So I must admit something...
I am an around the way girl...true and true all the way through...
All day everyday...
I grew up in Forestville/Capital Heights/District Heights area of Maryland...and I wouldn't trade it for anything..
I grew up hanging out with my older brother WC and riding in the truck with my Dad...at the age of 5 I knew how to play dice...at the age of 10 I knew how to fight, and I knew what to say, who to say things to, and where to hang out and where not to hang out around the way...
I would NEVER let anyone call me out of my name, whether it was b*tch or boo...I have a name, and YOU will respect me and my name (see that around the way attitude right there)
I hung with only a select few of females (still do) and other than that I hung off the dolo solo...and was cool with that...
You can find me bumping Biggie Smalls, Nas, Jay Z, to Mary J, Kelis, Monica, to Earth, Wing & Fire, to Maze fet. Frankie Beverly...
You could find me in the latest Jordans with a fresh pair of jeans and white tee just like a dude (man I was a tom boy) but you could also find me in some pumps with the fly gear of the day and time...still today you can find me in the fresh Nike boots and a fly hoodie and chill pants with a vintage hat (I give that example because that is what I have on today) but hey I will throw on some red lipstick just to spice things up..
Money doesn't impress me, OK, you have a 500 Mercedes Benz doesn't move me...that's cool and everything but if you can't hold a conversation with me, if your heart condition isn't right...if your mind isn't right...if you don't know why its important to own a home and not just have all of your money in a car, then you have nothing to say to me...so in short if you are a Flashy McFlflasherton (shot out to E)..we have nothing to really talk about...
Its had to really express me and my attitude...I can hang with the homies on the corner (not that I do that, but you know I still know folks from around the way, and its all cool...feel me? maybe you don't) and the brothers in the business suits...i can hang with them all...
For example, if you and your boys are going to a party...I can be the only female and be fine with that...if your job is having a holiday party I can fit in there too...
I will stand up for myself and stand strong, but I will let you lead...I know how to sit back and just be supportive and loving...I am strong, yet soft...sweet, but take no BS...
I keep a clean house, wash clothes, I cook...
but most importantly I am just who I am...I keeps it real and just keep it cool...
I thought it would be easier to describe myself...but I guess it really isn't...so Imma give up now...
What you say LL...yea man you was talking bout me...
People let me tell you that the time in your life when you find who you are..And then in your mind you will find you're upright, shining star..When you feel deep inside..All the love you're looking for Don't it make you feel okay..That's the golden time of day...
Thursday, December 21, 2006
Monday, December 18, 2006
the Pursuit of HappYness
So this weekend I went to see the movie the Pursuit of Happyness with my parents and I must say that it was a GREAT movie and I truly recommend anyone and everyone to go see it.
Because the movie is still new I am not going to talk about it, or its plot, or what happens, but I will say this, although the movie was at times slow, it really motivated me to continue on the path that I am moving on.
Last week, for Truly Thankful Tuesday, I eluded to something wonderful happening in my life, a light at the end of the tunnel if you will.
Well today people I can tell you about that light, today, I gave my two week notice at my current employer.
This is how the story goes...On Wednesday, November 29th, after discussing my financial woes and want for a career path that deals with kids...one of my good girlfriends applied for me a position for an organization working for the benefit of youth. (I can never thank you enough KB for that) The organization's mission, vision, goals, all center around making sure that as many kids as possible receive proper health care. So knowing how much I love kids and reading up on the position, she applied for me. Same day I get an e-mail for an interview, that Friday I was already scheduled to work a half day because I had pre-op appointment...so I went, for the interview...I prayed before I went in there, and I prayed when I left...to LET HIS will be done...
The interview was about an hour and a half long. The office is small, and its a place where you KNOW people are there to work for the cause. I loved the atmosphere, I loved talking to the Deputy Director and the other young lady that I would be working with. Me being prepared as I tend to do, I left no room for having to prolong the follow-up, I left my resume and references...and was ready to wait for the "next steps" if you will of the process...
well let me back up, and tell you how I know that Jehovah GOD was in this from the beginning, when I left the doctor's office I needed to get a cab, but the side walk was closed so that meant me walking, IN HEELS, a block or two just to get one...BUT there was a cab sitting on the side that was "out of service" the guy was working on paper work, and I asked him if he could take me to 11th & G streets, he said it wasn't far so OK...BUT the thing was he didn't take Visa cards, but I knew there was a Suntrust Bank in the building, so I told him if he would take me, I would pay him when I got there...he TOOK ME! Now this is totally unheard of, thought of, whatever...I get there he gives me 5 minutes free to get the money and he didn't over charge me...Unbelievable right...yea I know...
So the next week when I am working from home, recovering whatever, I get a call asking which references that they wanted me to call...I called them back and let them know...This was Tuesday, by that Thursday she had called my references, and by that next Monday I had a message from the Deputy Director asking me to give her a call...
