i think jac said it once, i need to figure some things out in my own head...so i'll be back after while
stay up people
its all peace
Wednesday, August 08, 2007
mind trap
a lot has been going on so i need to take a break from blogging for a while...
i think jac said it once, i need to figure some things out in my own head...so i'll be back after while
i think jac said it once, i need to figure some things out in my own head...so i'll be back after while
Monday, August 06, 2007
how much are you willing to give up?
so in a relationship some things you have to give up...some things people request that are actually good for you...
like your partner may ask you to stop drinking or to stop smoking
your partner may ask you to grow your beard out or your hair out, or ask you to cut all of it off
what about what you wear or where you go or what you do...
like honestly how much are you willing to give up for "love"?
if someone really loves you they are going to accept you for who you are right?
like what about going out to the clubs and just hanging with the girls/fellas-what if your significant other has a serious issue with this because they feel like its just not safe, to much happens in the club, or its just to much temptation (that's a whole nother conversation though)...
for example, you stop drinking and smoking and partying becasue you feel like you are too old anyways and its just not healthy for you, you have BEEN saying you were going to give up such things BEFORE, but the one you love was that extra push...
OR about, Mary J and how her husband told her if she came home one more time drunk he was going to leave her because he couldn't stand it...that was for her benefit right?
so i ask how much are you all willing to give up? and how much is too much?
NOTE: this will be one of a few relationship blog entries to come, i am working on another "are there any good men/women left?" so stay tuned!
is that changing to much for a person? is that bending to much for a person?
like your partner may ask you to stop drinking or to stop smoking
your partner may ask you to grow your beard out or your hair out, or ask you to cut all of it off
what about what you wear or where you go or what you do...
like honestly how much are you willing to give up for "love"?
if someone really loves you they are going to accept you for who you are right?
like what about going out to the clubs and just hanging with the girls/fellas-what if your significant other has a serious issue with this because they feel like its just not safe, to much happens in the club, or its just to much temptation (that's a whole nother conversation though)...
for example, you stop drinking and smoking and partying becasue you feel like you are too old anyways and its just not healthy for you, you have BEEN saying you were going to give up such things BEFORE, but the one you love was that extra push...
OR about, Mary J and how her husband told her if she came home one more time drunk he was going to leave her because he couldn't stand it...that was for her benefit right?
so i ask how much are you all willing to give up? and how much is too much?
NOTE: this will be one of a few relationship blog entries to come, i am working on another "are there any good men/women left?" so stay tuned!
is that changing to much for a person? is that bending to much for a person?
new hair, new music
ok so i have a ton of work that i could be doing but i'd much rather blog...
(yea i know, in the car taking pics of myself at the light...i am too much....peep my sexy though)
couple of other things that happened this weekend was that i finally was able to purchase the two CD's that i have been dying for!
i so wanted the Chrisette and Common CD's but funds was funny so they had to wait...
so Saturday, after i saw the parents, and got my card (with some $) i went to the best buy to get them...and MAN let me tell you i LOVE them both!
i listened both of the CDs all the way through...that's hard to do now and days...i needed so new music...
having good music is like have good shoes-just certain things that i like NEED to keep my spirit up...and good music is truly one of those items...
another GREAT item to have to keep the spirits up is a good hair do...my gurl Poo hooked me up YET again...with my hair being all na-tu-ral now, its hard to figure out what to do with it, but she keeps coming up with cool ideas and thangs...
so check me out
(yea i know, in the car taking pics of myself at the light...i am too much....peep my sexy though)and finally your girl, looks cute today! ha! CLASSIC!
i know...but i got up and put on some slacks (that are really jeans), my long shirt dress and a white shirt some gold earrings, some gold shoes...hell i even did my makeup this morning...
sometimes you got to do that get your spirit a little make over...is my mind still running a thousand miles a minute YES...but hey i know in the end it'll all be aiight...
3 more years...
as i sat in my living room last night that's what i thought to myself...
