of the Foreign Exchange project these two songs are my absolute FAVS!
take a look...definitely a summer jam and then well this melancholy of real life situations ya dig...
what you think...good vibes, good rhythm, real right?
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
good times
don't you just love it when you can just go and have a GREAT weekend...
man oh man did I have a GREAT weekend...
started with me getting of a 1/2 day on friday and having monday OFF...yep that alone will give you cause to be like bump it imma have me some fun...THEN you add on top of that GREAT weather...now mind you i don't like heat can't stand heat but not even the heat could get me in a funky mood it was just going to be a good weekend...
i was (and still am) feeling like myself so why not go ahead and make some things happen some good old fashion clean fun!
Friday -INDIE SOUL
got off went to the crib did some errands and things...got myself together and headed up to bmore to hang out with Lady P...we went to see the gentlemen that you see listed to your left under "what's rocking" the show was AMAZING...it was unique in that all of the artist...Angela Johnson, Anthony David and Eric Roberson rotated their performances...each would do a 2-3 songs and then bring out the other artist and sometimes they would sing songs that they had collaborated on...it was a PARTY! I was glad that the both of us decided to go dressed "down" and very "hip hop" because we had to stand the entire time...but like i said it was worth it...truly had a blast...the only issue i had was that friggin kitchens close in bmore at 10:30 SHARP! So since the show started on time at 8pm, and we were out by 10:45 we just KNEW we were going to get to eat and eat good...NEGATIVE...but the upper deck carry out was good enough except for the bmore bama hanging out front...but again cool night
Saturday-the KIDS and the Homies
so saturday i get mad early son...lol
and go to a church to do a workshop for teenagers 13 & up and the little ones 6-12...
well i was the first session and it was for the teens...put it to you like this ONLY 3 students showed up for the last 10 mins of the sesssion it was cool i made the best of it and rolled out...i had to be back at 1 for the little ones, got back the early session running over so by the time i get them i have 30 mins...these kids were HUNGRY and tired so me trying to keep their attention was pointless..i tried but it didn't end well...LOL lesson: give me the teenagers!
i did some mroe running around before i cleaned the house and then got rerady to have dinner with my homeboy CL...me and him go WAY back to high school and i hadn't seen him in a few years so it was nice to just go out have a meal and that be it and that be all...we laughed and joked and just had a plain old GREAT time...left there went to VA to hang out with my NC folk...good times, cards, talking smack and we eventually ended up on U Street at the new spot Next Door...i didn't get home to 4:30am...and it was all just good fun...no pressure no drama no nothing just fun!
Sunday-showers and cooking out
so my ls' bridal shower was sunday...that was so much fun...its always good to see someone who is truly happy and ready to take that step in her (or his) life to be fully committed...it was off to the parents and to the store...then i got a surprise call from sweet nee talking about a cookout...so i went over there...hung out ate some crabs and once again talked smack...ended off the night with going back to U street to see kc sing...saw some old faces and hung
Monday-lunchtime soloist
since it was my day OFF i slept in and worked out...i did have to do a call for work but that ended early...so i chilled until my momma came over for lunch and to go see the soloist...good times...she was even rocking to Anthony David talking about "i can listen to this" i just couldn't help but laugh becuase she NEVER likes my music unless i am bumpin the ole school stuff...well i wouldn't say NEVER but there have been enough times where she is like "what is this mess" she was even gangsta leaning in my truck...didn't even move the seat back up...CLASSIC...i love her!
the movie was HEAVY i mean HEAVY...very indie...i haven't read the book but the movie just i don't know how to put it into words...it ended realisitcally and having someone in my family with mental health issues it did help me to understand a little better...
overall the weekend was basically one of the BEST weekends i have had in a LONG time...i was around GREAT people, intelligent, kind, funny, honest, wonderfully good people all weekend...and that's what life is about surrounding yourself with the BEST that there is, only person missin was lil PC my cuzzo...this is what life is all about learning loving growing into the best you...this weekend i saw a glisp of my best me and i LOVED it!
man oh man did I have a GREAT weekend...
started with me getting of a 1/2 day on friday and having monday OFF...yep that alone will give you cause to be like bump it imma have me some fun...THEN you add on top of that GREAT weather...now mind you i don't like heat can't stand heat but not even the heat could get me in a funky mood it was just going to be a good weekend...
i was (and still am) feeling like myself so why not go ahead and make some things happen some good old fashion clean fun!