Now, let me back up again, at first I was told that I would know something by that Friday, December 8th, but the call never came...so that Friday and Saturday I was tripping, I was really tripping...because its such a GREAT opportunity for me to start on my career path...so Sunday I went to church...I went to church and I felt like the weight of the world had been lifted off my shoulders...I left it all there in the church that day, and moved on...I said "Lord you know what's best for me, you have your way, and let it be your will, where I belong..."
So Tuesday, December 12th I gave her a call and she offered me the job...I will be working to do research and programming in my new position, I will get a 20% increase in salary, and they pay my basic medical benefits 100%, anything above that I will pay, and its a really good place for me...the Deputy Director told me straight up that she was at the down end of her career path and she was really looking for young people that she can mold and grow to eventually take the organization to the next level! That's what I am talking about....and I honestly BELIEVE in what they are doing and feel like I am going to look FORWARD to going to work everyday...
Well how does this all tie into the movie...well dude NEVER gave up, even when he wasn't "qualified" on paper, he showed them how he really was...through his persistence and going the extra mile...
Let me make something clear, I KNOW for a fact that I was in the top 3 of the candidates for my new position, and I also KNOW because of what she told my two references, that I was NOT the MOST qualified candidate for the job, but THEY LIKED ME and saw potential IN ME...
Now, don't get me wrong I have the masters, I have the research and work history, but I don't have the tenure, I don't have a steady work history, NOR do I have an extensive work experience background, 3+ years in the field steady...I haven't had my MPA but for 6 months...I have worked all through undergrad and grad school, jumping around trying to find my "nitch" so my longest job was about a year in one position...
BUT what I KNOW I did in that interview, is I let the Deputy Director KNOW, that I was eager and willing to learn, and ready to go! I let her know that I honestly believe in the organization, I showed that I researched the organization, and I expressed how I would work HARD to grown and excel in the organization, if just given the opportunity...I Stretched myself...I put myself on the line and I Stretched myself...because I knew if just given the chance I could do it!
Its just brings me to the conclusion, that like Chris Gargner, we too have to go the EXTRA MILE to make it in this corporate America life style...As we were watching the movie (I went with my parents) my father said "I would have been done cursed that MF out.." and I just looked at him and said "Dad, that's just corporate America"...
it made me realize something...there is NO perfect job out there for you...for me...but there is the makings of a GREAT (not perfect)experience...
Now, don't get me wrong, NO JOB IS PERFECT...NO LIFE IS PERFECT....every job is going to have something that you don't like about it, every job is going to have its share of BS and the people who create the BS...but its up to YOU, to pursue your own HAPPINESS, to work towards your goals and what you want out of life...
and I honestly find that when I turn that over to GOD...and let HIM work it out for ME, through me...its that much easier of a thing to do....
Life hasn't been that easy for me...let's just take a look at my year 2006 in review shall we:
was at the job from HELL
left there got another job only to be let go after 2 months...out of work for about 2 months, got another job (where I am at now) that is just that a job but it deals with research and I learned a lot...but then I began to have major health problems that lead to major surgery, my apartment was broken into...no relationship in sight....and you know I just started to feel really down...wanting to get out of debt move forward do something positive...
...regardless that I took a 10% pay cut to come to THIS job GOD moved for me to get a 20% increase when moving to my new job...and through all the ups and downs I haven't missed not one rental payment, one car payment, credit card bill payment, and NOW with an additional 400 for student loans...I haven't missed that either
Again, I say I haven't missed a beat, bills may not have gotten paid exactly ON time, but they got paid...and I kept right on going...its been rough, it hasn't been easy..but I look back on it and I KNOW that GOD was preparing to move me to another level in my life and without all the experiences and trails that I have endured I wouldn't understand the JOY, PEACE, and just satisfaction at looking at my life, knowing it could be worse, and just revealing my TRUE HAPPINESS!
And the thing is HE IS NOT DONE YET...not by far...Happiness is about a peace of mind, a centeredness if you will, that you can't get from the cars, the clothes, the homes, the money...it comes from within, from setting your sights on something and going for it, no matter WHAT the odds are...its about continuing to strive for the BEST in life, whatever YOUR best is...but knowing that in the end...its really about that inner peace that COMES from knowing GOD and knowing yourself...
Again, life is not perfect, but what you want, you have to go for it people, don't get strapped down in the "everyday" of life, and let it pass you by...life is to be lived, to be enjoyed...
You should make life, life should NOT make you...
pursue your dreams, even when they tell you NO, or you aren't the MOST qualifed, if you know you can do it...you go AFTER it...
pursue YOUR HAPPINESS!
Thursday, December 14, 2006
Just another day....back in the day
Man I have been having one of them days..
Where its just OFF the HOOK...but like in a good way...
I keep going to different blogs, Blu, Jus.B.Fli, MikeSee, G.Mo, Electrik...and man its off the hook today...just random stuff all over the place that makes you just smile, laugh, or blurt something outloud at your desk...
You know them type of days where you read stuff or see stuff that just makes you like
"man, that is so out there, but I have thought of that too..."
and all you can do is laugh...