"dude i have ONLY 3 more years until i'll be 30 years old!"
geesh that's NOT really that far off...like what i am i going to do with the next 3 years of my life? where do i want to be? what do i want to be doing? who do i want to be?
like there are so many thoughts running through my head right now...
professionally: of course i am satisfied in my current position, but NOT that satisfied that THIS is where i want to be in 3 years...i want to complete my project management certificate, i want to get my public health generalist graduate certificate from GW
personally: of course i would love to be married or at least planning a wedding...thinking that i would have a child by 30 is out i guess, but you never know, but 3 years doesn't seem like a long time especially when you really think about getting married and coming together with someone you know
financially: i would love to be out of debt, like really...truck paid off, credit cards, the whole nine. that will require some major sacrifices but you know it'll be worth it if i can get out...i would also LOVE to buy a condo and be a home owner before i am 30, hell i'd love to be one now, but previous financial mistakes and the past housing market wasn't going to allow for that, but now its a possibility
spiritually: i want to just keep growing, in mind, body and spirit! i have come alone way with my faith and my ability to remain faithful no matter what...and i want to continue that growth to the fullest you know...nothing like growing and building a relationship with GOD
confidence: finally i am feeling GREAT in my own skin, in my own decisions, in my own life, and i know that even when mistakes are made i will continue to grow into my own...
i have learned NOT to make a "life plan" but rather to set "goals" for myself...can't plan life out, seems to me that every time you do, you end up disappointed, but rather if you set goals and are open to the changes that life may bring, you tend to do better...at least that's how i see it...
man, only 3 years until 30, dude/dudets imma gettin up there, ya know...but hey the lady at the MAC counter thought that i was just turning 21, no seriously, HA!
"dude i have ONLY 3 more years until i'll be 30 years old!"
geesh that's NOT really that far off...like what i am i going to do with the next 3 years of my life? where do i want to be? what do i want to be doing? who do i want to be?
like there are so many thoughts running through my head right now...
professionally: of course i am satisfied in my current position, but NOT that satisfied that THIS is where i want to be in 3 years...i want to complete my project management certificate, i want to get my public health generalist graduate certificate from GW
personally: of course i would love to be married or at least planning a wedding...thinking that i would have a child by 30 is out i guess, but you never know, but 3 years doesn't seem like a long time especially when you really think about getting married and coming together with someone you know
financially: i would love to be out of debt, like really...truck paid off, credit cards, the whole nine. that will require some major sacrifices but you know it'll be worth it if i can get out...i would also LOVE to buy a condo and be a home owner before i am 30, hell i'd love to be one now, but previous financial mistakes and the past housing market wasn't going to allow for that, but now its a possibility
spiritually: i want to just keep growing, in mind, body and spirit! i have come alone way with my faith and my ability to remain faithful no matter what...and i want to continue that growth to the fullest you know...nothing like growing and building a relationship with GOD
confidence: finally i am feeling GREAT in my own skin, in my own decisions, in my own life, and i know that even when mistakes are made i will continue to grow into my own...
i have learned NOT to make a "life plan" but rather to set "goals" for myself...can't plan life out, seems to me that every time you do, you end up disappointed, but rather if you set goals and are open to the changes that life may bring, you tend to do better...at least that's how i see it...
man, only 3 years until 30, dude/dudets imma gettin up there, ya know...but hey the lady at the MAC counter thought that i was just turning 21, no seriously, HA!
Sunday, August 05, 2007
Fab U lous
can we say my birthday was OFF the HOOK!
i woke up and prayed and meditated at about 6am, giving thanks for GOD giving me another year of life...man I am 27, only 3 years until 30, time to really make some goals....but that's another blog for another day....
upon finishing my prayers, he calling telling me happy birthday! That was the first great gift...
i heard from the bestest and then my mommy...
i got up and ate some breakfast, went to the mall and found an outfit all by myself, will not really because i sent KC pictures of two different dresses (thank goodness for picture phones) but the accessories and all of that i did by myself!
NOTE: i seem to always be able to pick stuff out for others but never for myself...
then it was off to the spa (i specifically deceided that i was going to go to the mall before my spa treatment so that i would stay on task)
so i get a swedish whole body message, a deluxe pedicure and manicure...can we say peaceful! Aww man it wasn't enough time in the day...
after the spa, it was off to try to find a pair of jeans, and how about this the woman that can NEVER find jeans that fit me, found not ONE but TWO pairs of jeans in the GAP...
so my birthday so far, is just absolutely GREAT...but wait it gets better...
grab a salad and went home to iron my clothes for the evening because the ladies and I were going to dinner
but before i could go to dinner i had to go and get my "face" done at the MAC counter (hey why not, never had it done before)
so i am totally nervous and it turned out to be extremely beautiful!
so back to the house to get dressed...
the bestest was there waiting on me, and she helped me talk out my corn rows and make my hair fluffy anf full...
so we are dressed and off...
we meet the ladies at Kobe's in Largo and had a BALL you here me...a total BALL!!!