Friday -INDIE SOUL
got off went to the crib did some errands and things...got myself together and headed up to bmore to hang out with Lady P...we went to see the gentlemen that you see listed to your left under "what's rocking" the show was AMAZING...it was unique in that all of the artist...Angela Johnson, Anthony David and Eric Roberson rotated their performances...each would do a 2-3 songs and then bring out the other artist and sometimes they would sing songs that they had collaborated on...it was a PARTY! I was glad that the both of us decided to go dressed "down" and very "hip hop" because we had to stand the entire time...but like i said it was worth it...truly had a blast...the only issue i had was that friggin kitchens close in bmore at 10:30 SHARP! So since the show started on time at 8pm, and we were out by 10:45 we just KNEW we were going to get to eat and eat good...NEGATIVE...but the upper deck carry out was good enough except for the bmore bama hanging out front...but again cool night
Saturday-the KIDS and the Homies
so saturday i get mad early son...lol
and go to a church to do a workshop for teenagers 13 & up and the little ones 6-12...
well i was the first session and it was for the teens...put it to you like this ONLY 3 students showed up for the last 10 mins of the sesssion it was cool i made the best of it and rolled out...i had to be back at 1 for the little ones, got back the early session running over so by the time i get them i have 30 mins...these kids were HUNGRY and tired so me trying to keep their attention was pointless..i tried but it didn't end well...LOL lesson: give me the teenagers!
i did some mroe running around before i cleaned the house and then got rerady to have dinner with my homeboy CL...me and him go WAY back to high school and i hadn't seen him in a few years so it was nice to just go out have a meal and that be it and that be all...we laughed and joked and just had a plain old GREAT time...left there went to VA to hang out with my NC folk...good times, cards, talking smack and we eventually ended up on U Street at the new spot Next Door...i didn't get home to 4:30am...and it was all just good fun...no pressure no drama no nothing just fun!
Sunday-showers and cooking out
so my ls' bridal shower was sunday...that was so much fun...its always good to see someone who is truly happy and ready to take that step in her (or his) life to be fully committed...it was off to the parents and to the store...then i got a surprise call from sweet nee talking about a cookout...so i went over there...hung out ate some crabs and once again talked smack...ended off the night with going back to U street to see kc sing...saw some old faces and hung
Monday-lunchtime soloist
since it was my day OFF i slept in and worked out...i did have to do a call for work but that ended early...so i chilled until my momma came over for lunch and to go see the soloist...good times...she was even rocking to Anthony David talking about "i can listen to this" i just couldn't help but laugh becuase she NEVER likes my music unless i am bumpin the ole school stuff...well i wouldn't say NEVER but there have been enough times where she is like "what is this mess" she was even gangsta leaning in my truck...didn't even move the seat back up...CLASSIC...i love her!
the movie was HEAVY i mean HEAVY...very indie...i haven't read the book but the movie just i don't know how to put it into words...it ended realisitcally and having someone in my family with mental health issues it did help me to understand a little better...
overall the weekend was basically one of the BEST weekends i have had in a LONG time...i was around GREAT people, intelligent, kind, funny, honest, wonderfully good people all weekend...and that's what life is about surrounding yourself with the BEST that there is, only person missin was lil PC my cuzzo...this is what life is all about learning loving growing into the best you...this weekend i saw a glisp of my best me and i LOVED it!
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
repost of sorts
being humble doesn't mean you think less of yourself it just means you think of yourself less...humility will allow you to be open to change for the BETTER which leads to GREATNESS!
pretty much i was feeling really down yesterday
i tend to let what others feel and think dictate how i feel and carry things WAY to much
i try not to, but when someone close to you isn't "hearing" you and what you are trying to convey and kinda just ignores what you are saying as if your feelings aren't valid its hard...
i have truly gotten better but i also know that there is always room to grow...because people's actions are just that THEIR actions and i can't let it dictate MY actions or reactions...i can't allow it to take me out of where i have come so far to, and that's someone who wants to think before she speaks...who is quick to listen and slow to speak...still working on it, but working none the less....
that's why i am trying my best to be OPEN to what others in fact have to say about me..
i had a very humbling conversation with my cousin last night, who although younger, i can't consider to be my "little" cousin not with her being 24...i have always been the protector so its hard NOT to protect...it wasn't has hard as i think that she thought it would be for me to listen to other things that she had been wanting to tell me...including that she thinks i am stepping out and allowing myself to be open to new possibilities but that i have a "mean face" people will "never approach (me) because i have such a face that says i am mean and not how cool and chill and fun and lovable i am..."