Then to top it off...we had lunch provided to us today by our job, so we sat around from like 12:45 to dag on near 2 talking and eating...
Then there is just some classic stuff in the world that needs to be shared to make folks say...you know what....that just made my day...
Well here is something that will have you grooving...
ya'll should know by now that any GOOD day for me always includes music...well today I am taking it back...
OR what about this joint...you KNOW you was boobing to this joint...
(the video quality sucks...but just vibe to this joint...you know excluding the N-word, this joint crancked...)
And everybody say: "I remember way back when..." Man!
And if you wasn't feeling NONE of them joints...
YOU HAD to be FEELING this joint...
I remember the first time I heard this I was in my room and my older brother WC was thumping this joint in his room (he was the coolest dude to me) and I ran out my room and was like "what is that?" and we just kept playing it over and over again...this was it right here...
Man I couldn't get the youtube version to act right...so
Super Cat's Dolly My Baby Bad Boy Remix couldn't be played folks...
dag on it...
Give me your love.....
Ok one last joint...
Now mind you, this joint was OFF the hook...Lil Kim WAS and IS off the hook...but man this joint off of Hard Core used to crank...and if you can sit there and act like you ain't used to boob to this joint back in 1996 if you want to...but Imma keep it real...
Ok Ok...I had to put this up too...
Now granted I can't stand this video and wish HE would have been able to make the video, but alas he was lost....
Man what you won't do for love....
And who could forget this group...Man Tribe set the world on Fire...
Fellas "she couldn't relate"
And how can I reminisce and NOT have some Biggie up in here...
I love when they call me BIG POPPA the show stoppa...
Man the 90s...classic....Now I don't know how me thinking about today and all the randomness on the blogs and me just having a GREAT day lead to this HUGE list of songs that made me think, that's what it was...these songs make me think of GOOD times, when I was coming up...school, life, friends, learning how to drive...all of that...man Classic memories
Where its just OFF the HOOK...but like in a good way...
I keep going to different blogs, Blu, Jus.B.Fli, MikeSee, G.Mo, Electrik...and man its off the hook today...just random stuff all over the place that makes you just smile, laugh, or blurt something outloud at your desk...
You know them type of days where you read stuff or see stuff that just makes you like
"man, that is so out there, but I have thought of that too..."
and all you can do is laugh...
Then to top it off...we had lunch provided to us today by our job, so we sat around from like 12:45 to dag on near 2 talking and eating...
Then there is just some classic stuff in the world that needs to be shared to make folks say...you know what....that just made my day...
Well here is something that will have you grooving...
ya'll should know by now that any GOOD day for me always includes music...well today I am taking it back...
OR what about this joint...you KNOW you was boobing to this joint...
(the video quality sucks...but just vibe to this joint...you know excluding the N-word, this joint crancked...)
And everybody say: "I remember way back when..." Man!
And if you wasn't feeling NONE of them joints...
YOU HAD to be FEELING this joint...
I remember the first time I heard this I was in my room and my older brother WC was thumping this joint in his room (he was the coolest dude to me) and I ran out my room and was like "what is that?" and we just kept playing it over and over again...this was it right here...
Man I couldn't get the youtube version to act right...so
Super Cat's Dolly My Baby Bad Boy Remix couldn't be played folks...
dag on it...
Give me your love.....
Ok one last joint...
Now mind you, this joint was OFF the hook...Lil Kim WAS and IS off the hook...but man this joint off of Hard Core used to crank...and if you can sit there and act like you ain't used to boob to this joint back in 1996 if you want to...but Imma keep it real...
Ok Ok...I had to put this up too...
Now granted I can't stand this video and wish HE would have been able to make the video, but alas he was lost....
Man what you won't do for love....
And who could forget this group...Man Tribe set the world on Fire...
Fellas "she couldn't relate"
And how can I reminisce and NOT have some Biggie up in here...
I love when they call me BIG POPPA the show stoppa...
Man the 90s...classic....Now I don't know how me thinking about today and all the randomness on the blogs and me just having a GREAT day lead to this HUGE list of songs that made me think, that's what it was...these songs make me think of GOOD times, when I was coming up...school, life, friends, learning how to drive...all of that...man Classic memories
Icebox
So you all know I pick a song of the week...but man these little R&B youngins is doing it...
I love this new song from Omarion-Icebox
The song ROCKS and I love the video...
Then you got lil Lloyd and his little cutie pie self...You Ft. Lil Wayne
He ain't really talking about nothing, but its cute and catchy...
It makes me think about when JAC did a post about this a couple of months ago...I can definitely see what she was talking about...OR maybe I am just really feeling these two songs particularly...either way...
Happy Thursday People!
I love this new song from Omarion-Icebox
The song ROCKS and I love the video...
Then you got lil Lloyd and his little cutie pie self...You Ft. Lil Wayne
He ain't really talking about nothing, but its cute and catchy...
It makes me think about when JAC did a post about this a couple of months ago...I can definitely see what she was talking about...OR maybe I am just really feeling these two songs particularly...either way...
Happy Thursday People!