Games included....YES JCroft and KC organized the event, and JCroft brought games, and I loved it...
we laughed and joked and had so much fun....but this was just the beginning....
I tend to not like going out to much anymore (yes jCroft i know i suck, but hey what can I say, i don't party) but we decided to go to the Avenue...my brother's friend works the door, so not only did we get in for FREE but we didn't wait in line...AWESOME
we get inside and the DJ is actually pumping....needless to say we partied our little hearts out...it was such a WONDERFUL time....we partied back...i mean partied
my brithday was FAB U LOUS!!!
i had so much fun, i mean i haven't had a birthday like that in i don't know how long...there were a couple of times when things that were totally out of my control could have totally gotten to me, but i decided to totally practice what i preach and that is CHOSE MY ATTITUDE....
Friday was MY day, and I made the most of MY day, and the little things like the guy getting smart with me about my pedi or the people at the MAC counter being taken aback because the last appointment should have been for 5 and not 6, but that wasn't my problem, i patiently waited and let them figure it out and got my make up done....
so i learned a lesson, i already knew though, things you have no control don't stress, you can create your enviroment...and i was totally blessed and just appreciated that, and had the GREATEST time ever....
so to my ladies (yes that includes you Jai ) THANK YOU!!! Words cannot fully express how wonderful it feels to have sistah's such as yourselves...
ps pics to come
i woke up and prayed and meditated at about 6am, giving thanks for GOD giving me another year of life...man I am 27, only 3 years until 30, time to really make some goals....but that's another blog for another day....
upon finishing my prayers, he calling telling me happy birthday! That was the first great gift...
i heard from the bestest and then my mommy...
i got up and ate some breakfast, went to the mall and found an outfit all by myself, will not really because i sent KC pictures of two different dresses (thank goodness for picture phones) but the accessories and all of that i did by myself!
NOTE: i seem to always be able to pick stuff out for others but never for myself...
then it was off to the spa (i specifically deceided that i was going to go to the mall before my spa treatment so that i would stay on task)
so i get a swedish whole body message, a deluxe pedicure and manicure...can we say peaceful! Aww man it wasn't enough time in the day...
after the spa, it was off to try to find a pair of jeans, and how about this the woman that can NEVER find jeans that fit me, found not ONE but TWO pairs of jeans in the GAP...
so my birthday so far, is just absolutely GREAT...but wait it gets better...
grab a salad and went home to iron my clothes for the evening because the ladies and I were going to dinner
but before i could go to dinner i had to go and get my "face" done at the MAC counter (hey why not, never had it done before)
so i am totally nervous and it turned out to be extremely beautiful!
so back to the house to get dressed...
the bestest was there waiting on me, and she helped me talk out my corn rows and make my hair fluffy anf full...
so we are dressed and off...
we meet the ladies at Kobe's in Largo and had a BALL you here me...a total BALL!!!
Games included....YES JCroft and KC organized the event, and JCroft brought games, and I loved it...
we laughed and joked and had so much fun....but this was just the beginning....
I tend to not like going out to much anymore (yes jCroft i know i suck, but hey what can I say, i don't party) but we decided to go to the Avenue...my brother's friend works the door, so not only did we get in for FREE but we didn't wait in line...AWESOME
we get inside and the DJ is actually pumping....needless to say we partied our little hearts out...it was such a WONDERFUL time....we partied back...i mean partied
my brithday was FAB U LOUS!!!
i had so much fun, i mean i haven't had a birthday like that in i don't know how long...there were a couple of times when things that were totally out of my control could have totally gotten to me, but i decided to totally practice what i preach and that is CHOSE MY ATTITUDE....
Friday was MY day, and I made the most of MY day, and the little things like the guy getting smart with me about my pedi or the people at the MAC counter being taken aback because the last appointment should have been for 5 and not 6, but that wasn't my problem, i patiently waited and let them figure it out and got my make up done....
so i learned a lesson, i already knew though, things you have no control don't stress, you can create your enviroment...and i was totally blessed and just appreciated that, and had the GREATEST time ever....
so to my ladies (yes that includes you Jai ) THANK YOU!!! Words cannot fully express how wonderful it feels to have sistah's such as yourselves...
