PMS is a mutha.

T.C. said...

@blu-thanks for the reassurance that its okay to be emotional...

@ci-thank you for being emotional with me

@dc-thanks bra, needed the hug

@shai-LOL, yes drop kicks if needed

deepnthought said...

(((((hugs)))))

just be motional if need be. It is ok. But he could have said something. ole punk.
lol.

I hope today is better lady bug.

Honey-Libra said...

I know all too well about that. However I think most of my nonchalantness about his moodiness was blown out of proportion due to the onset of my you know who lol..I get real mean and analytical about a week or so before it comes horrible I know

Take it easy :)

As you can see just a day or so I was like I could care less and now I'm like I love my baby lol..great

T.C. said...

@deepnthought-yes today is a little better yesterday was THE WORSE...so today is better

@honey-maybe that's it...i mean maybe that's what it is-is that i am just really extra emotional around this time of the month...