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
Song of the Week: Hip Hop is Dead
NO I didn't forget people, but just had other things going on...
So with all this debate over the "Hip Hop is Dead" Movement that is going on I decided that this was the song of the week...
Lyrically, not Nas' best, however, the album seems to be taking it back to the illmatic days...so THAT right there give him my definite purchase on 12/19/06
The video itself isn't the greatest either...but hey I love the movement, I love what its talking about...
Yes I believe Hip Hop is Dead for various reasons...
1) let's just look at what we are being offered on TV...
2) let's just talk about the rediculous beefs that are going on in airwaves
3) let's look at the disrespect that the young cats in the game have for the legends....
oh and
4) the mess that folks are NOW doing as a result of this so called music
So that in and of itself people, the lack of variety, the lack of content, the lack of just plain old lyrical ability of many of these cats (including my crush Jim Jones) leds me to believe in the movement...NOW do I believe that HIP HOP is still alive in some aspects with folks such as Nas, Common, Mos Def, Talib, Little Brother, Lupe, Kanye and even Jay..YES I do...but the said part is that the majority of stuff that is being put out there is about Bling and the like, lacks lyrical skills and any real depth and doesn't move me...other than my head to the dope production...
Now don't get me wrong, songs like Dangerous by the Ying Yang Twins, or I luv it by Jeezy...they have a place in my collection for when I need to get hyped about going to the club...or when I am at the club...but these types of dudes are purely for entertainment, I do NOT take the serious at all...there is NO real lyrical ability...
now like Dane says, I'll give you Lil Wayne and T.I, they can honestly rap and have some lyrical ability...but the rest...naw...
Well I will forever be a TRUE HIP HOP HEAD so we shall see what happens next...
At least we are talking about it...
Well
So with all this debate over the "Hip Hop is Dead" Movement that is going on I decided that this was the song of the week...
Lyrically, not Nas' best, however, the album seems to be taking it back to the illmatic days...so THAT right there give him my definite purchase on 12/19/06
The video itself isn't the greatest either...but hey I love the movement, I love what its talking about...
Yes I believe Hip Hop is Dead for various reasons...
1) let's just look at what we are being offered on TV...
2) let's just talk about the rediculous beefs that are going on in airwaves
3) let's look at the disrespect that the young cats in the game have for the legends....
oh and
4) the mess that folks are NOW doing as a result of this so called music
So that in and of itself people, the lack of variety, the lack of content, the lack of just plain old lyrical ability of many of these cats (including my crush Jim Jones) leds me to believe in the movement...NOW do I believe that HIP HOP is still alive in some aspects with folks such as Nas, Common, Mos Def, Talib, Little Brother, Lupe, Kanye and even Jay..YES I do...but the said part is that the majority of stuff that is being put out there is about Bling and the like, lacks lyrical skills and any real depth and doesn't move me...other than my head to the dope production...
Now don't get me wrong, songs like Dangerous by the Ying Yang Twins, or I luv it by Jeezy...they have a place in my collection for when I need to get hyped about going to the club...or when I am at the club...but these types of dudes are purely for entertainment, I do NOT take the serious at all...there is NO real lyrical ability...
now like Dane says, I'll give you Lil Wayne and T.I, they can honestly rap and have some lyrical ability...but the rest...naw...
Well I will forever be a TRUE HIP HOP HEAD so we shall see what happens next...
At least we are talking about it...
Well
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
Truly Thankful Tuesday
I got a praise report for you!!!!
Man when I say that I was stressing all weekend over something...
Had a student loan of $371 that was due YESTERDAY
Still in pain
Not knowing what the future was going to hold
Not feeling satisfied...
But MAN when I said that I went to church on Sunday and got that GREAT word and was motivated to keep my head lifted and to praise Jehovah God...
Man remember I said last week that he was about to move in my life and take me to another level in 2007, well
HE IS MOVING!!!
HE HAS MOVED in a way I would never have thought and in a matter of moments....
I will fill you guys in with details later...but he is moving...
If you have been following this blog you KNOW I have been through plenty of ups and downs and I have been trying to stay faithful and steadfast...and I am hear to tell you...
PRAYER WORKS
FAITH WORKS
JEHOVAH GOD is the TRUTH and the LIGHT!!!!
Be Blessed People
Hold on
Stay up
peace
ps if you don't already have it...get that Kirk Franklin Hero CD...you will truly experience something wonderful!
Man when I say that I was stressing all weekend over something...
Had a student loan of $371 that was due YESTERDAY
Still in pain
Not knowing what the future was going to hold
Not feeling satisfied...
But MAN when I said that I went to church on Sunday and got that GREAT word and was motivated to keep my head lifted and to praise Jehovah God...
Man remember I said last week that he was about to move in my life and take me to another level in 2007, well
HE IS MOVING!!!
HE HAS MOVED in a way I would never have thought and in a matter of moments....
I will fill you guys in with details later...but he is moving...
If you have been following this blog you KNOW I have been through plenty of ups and downs and I have been trying to stay faithful and steadfast...and I am hear to tell you...
