JUNE CAN KICK ROCKS!
If July 1st don't hurry the hell up and come on...i am sick of the month of June!
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Monday, June 29, 2009
New hottness
This is what i am talkin about NEW FRESH music and FRESH visions for videos...
Amerie-Why R U
go and watch it and come back...i'll wait...
now wasn't that HOT the fashion the vision the vibe the whole thing was so how can i say this ANTI-B...loved it!
and as much as i hate to admit it Cassie....MUST Be love...
man oh man this thing rocks!
Amerie-Why R U
go and watch it and come back...i'll wait...
now wasn't that HOT the fashion the vision the vibe the whole thing was so how can i say this ANTI-B...loved it!
and as much as i hate to admit it Cassie....MUST Be love...
man oh man this thing rocks!
i know
that i owe you guys a MAJOR update...maybe i don't who knows...but i need to update...
but i am tired just got off a 5 day working 12-14 hours a day at our national convention to only lose my keys and be locked out my apartment...ugg life!
oh well i did have my house to go to and i had someone by my side to keep me calm and let me cry in his arms when i finally felt like the world was coming from under my feet because my parents were gone...tired and hungry and frustrated but not alone...
in and short life is crazy but i am totally HAPPY...
i'll fully update soon but now right now i have a sinus infection that has the whole left side of my face ROCKING...
but i am tired just got off a 5 day working 12-14 hours a day at our national convention to only lose my keys and be locked out my apartment...ugg life!
oh well i did have my house to go to and i had someone by my side to keep me calm and let me cry in his arms when i finally felt like the world was coming from under my feet because my parents were gone...tired and hungry and frustrated but not alone...
in and short life is crazy but i am totally HAPPY...
i'll fully update soon but now right now i have a sinus infection that has the whole left side of my face ROCKING...
Monday, June 22, 2009
almost ova
That's how i feel about the month of June
like will this joint JUST BE OVA...
i am tired and i am ready for Saturday to just come and go...I have entirely too much stuff going on...i definitely want this to just be done...
i haven't had any real break downs in reference to my parents leaving...i did get a little emotional when i went to this house this past weekend but it was like a bittersweet-because i went over there to drop off the new chandaler i purchased for the dinning room and the paint choices for the house...
yes i am moving into the house i grew up in...i will be a home owner before i am 30! which is great but it definitely will take some getting used to that's for sure...
i also will have a roommate for the first time in what 3 and a half years...my older brother who will live in the basement...yea talk about your fixer uper...LOL...he still sees me as what 16 and i still see him as what 16 HA! but hopefully we'll just respect each other as adults and get along...
the new he met my parents before they left...my dad is my dad will always be...so his response doesn't really count because he didn't get any "bad vibes" he just is a dad...no one will ever be good enough...but my mom liked him got no bad vibes and that was awesome! my brother met him on saturday and he sent me to the store for some tire shine so they could talk...its funny my brother thinks he is nice a cool down to earth dude and likes him for me...they talked about the drama from last year and my brother told him "you know my sister is ready to get married"
(side note: i don't talk to my brother about love and life unless its about him and his stuff, very rarely do we talk about me...so to hear that he said that was truly CLASSIC to me...because i feel like if it happens it happens if it doesn't it doesn't...) anyways his response was "yes i know"
who knows...what will happen...but he does in fact make me happy and that's an awesome feeling...
i am glad i got the whole meeting of the families out of the way (i have met his family including his daugther as well) and its good to know what everyone likes us and likes seeing us happy!
its nice to have car doors and regular doors and someone who asks "TC you need me to wash your truck and clean out the inside" and ACTUALLY DO IT! Little things like that matter most to me
he stated that he wished that we had met earlier in life and i responded nope, i am glad we didn't...because neither one of us would have been in the place we are to fully understand and appreciate what it is that we have...and that's true...you can't appreciate the good without fully understanding just how bad things really and truly could be but then you have someone that makes you happy and who your family and friends like...its like WOW!
don't think i can honestly say my mom and brother ever like "liked" someone and didn't have the side eye...my dad has and will always have the side eye...lol...
so once saturday gets here and i am back from FL and i am home safe and sound i'll be aiight! then its time to go to the next level all the way around and i can't wait!
anyways this song right here be cranking...shots out to my DMV!!!!
like will this joint JUST BE OVA...
i am tired and i am ready for Saturday to just come and go...I have entirely too much stuff going on...i definitely want this to just be done...
i haven't had any real break downs in reference to my parents leaving...i did get a little emotional when i went to this house this past weekend but it was like a bittersweet-because i went over there to drop off the new chandaler i purchased for the dinning room and the paint choices for the house...