ps pics to come
Thursday, August 02, 2007
life
as quickly as it can begin, things can come to an end
but in the midst of the dispear i will bare no tears
because the cycle of life just continues to grow and flow
most people can't honestly say if they know or believe that a loved one has reached eternal peace
but i can say with confidence and love in my heart that i know you did
full of joy
full of wisdom
full of a reverance for nothing other than GOD and family
a man of my own heart
if i join with a man that is half the man that you are-then i will be truly BLESSED
a pillar of strength
a heart golden
so though my heart is sad
my mind full
i am at peace with the fact that you suffer no more
i love you now and forever
rest in peace Uncle Ollie
8-2-07
but in the midst of the dispear i will bare no tears
because the cycle of life just continues to grow and flow
most people can't honestly say if they know or believe that a loved one has reached eternal peace
but i can say with confidence and love in my heart that i know you did
full of joy
full of wisdom
full of a reverance for nothing other than GOD and family
a man of my own heart
if i join with a man that is half the man that you are-then i will be truly BLESSED
a pillar of strength
a heart golden
so though my heart is sad
my mind full
i am at peace with the fact that you suffer no more
i love you now and forever
rest in peace Uncle Ollie
8-2-07
Wednesday, August 01, 2007
what it do...
today's post is pretty much about nothing...
nothing at all, nothing in particular...
ok, so i got back from the Chi late last night, and had a pretty chill morning, i didn't have to be downtown until 9:30, and on my way into the office for an 11am meeting i did a little window shopping...so needless to say i am in a pretty pleasant mood...
in fact i had a fijita and some sorbet for lunch! totally being a "fat gurl" and am totally ok with it, ALTHOUGH my new diet and exercise plan was supposed to start TODAY...well at least i'll hit up the gym, that's if he doesn't fly in tonight! yes he might just fly in tonight, but we'll see, not getting my hopes up because you never know, but regardless he'll be here on sunday...
he said the sweetest thing this morning, but i'll keep it to myself....
my uncle is stable! yes GOD is GREAT! and my mommy is on her way back home!
my daddy is up and about today as well...
you know i am tired as hell...i mean tired as hell...maybe i'll leave at like 4pm today, because man i need a nap before i pick mommy up OR see my honey...
dude, can we say, i am actually happy in a relationship, EVEN though he gets on my ever lasting nerves...seems like we have been a lot closer since he has been gone...
my ladies are planning an eventful bDay for me! that will be GrEAT....i know that it'll be a ME day because imma do that, ME! can we say SPA day! HELLO!
Life is always life...just wanted to touch base with you all...
i have some thoughts floating around in my little heaad and will get to you all soon on some stuff you know
faith
love
dog fighting
Common's new CD
books...
oh and my birthday!
so i'll holla!
UPDATE:
he is HERE!!! can we say HAPPY! he flies right back out tomorrow night after he takes care of some bidness stuff, but imma see my baby tonight...happy early bDay gift...he was on his way the ENTIRE time! awwwwwwww
nothing at all, nothing in particular...
ok, so i got back from the Chi late last night, and had a pretty chill morning, i didn't have to be downtown until 9:30, and on my way into the office for an 11am meeting i did a little window shopping...so needless to say i am in a pretty pleasant mood...
in fact i had a fijita and some sorbet for lunch! totally being a "fat gurl" and am totally ok with it, ALTHOUGH my new diet and exercise plan was supposed to start TODAY...well at least i'll hit up the gym, that's if he doesn't fly in tonight! yes he might just fly in tonight, but we'll see, not getting my hopes up because you never know, but regardless he'll be here on sunday...
he said the sweetest thing this morning, but i'll keep it to myself....
my uncle is stable! yes GOD is GREAT! and my mommy is on her way back home!
my daddy is up and about today as well...
you know i am tired as hell...i mean tired as hell...maybe i'll leave at like 4pm today, because man i need a nap before i pick mommy up OR see my honey...
dude, can we say, i am actually happy in a relationship, EVEN though he gets on my ever lasting nerves...seems like we have been a lot closer since he has been gone...
my ladies are planning an eventful bDay for me! that will be GrEAT....i know that it'll be a ME day because imma do that, ME! can we say SPA day! HELLO!
Life is always life...just wanted to touch base with you all...
i have some thoughts floating around in my little heaad and will get to you all soon on some stuff you know
faith
love
dog fighting
Common's new CD
books...
oh and my birthday!
so i'll holla!
UPDATE:
he is HERE!!! can we say HAPPY! he flies right back out tomorrow night after he takes care of some bidness stuff, but imma see my baby tonight...happy early bDay gift...he was on his way the ENTIRE time! awwwwwwww
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