PRAYER WORKS
FAITH WORKS
JEHOVAH GOD is the TRUTH and the LIGHT!!!!
Be Blessed People
Hold on
Stay up
peace
ps if you don't already have it...get that Kirk Franklin Hero CD...you will truly experience something wonderful!
Thursday, December 07, 2006
Tears....
So as I sat and listened to this song, tears began to run down my face (literally I can't control it)...not tears of pain or of sorrow but tears of joy...because I KNOW that Jehovah the LORD GOD has truly brought me far...
As I sit back and reflect on the year that was, I know that he has been putting me through the TEST but without the TEST there is no testimony (Miss Alisa) and as I sit and reflect and look and stay focused on the light at the end of the tunnel I know that HE is going to take me so much further than I could ever imagine...
My life is going to go places I could never have dreamed of and that's because GOD has forgiven me and loves me, continues to love me and help me to grow...
So with everything that is going on in the world, lies, wars, theft, sickness....
just hold on people...just hold on...
Be Blessed people...
As I sit back and reflect on the year that was, I know that he has been putting me through the TEST but without the TEST there is no testimony (Miss Alisa) and as I sit and reflect and look and stay focused on the light at the end of the tunnel I know that HE is going to take me so much further than I could ever imagine...
My life is going to go places I could never have dreamed of and that's because GOD has forgiven me and loves me, continues to love me and help me to grow...
So with everything that is going on in the world, lies, wars, theft, sickness....
just hold on people...just hold on...
Be Blessed people...
Runaway Love...
Ok, so here is the deal, I have been wanting to post about this video for a minute now.
I must say that I love this song, I love the imagery of the video, I love the lyrical content, but most importantly,
I LOVE what this song is talking about...
I am so glad that Ludacris decided to really talk about the issues that many of our young women, our children are dealing with on a day to day basis...
Day to day with deal with various issues and things, that make us feel like we need or want to "runaway" but there are people, there are children that deal with serious issues, and some that are not so "serious" but are issues to them just the same...
I had to deal with this last year, I had a young woman whose OWN father was sexually abusing her, and I had to report it and everything, but because she was sexually active (due mostly to the fact that her own father "turned her out" at 11 years old...just imagine what that does to a child's body...we as adults are addicted to sex and we have the rationale of what to do and not to do...a child's, a little girls body, man penis...)the case was dismissed...
so she actually ended up right back in the home, they made her tell them who reported them (her father and step mother) to the authorities, and I haven't been able to see or talk to her since she had to go back home...
Its really sad when events such as these happen...I remember calling my own father and crying like a baby because the thought of a man doing that to a child, let alone his OWN child just sickened me...
I say all of this to say, people pay attention, listen to the children around you and take heed to their problems...even if they aren't being sexually or physically abused, there may be some other issues going on in their lives...something as simple as low self-esteem can have detrimental affects on a young person...
so give back, talk to them, even if its just your little cousin, your little brother, niece or nephew OR if you do have kids, PLEASE pay attention and talk to your children...OUR children
I don't know what sparked this today, maybe it was this song....
Wake up people and let's look out for the NEXT generation...
Peace
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
Tally It Up and Title it..."My Fine Is..."
Okay so I got this BluJewel and thought it might be something fun to post. Feel free to use this on your own sites as I'm all for spreading love and humor.
By the way, you don't need to reveal what your "crimes" were; just how much they cost you.
Smoked weed EVER $10
Done acid $20
Ever had sex at church (you're going to hell) $25
Woke up in the morning and did not know the person who was next to you $40
Had sex with someone on MySpace $25
Had sex with a Blogger $30
Had sex for money $100
Ever had sex with a Puerto Rican $20
Vandalized something $20
Had sex on your parents' bed (just wrong) $100
Beat up someone $20
Been jumped $10
Crossed dressed (Halloween excluded) $10
Given money to stripper $25
Been in love with a stripper $20
Kissed some one who's name you didn't know $5
Hit on some one of the same sex while at work $15
Ever drive drunk $50
Ever got drunk at work, or went to work while still drunk $50
Used toys while having sex $30
Got drunk, passed and don't remember the night before $20
Went skinny dipping $15
Had sex in a pool $20
Kissed someone of the same sex $10
Had sex with someone of the same sex $20
Cheated on your significant other $10
Masturbated $10
Cheated on your significant other with their relative or close friend $20
Done oral $15
Got oral $10
Done / got oral in a car while it was moving $25
Stole something $10
Had sex with someone in jail $25
Made a nasty home video $15
Had a threesome $50
Had sex in the wild $20
Been in the same room while someone was having sex $25
Stole something worth over more than a hundred dollars $80
Had sex with someone 10 years older $20
Had sex with someone under 21 and you are over 27 $25
Been in love with two people or more at the same time $50
Said you love someone but didn't mean it $25
Went streaking $5
Went streaking in broad daylight $15
Been arrested $55
Spent time in jail $75
Peed in the pool $5
Played spin the bottle $10
Done something you regret $40
Had sex with your best friend $20
Had sex with someone you work with at work $25
Had anal sex $80
Lied to your mate $25
Lied to your mate about the sex being good $75
My TOTAL Fine is: $385
Ok so that's my total...what's yours...Blu said I need to get out more and party with her and some other folks...LOL
I think I am aiight with being on the low end of the scale though...