honestly not the first time i have heard that...but hey you know i guess that's just my "guard" as she called it...
i think that she was a little "shocked" that i was so receptive but honestly i do take heed to what people have to say and i listen and take the positive from it to grow to be the better me...i am NOT perfect or got it going on so much that i can't listen to someone who i know loves me feels about certain things that i do that may hurt her feelings or things that she feels like may hurt me, i inturn was also able to explain some things to her to help her gain some knowledge herself and some things that may or may not hurt my feelings....it was good...
i ended the conversation with "i understand we both have very strong opinions and sometimes those opionions can come off as judgemental even if that's not the intent so we just need to be mindful of that" she agreed and that was that...
neither one of us ever mean to be mean to each other or hurt each other but the truth is that sometimes the things we say and do can in fact hurt another person...so you gotta be mindful and know the difference between intent and impact
i know one thing is for sure i definitely do NOT and will NOT be one of those people who you can't tell how you really feel too...i will always try my best to be fully open to what others have to say and humble myself to their views so that i can GROW...especially those I KNOW have my best interest at heart and see me fully for who i am and not just glimpses here and there...
enough with that...
in general i am definitely feeling more like my peaceful self today...
my first propoal/application.mini grant was awarded! whoooohooo...
about to submit my first membership report, its an update of sorts...but still excited about it...hopefully that will be done and out the door by 5:30
then its off to work out...no matter what working out always makes me feel better...it truly does help me release all the tension from the day...
i am still not perfect, nor do i ever think i will be, but i am truly perfect in my imperfections and open to all the positive vibes that true loving GROWTH has to offer...
pretty much i was feeling really down yesterday
i tend to let what others feel and think dictate how i feel and carry things WAY to much
i try not to, but when someone close to you isn't "hearing" you and what you are trying to convey and kinda just ignores what you are saying as if your feelings aren't valid its hard...
i have truly gotten better but i also know that there is always room to grow...because people's actions are just that THEIR actions and i can't let it dictate MY actions or reactions...i can't allow it to take me out of where i have come so far to, and that's someone who wants to think before she speaks...who is quick to listen and slow to speak...still working on it, but working none the less....
that's why i am trying my best to be OPEN to what others in fact have to say about me..
i had a very humbling conversation with my cousin last night, who although younger, i can't consider to be my "little" cousin not with her being 24...i have always been the protector so its hard NOT to protect...it wasn't has hard as i think that she thought it would be for me to listen to other things that she had been wanting to tell me...including that she thinks i am stepping out and allowing myself to be open to new possibilities but that i have a "mean face" people will "never approach (me) because i have such a face that says i am mean and not how cool and chill and fun and lovable i am..."
honestly not the first time i have heard that...but hey you know i guess that's just my "guard" as she called it...
i think that she was a little "shocked" that i was so receptive but honestly i do take heed to what people have to say and i listen and take the positive from it to grow to be the better me...i am NOT perfect or got it going on so much that i can't listen to someone who i know loves me feels about certain things that i do that may hurt her feelings or things that she feels like may hurt me, i inturn was also able to explain some things to her to help her gain some knowledge herself and some things that may or may not hurt my feelings....it was good...
i ended the conversation with "i understand we both have very strong opinions and sometimes those opionions can come off as judgemental even if that's not the intent so we just need to be mindful of that" she agreed and that was that...
neither one of us ever mean to be mean to each other or hurt each other but the truth is that sometimes the things we say and do can in fact hurt another person...so you gotta be mindful and know the difference between intent and impact
i know one thing is for sure i definitely do NOT and will NOT be one of those people who you can't tell how you really feel too...i will always try my best to be fully open to what others have to say and humble myself to their views so that i can GROW...especially those I KNOW have my best interest at heart and see me fully for who i am and not just glimpses here and there...
enough with that...
in general i am definitely feeling more like my peaceful self today...
my first propoal/application.mini grant was awarded! whoooohooo...
about to submit my first membership report, its an update of sorts...but still excited about it...hopefully that will be done and out the door by 5:30
then its off to work out...no matter what working out always makes me feel better...it truly does help me release all the tension from the day...
i am still not perfect, nor do i ever think i will be, but i am truly perfect in my imperfections and open to all the positive vibes that true loving GROWTH has to offer...