yes i am moving into the house i grew up in...i will be a home owner before i am 30! which is great but it definitely will take some getting used to that's for sure...
i also will have a roommate for the first time in what 3 and a half years...my older brother who will live in the basement...yea talk about your fixer uper...LOL...he still sees me as what 16 and i still see him as what 16 HA! but hopefully we'll just respect each other as adults and get along...
the new he met my parents before they left...my dad is my dad will always be...so his response doesn't really count because he didn't get any "bad vibes" he just is a dad...no one will ever be good enough...but my mom liked him got no bad vibes and that was awesome! my brother met him on saturday and he sent me to the store for some tire shine so they could talk...its funny my brother thinks he is nice a cool down to earth dude and likes him for me...they talked about the drama from last year and my brother told him "you know my sister is ready to get married"
(side note: i don't talk to my brother about love and life unless its about him and his stuff, very rarely do we talk about me...so to hear that he said that was truly CLASSIC to me...because i feel like if it happens it happens if it doesn't it doesn't...) anyways his response was "yes i know"
who knows...what will happen...but he does in fact make me happy and that's an awesome feeling...
i am glad i got the whole meeting of the families out of the way (i have met his family including his daugther as well) and its good to know what everyone likes us and likes seeing us happy!
its nice to have car doors and regular doors and someone who asks "TC you need me to wash your truck and clean out the inside" and ACTUALLY DO IT! Little things like that matter most to me
he stated that he wished that we had met earlier in life and i responded nope, i am glad we didn't...because neither one of us would have been in the place we are to fully understand and appreciate what it is that we have...and that's true...you can't appreciate the good without fully understanding just how bad things really and truly could be but then you have someone that makes you happy and who your family and friends like...its like WOW!
don't think i can honestly say my mom and brother ever like "liked" someone and didn't have the side eye...my dad has and will always have the side eye...lol...
so once saturday gets here and i am back from FL and i am home safe and sound i'll be aiight! then its time to go to the next level all the way around and i can't wait!
anyways this song right here be cranking...shots out to my DMV!!!!
Thursday, June 11, 2009
3 years
that i have been blogging...wondering if its time to stop but then again i often times have a lot to say...so here it goes...
why did i see a homeless man masturbating on the bench while on my way to get breakfast this morning...needless to say i crossed the street on the way back so that i didn't have to expose myself to that...remember the scene from silance of the lambs when the guy did that and threw it on her as she walked out...yea that image went through my head and i CLEARY didn't want to be the "victim" this morning...he just had that look in his eyes...
i am seeing more and more homeless people these days too...DC has a large homeless population you would think that sense its the nation's captial it wouldn't but it does...
the city i think that it shocked me the most though was LA...to see downtown LA and all those tents (they call them tent cities) and drug needles and just folks for miles and miles was a total shocker...when me and my mom went to see the soloist i was like "its so real mommy" she couldn't even believe it...its not what i was expecting especially in a city where its like all glits and glamer all the time, hell you can't even just walk into a club in LA you gotta be "picked" so with all that money folks is still stuggling like that...sad...
i was in a really mean mood this week...really mean...i don't think i have been that mean in a minute...my mother told me that i have an attitude like my dad, always have...and over the years i have worked really hard to NOT be this mean overly dramatic person (yes i am still dramatic but like in a loud over the top funny type of way...LOL) so even though i had a right to be upset because this person kept something from me...today i decided to put that attitude in check and start to walk myself back to my peace of mind and of self being...that's what i think is most important is that you are happy with yourself...
i am so happy i took the time out to just date and do me...i have such created a person that i know and love and i am truly okay with folks liking me and okay if you don't...because i know i am loved no matter what...
my parents are moving next wednesday...still seems surreal that this time next week i won't have the opporutnity to just UP and go to see my parents whenever i want...i am prepared to be a nervous wreck next week and for a while...i am glad i don't have anythign to do that next weekend because i don't think i will function to well...my parents are my EVERYTHING period the end! love them like no other because they love me like no other...they are the BEST friends a girl could ever ask for...real talk...and they are truly the wisest, smartest, coolest, realest, craziest, people you would ever want to meet...
and imma miss them
June is and will continue to be crazy...but such is life...
why did i see a homeless man masturbating on the bench while on my way to get breakfast this morning...needless to say i crossed the street on the way back so that i didn't have to expose myself to that...remember the scene from silance of the lambs when the guy did that and threw it on her as she walked out...yea that image went through my head and i CLEARY didn't want to be the "victim" this morning...he just had that look in his eyes...
i am seeing more and more homeless people these days too...DC has a large homeless population you would think that sense its the nation's captial it wouldn't but it does...