AGAIN you don't have to tell what your crimes are, just tell us your fines....
By the way, you don't need to reveal what your "crimes" were; just how much they cost you.
Smoked weed EVER $10
Done acid $20
Ever had sex at church (you're going to hell) $25
Woke up in the morning and did not know the person who was next to you $40
Had sex with someone on MySpace $25
Had sex with a Blogger $30
Had sex for money $100
Ever had sex with a Puerto Rican $20
Vandalized something $20
Had sex on your parents' bed (just wrong) $100
Beat up someone $20
Been jumped $10
Crossed dressed (Halloween excluded) $10
Given money to stripper $25
Been in love with a stripper $20
Kissed some one who's name you didn't know $5
Hit on some one of the same sex while at work $15
Ever drive drunk $50
Ever got drunk at work, or went to work while still drunk $50
Used toys while having sex $30
Got drunk, passed and don't remember the night before $20
Went skinny dipping $15
Had sex in a pool $20
Kissed someone of the same sex $10
Had sex with someone of the same sex $20
Cheated on your significant other $10
Masturbated $10
Cheated on your significant other with their relative or close friend $20
Done oral $15
Got oral $10
Done / got oral in a car while it was moving $25
Stole something $10
Had sex with someone in jail $25
Made a nasty home video $15
Had a threesome $50
Had sex in the wild $20
Been in the same room while someone was having sex $25
Stole something worth over more than a hundred dollars $80
Had sex with someone 10 years older $20
Had sex with someone under 21 and you are over 27 $25
Been in love with two people or more at the same time $50
Said you love someone but didn't mean it $25
Went streaking $5
Went streaking in broad daylight $15
Been arrested $55
Spent time in jail $75
Peed in the pool $5
Played spin the bottle $10
Done something you regret $40
Had sex with your best friend $20
Had sex with someone you work with at work $25
Had anal sex $80
Lied to your mate $25
Lied to your mate about the sex being good $75
My TOTAL Fine is: $385
Ok so that's my total...what's yours...Blu said I need to get out more and party with her and some other folks...LOL
I think I am aiight with being on the low end of the scale though...
AGAIN you don't have to tell what your crimes are, just tell us your fines....
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
Song of the Week
OK so I must admit that I totally thought that Jay's new album was going to be a lot better...HOWEVER, I do like this song and this video...
Restin...
Well the surgery day was pretty eventful...
Yes, eventful
I wish I could say it wasn't but it really was...
First, on Friday, when I went for my pre-op appointment I found out that the cyst had grown from 13 cm to about 6 inches...
YES 6 inches! It was the size of a lemon...
The good thing was that it (the cyst) had stabilized and hadn't grown since my last appointment...but here is the thing...how about I didn't even know it had grown that much, I mean I remember everyone being freaked out about it and saying that it couldn't wait until after the first of the year, but geesh...I didn't know it was that big...
But then I was told that I had two "functional clear cysts" on the right...now remember the first time I had one, second none, now, two...so this could be from a number of things, including the fact that my body was in the process of ovulation...who really knows...
So they told me that they would look into it when they went in for the left cyst...
Day of
Me and my mom get to the hospital
check in
everything is cool...oh, but one thing, the person in front of me is having complications so my time gets pushed back...
I don't go into the OR until about 1:15pm...so while I am waiting I have this SHARP pain on my right side...well come to find out, that the two cysts on the right ruptured and I was homogening really badly...So instead of the surgery taking 40 mins to an hour it took 2 hours and 20 mins...instead of 3 incisions, I have 4...
BUT the cyst doesn't look to be cancerous and the surgeon sent the fluid and the cyst off to be tested...so I will know it two weeks when I go back for my check up with the deal is...
It really hasn't been all that bad...I have been in some serious pain and all of that good stuff but they didn't have to do a "binki" cut to get in and get stuff out (had they HAD to do that I would still be IN the hospital)
Pain is all relative when GOD keeps blessing me and bringing me out alright...
So today, by the graced of my supervisor, I am working from home, restin and healin...I will face the land of the living fully tomorrow...
Until then...
THANKS FOR ALL OF YOUR WONDERFUL WORDS OF ENCOURAGEMENT AND PRAYERS they truly have meant a lot!!!!
Yes, eventful
I wish I could say it wasn't but it really was...
First, on Friday, when I went for my pre-op appointment I found out that the cyst had grown from 13 cm to about 6 inches...
YES 6 inches! It was the size of a lemon...
The good thing was that it (the cyst) had stabilized and hadn't grown since my last appointment...but here is the thing...how about I didn't even know it had grown that much, I mean I remember everyone being freaked out about it and saying that it couldn't wait until after the first of the year, but geesh...I didn't know it was that big...