Monday, April 20, 2009
today...
i am feeling uninspiredunmotivated
and i feel like i can't shake it
i am feeling tried
and repressed
like my spirit is some way in a depressed state of being that will not allow my soul to stop screaming
of injustice and lack of joy
for the peace in my soul that i live for
eludes me on this day
maybe its the rain
or is it the drain of the everyday mundane tasks of this life
i try to stretch and calm my being
but the reality that makes up today doesn't allow me to change the circumstances for which i am in
the normal flow of music through my veins can't even help me now
silence and a dark room are what i seek to find
so that solace can take over me as i shed my tears and find my way back to
ME
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
i wanna fly a kite
yep i want to go to a park on a nice sunny not to cold not to hot day and just fly a kite, swing on some swings...and walk around some water...
maybe take some fruit and sit and watch people (ya'll know i love to people watch) doesn't that sound like a good time...
well it does to me...
i guess i am focusing on the nice spring weather that's supposed to be coming our way...
i know that April showers bring May flowers but does it have to be so cold still...i mean mid-60s would be perfect right about now...
i love spring and fall...best time of the year to me the colors are GREAT
spring pastels
fall well fall colors...the crisp oranges and greens...
the air always seems fresher and clean...
i just really enjoy those times of year...so i want to get out and enjoy them!
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
let me vent
so i just got called a bitch...
yep a b-i-t-c-h...
its not like i haven't been called a bitch before because i have for various reasons i wouldn't talk to someone, or i didn't like what someone said to me so i spoke my mind...someone just last week called playing on my house phone from a private number and called me a bitch...whatever...
but never in my life has someone called me a bitch because i had an opinion on something
so there was this "question of the day" thing on facebook by this dude i was pretty aiight with in high school...he is always asking random questions about love, sex, relationships...that type of thing...
so his question today was: why are women so emotional and why do men change after they get the sex...
so i was reading the responses and one person said women are made that way and men once they get what they want move on...so i asked the question of:
why/what makes men not o wait at LEAST 90 days (that's been the common thread topic lately right) to have sex with a woman?
or something to that affect...
and i asked you know some supporting questions to go along with it but you get the gest...
so when he responds to me he says: TC...((bitch))....
and gives his response...
dude i can't even tell you what the rest of it said basically something along the lines that i was trippin men won't wait that long whatever...
initially i was like he couldn't possibly be calling me that because i have an opinion but i realized DUDE just called me a bitch...
why because i aint no jumpoff
why because i have standards and believe that you can't just be throwing it all around...
why because i love me and respect me....
dude no BOY BYE...
so i went through the whole am i gonna call this dude out, send him a message what...but nope...i deleted my response and went to my "friends" list and deleted that bama!
period the end!
i am not even going to entertain or associate myself with someone who has no respect...period!
people just really kill me these days with the lack of respect that they have...its like i can't even have an opinion imma bitch now...
so i am just like dude i am done!
DELETE
yep a b-i-t-c-h...
its not like i haven't been called a bitch before because i have for various reasons i wouldn't talk to someone, or i didn't like what someone said to me so i spoke my mind...someone just last week called playing on my house phone from a private number and called me a bitch...whatever...
but never in my life has someone called me a bitch because i had an opinion on something
so there was this "question of the day" thing on facebook by this dude i was pretty aiight with in high school...he is always asking random questions about love, sex, relationships...that type of thing...
so his question today was: why are women so emotional and why do men change after they get the sex...
so i was reading the responses and one person said women are made that way and men once they get what they want move on...so i asked the question of:
why/what makes men not o wait at LEAST 90 days (that's been the common thread topic lately right) to have sex with a woman?
or something to that affect...
and i asked you know some supporting questions to go along with it but you get the gest...
so when he responds to me he says: TC...((bitch))....
and gives his response...
dude i can't even tell you what the rest of it said basically something along the lines that i was trippin men won't wait that long whatever...
initially i was like he couldn't possibly be calling me that because i have an opinion but i realized DUDE just called me a bitch...
why because i aint no jumpoff
why because i have standards and believe that you can't just be throwing it all around...
why because i love me and respect me....
dude no BOY BYE...
so i went through the whole am i gonna call this dude out, send him a message what...but nope...i deleted my response and went to my "friends" list and deleted that bama!
period the end!
i am not even going to entertain or associate myself with someone who has no respect...period!
people just really kill me these days with the lack of respect that they have...its like i can't even have an opinion imma bitch now...
so i am just like dude i am done!
DELETE
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