the city i think that it shocked me the most though was LA...to see downtown LA and all those tents (they call them tent cities) and drug needles and just folks for miles and miles was a total shocker...when me and my mom went to see the soloist i was like "its so real mommy" she couldn't even believe it...its not what i was expecting especially in a city where its like all glits and glamer all the time, hell you can't even just walk into a club in LA you gotta be "picked" so with all that money folks is still stuggling like that...sad...
i was in a really mean mood this week...really mean...i don't think i have been that mean in a minute...my mother told me that i have an attitude like my dad, always have...and over the years i have worked really hard to NOT be this mean overly dramatic person (yes i am still dramatic but like in a loud over the top funny type of way...LOL) so even though i had a right to be upset because this person kept something from me...today i decided to put that attitude in check and start to walk myself back to my peace of mind and of self being...that's what i think is most important is that you are happy with yourself...
i am so happy i took the time out to just date and do me...i have such created a person that i know and love and i am truly okay with folks liking me and okay if you don't...because i know i am loved no matter what...
my parents are moving next wednesday...still seems surreal that this time next week i won't have the opporutnity to just UP and go to see my parents whenever i want...i am prepared to be a nervous wreck next week and for a while...i am glad i don't have anythign to do that next weekend because i don't think i will function to well...my parents are my EVERYTHING period the end! love them like no other because they love me like no other...they are the BEST friends a girl could ever ask for...real talk...and they are truly the wisest, smartest, coolest, realest, craziest, people you would ever want to meet...
and imma miss them
June is and will continue to be crazy...but such is life...
Wednesday, June 03, 2009
get yours!
that's what this life is about right?
everybody wants to just get theirs no matter what happens or who we hurt right...
now i don't believe that i believe that you can make things happen and get yours in this life without ripping someone else to shreds...i don't know maybe that's just me...
what is it about this life that makes us just want to dive in and "get ours" no matter what? i think we have just been programed to always go for ours no matter what we are told to go to college get a master's get a job and work hard but no one really tells you about the heemin and haaing you gotta deal with to work hard everyday...
life can definitely be harder than you thought, but isn't it also beautiful...you know the beautiful struggle...
and isn't "getting yours" the total opposite of what you are supposed to do in love...aren't you supposed to be open to allowing yourself to be vulnerable and open to the person allow your heart to be able and open to someone else...
but we have all been taught to get ours...that doesn't really work when it comes to love and it isn't going to help build any type of healthy relationship...but how do you know that the other person doesn't have the whole "get yours" attitude either...
yea i know complicated...especially when you think about young adults in their late 20s early 30s that's when you grinding out of your mind trying to establish yourself set your career path up and all that stuff...and then you start to think about okay maybe i might want to settle down...and so now you gotta take all the independence that you have become accustom to and allow yourself to be vulnerable enough to get someone...just getting to know someone and allowing them to get to know you is allowing yourself to be vulnerable...total opposite of the "get yours" attitude...
i do know that keeping your standards HIGH and not settling is the ONLY option but isn't that still getting yours or is that just you keeping yourself protected....
but don't you have to protect yourself? don't you have to remain guarded...don't you have to protect you at all times....yea i don't have any answers just brain dumping per usual...
everybody wants to just get theirs no matter what happens or who we hurt right...
now i don't believe that i believe that you can make things happen and get yours in this life without ripping someone else to shreds...i don't know maybe that's just me...
what is it about this life that makes us just want to dive in and "get ours" no matter what? i think we have just been programed to always go for ours no matter what we are told to go to college get a master's get a job and work hard but no one really tells you about the heemin and haaing you gotta deal with to work hard everyday...
life can definitely be harder than you thought, but isn't it also beautiful...you know the beautiful struggle...
and isn't "getting yours" the total opposite of what you are supposed to do in love...aren't you supposed to be open to allowing yourself to be vulnerable and open to the person allow your heart to be able and open to someone else...
but we have all been taught to get ours...that doesn't really work when it comes to love and it isn't going to help build any type of healthy relationship...but how do you know that the other person doesn't have the whole "get yours" attitude either...
yea i know complicated...especially when you think about young adults in their late 20s early 30s that's when you grinding out of your mind trying to establish yourself set your career path up and all that stuff...and then you start to think about okay maybe i might want to settle down...and so now you gotta take all the independence that you have become accustom to and allow yourself to be vulnerable enough to get someone...just getting to know someone and allowing them to get to know you is allowing yourself to be vulnerable...total opposite of the "get yours" attitude...
i do know that keeping your standards HIGH and not settling is the ONLY option but isn't that still getting yours or is that just you keeping yourself protected....
but don't you have to protect yourself? don't you have to remain guarded...don't you have to protect you at all times....yea i don't have any answers just brain dumping per usual...
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