But then I was told that I had two "functional clear cysts" on the right...now remember the first time I had one, second none, now, two...so this could be from a number of things, including the fact that my body was in the process of ovulation...who really knows...
So they told me that they would look into it when they went in for the left cyst...
Day of
Me and my mom get to the hospital
check in
everything is cool...oh, but one thing, the person in front of me is having complications so my time gets pushed back...
I don't go into the OR until about 1:15pm...so while I am waiting I have this SHARP pain on my right side...well come to find out, that the two cysts on the right ruptured and I was homogening really badly...So instead of the surgery taking 40 mins to an hour it took 2 hours and 20 mins...instead of 3 incisions, I have 4...
BUT the cyst doesn't look to be cancerous and the surgeon sent the fluid and the cyst off to be tested...so I will know it two weeks when I go back for my check up with the deal is...
It really hasn't been all that bad...I have been in some serious pain and all of that good stuff but they didn't have to do a "binki" cut to get in and get stuff out (had they HAD to do that I would still be IN the hospital)
Pain is all relative when GOD keeps blessing me and bringing me out alright...
So today, by the graced of my supervisor, I am working from home, restin and healin...I will face the land of the living fully tomorrow...
Until then...
THANKS FOR ALL OF YOUR WONDERFUL WORDS OF ENCOURAGEMENT AND PRAYERS they truly have meant a lot!!!!
Friday, December 01, 2006
An Ode to O....
So my girl friend sent me this message today about the recent comments about Oprah made by Fifty Cent. And I asked her if I could put this up..
I really think this is something that we need to talk about.
Like Jay said: "I got rich and gave back, to me that's the win win..."
To Fifty
From Jes
Fifty needs to sit the hell down.
I really hate when people make UN-EDUCATED assumptions and GROSS generalizations about people and/or things that they know nothing about. Before he even opened his mouth…that wack rapper could have at least GOOGLED her. Geeze!!!
Its not our fault or her fault that Oprah is hugely supported by White Women ages 25 to 60?? If he had a brain, he’d realize that there are more of them than us! We are a minority.
But Anyway,
I am not even going to go down the list of Oprah’s contributions to our culture, success and growth as African people in AMERICA and in the entire African Diaspora.
I have had countless arguments, debates with African American people about Oprah being an “OREO” – and I always win my arguments and debates when it comes to Oprah…cause that woman has put her MONEY & her HEART where her Mouth IS. The facts are there...if you want to know them...
This woman has dedicated her entire life to our struggle and cause as a people…but most importantly black women. Not only in this nation…but on the entire Continent of AFRICA. PERIOD.
I am grateful for her and to her for telling OUR story through accurate depictions in her movies, TV shows, books & the countless number of films she produces...
She has exposed and shared with the world (WHITE PEOPLE too) our jewels and most prized possessions (Toni Morrison, Maya Angelou, Alice Walker, Nikki Giovanni) our LEGENDS – she has given them a venue through her show that your Good Morning America’s and Regis & Kathy Lees NEVER DID and wouldn’t even dare to do.
She has given them (the world) a glimpse into the awesomeness of our best and brightest…
Through Oprah, our true and great story as women of color has had an opportunity to be accurately told.
Not only that – Oprah is a genius. She realizes that white supremacy and racism is REAL and rampant in our world.
SHE HAS SAID so NUMEROUS times in several interviews!!!! Fifty!! She knows that It is alive and breathing just as it was 600 to 1000 years ago.
She has been smart enough to use her star power and ability to capture audiences and use it as an avenue to tell a story that has been completely ignored in mainstream media and to hopefully change the mindset of our world. That story is the plight of African & African American women…and really all women of color across the world.
Why would or should she give attention to a worthless wanksta rapper like fifty??
Who isn’t really saying anything or talking about anything in his rhymes?? A rapper with no level of consciousness or awareness of who he is as a black man...(just my opinion)
I am completely offended by his ignorance and comments
– Fifty is on my list....
He will be officially called out and talked about in all of my celebrity emails, articles, books and publications...
Fifty – YOU SUCK!!
Holla,
Jes
So my thing is this....I mean how much of OUR struggle do we put on the shoulders of a few of our Black Leaders...
MikeSee's Letter addresses this VERY topic...
Why is it that we expect to have a Black "savior" sweep down and solve ALL of our problems...
Don't get me wrong I am totally for a Movement, and every movement needs a leader...but EVERY movement needs the people...
When are WE as a people, as THE people, going to stop bringing each other down, acknowledge that American as a whole isn't ready for a Black President, and that we need to really get together for progression of ourselves and our community FIRST (local, state and regional agendas) and get that straight and TIGHT...BEFORE we can ever take on a national agenda...
I don't know people what do you think?
I really think this is something that we need to talk about.
Like Jay said: "I got rich and gave back, to me that's the win win..."
To Fifty
From Jes
Fifty needs to sit the hell down.
I really hate when people make UN-EDUCATED assumptions and GROSS generalizations about people and/or things that they know nothing about. Before he even opened his mouth…that wack rapper could have at least GOOGLED her. Geeze!!!
Its not our fault or her fault that Oprah is hugely supported by White Women ages 25 to 60?? If he had a brain, he’d realize that there are more of them than us! We are a minority.
But Anyway,
I am not even going to go down the list of Oprah’s contributions to our culture, success and growth as African people in AMERICA and in the entire African Diaspora.
I have had countless arguments, debates with African American people about Oprah being an “OREO” – and I always win my arguments and debates when it comes to Oprah…cause that woman has put her MONEY & her HEART where her Mouth IS. The facts are there...if you want to know them...
This woman has dedicated her entire life to our struggle and cause as a people…but most importantly black women. Not only in this nation…but on the entire Continent of AFRICA. PERIOD.
I am grateful for her and to her for telling OUR story through accurate depictions in her movies, TV shows, books & the countless number of films she produces...
She has exposed and shared with the world (WHITE PEOPLE too) our jewels and most prized possessions (Toni Morrison, Maya Angelou, Alice Walker, Nikki Giovanni) our LEGENDS – she has given them a venue through her show that your Good Morning America’s and Regis & Kathy Lees NEVER DID and wouldn’t even dare to do.
She has given them (the world) a glimpse into the awesomeness of our best and brightest…
Through Oprah, our true and great story as women of color has had an opportunity to be accurately told.
Not only that – Oprah is a genius. She realizes that white supremacy and racism is REAL and rampant in our world.
SHE HAS SAID so NUMEROUS times in several interviews!!!! Fifty!! She knows that It is alive and breathing just as it was 600 to 1000 years ago.
She has been smart enough to use her star power and ability to capture audiences and use it as an avenue to tell a story that has been completely ignored in mainstream media and to hopefully change the mindset of our world. That story is the plight of African & African American women…and really all women of color across the world.
Why would or should she give attention to a worthless wanksta rapper like fifty??
Who isn’t really saying anything or talking about anything in his rhymes?? A rapper with no level of consciousness or awareness of who he is as a black man...(just my opinion)
I am completely offended by his ignorance and comments
– Fifty is on my list....
He will be officially called out and talked about in all of my celebrity emails, articles, books and publications...
Fifty – YOU SUCK!!
Holla,
Jes
So my thing is this....I mean how much of OUR struggle do we put on the shoulders of a few of our Black Leaders...
MikeSee's Letter addresses this VERY topic...
Why is it that we expect to have a Black "savior" sweep down and solve ALL of our problems...
Don't get me wrong I am totally for a Movement, and every movement needs a leader...but EVERY movement needs the people...
When are WE as a people, as THE people, going to stop bringing each other down, acknowledge that American as a whole isn't ready for a Black President, and that we need to really get together for progression of ourselves and our community FIRST (local, state and regional agendas) and get that straight and TIGHT...BEFORE we can ever take on a national agenda...
I don't know people what do you think?
Tomorrow is the day....
the BIG day...
I go for my final sonogram today and we shall see if the cyst has gotten bigger or smaller or at the least stablized...I am just hoping its stable...that joker must know something is up because its bothering me today, and after the sono I KNOW its going to be off the hook....
I have to be at Sibley Hospital at 9:55am (knowing my mother I will be there WAY before then because she doesn't like to be late...plus I really don't know where I am going IN the hospital OR how to get to the hospital)
I just got off the phone with her she wants to be at my house at 8:00AM...she is too funny..."you don't know about traffic (its a saturday morning) or what if we get lost..." I gave up, "Ok Ma, 8..."
Surgery starts at 11:55am
I should be done, granted if there are NO complications in 2 hours.
Recovery time about 1 to 3 hours, depending on how my body reacts to things...
So my mom should have me home early evening....
So that will be the end of that...or it may be a beginning...but I am going to think positive thoughts...
So I might not be on here for a minute folks...well that's not true I will be back at work (or I am planning to) on Monday...
So stay up people and have a GREAT weekend....
And remember to keep this at all times....
I go for my final sonogram today and we shall see if the cyst has gotten bigger or smaller or at the least stablized...I am just hoping its stable...that joker must know something is up because its bothering me today, and after the sono I KNOW its going to be off the hook....
I have to be at Sibley Hospital at 9:55am (knowing my mother I will be there WAY before then because she doesn't like to be late...plus I really don't know where I am going IN the hospital OR how to get to the hospital)
I just got off the phone with her she wants to be at my house at 8:00AM...she is too funny..."you don't know about traffic (its a saturday morning) or what if we get lost..." I gave up, "Ok Ma, 8..."
Surgery starts at 11:55am
I should be done, granted if there are NO complications in 2 hours.
Recovery time about 1 to 3 hours, depending on how my body reacts to things...
So my mom should have me home early evening....
So that will be the end of that...or it may be a beginning...but I am going to think positive thoughts...
So I might not be on here for a minute folks...well that's not true I will be back at work (or I am planning to) on Monday...
So stay up people and have a GREAT weekend....
And remember to keep this at all times....
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