Tag your it!

Thanks to honey-libra I've been tagged (since i went past and saw her blog first thing this am, and would have been like #5 to comment). I haven't done one of these in forever so here we go...

Rules: 1. We have to post these rules before we give you the facts. 2. Players start with eight random facts/habits about themselves. 3. People who are tagged need to write their own blog about their eight things and post these rules. 4. At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names. 5. Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged, and to read your blog.

1. i secretly want to be bald...like seriously, i totally wish that i was brave enough to just go to the shop and just tell them "cut it all off already!" one day i promise, when i am older and really don't give a flying fart, imma do it!

2. i like watching hockey...other than football that's the ONLY sport that can keep my interest ON tv...I'll GO to a basketball game, and even want to go and see how baseball is...but watching on tv, forget it!

3. i don't wear makeup unless its a real special occasion, i am not one of those woman that goes to work all done up, can't stand it...sometimes i leave out the house without even having on lip gloss and most times when i do put it on, i look even lighter than i am...i can't apply makeup to save my life...but when its professionally done it looks good...

4. i can't eat anything dairy...NOTHING, no milk, no cheese, no nothing! So i order pizza with NO CHEESE! Yes i honestly order pizza with NO CHEESE...and if i go out, i am constantly asking what does this "sauce" have in it..
SIDE NOTE: best experience PS7 downtown...GREAT service, even so much that the manager brought out every portion of the meal and explained how they had changed it to be non-dairy

5. one of my favorite things to do is to go downtown and walk around the FDR Memorial area...something about that area that makes me feel so peaceful....i also like to do geeky stuff like go to museums and do tourist stuff...

6. i have a bad habit of staring about people...like that's all i do, he actually thinks i flirt because i stare at people...like i'll lock in on you and look you up and down, and up and down, and make a face....my BF said imma get beat up one day doing that...HA!

7. i am a serious greedy gus! i love to eat! i love good food! if you want to make me happy, feed me...HOWEVER, even though my momma is from Alabama and can cook her butt off, I can't...yep, as much as i love to eat, i can't cook most traditional "soul food" meals...i don't fry foods, none of that...now don't get me wrong i can bake and broil my butt off, but the art of frying and grilling....naw...

8. i don't have curtains up in my house or pictures hung or mirrors hung...now don't get me wrong the apartment is decorated nicely, HOWEVER, i have YET to hang stuff up...i have like 1 picture up and a couple of wall decorations, but that's it! i have bought pictures, mirrors, curtains, rods, all of that...just never hung the stuff up...i think the reason is that deep down inside, although its my first place, i don't want to make it so that that's it...so i keep it so its like ok, this is home, but its not HOME...let's keep reaching for better, let's not get to comfortable here...

ok so that's me...some stuff people may have known, some stuff you may not have....

i tag:
deja_i_am
c._.j
kc
it is what it is
danger
dc_speaks
ci
MikeSee

and if anyone else wants to do this PLEASE do so and let me know....
Hopefully you guys will participate!

weekend rewind

so the weekend didn't end up exactly as i expected but it was still cool...

Friday

took out the weave and relaxed

Saturday

got up went to the hair dressers was in there all morning, but the new look came out cute...

he got sick from some food, so NO Balitmore festival....

so I went to see the parents and from there I went home and chilled until it is what it is came over with lil mama...we hung out for a while and that was that...

Sunday

spent the morning with him...it was nice (we actually had been having some really deep connecting type conversations) so we talked and hung out and then I hooked up with my god-sons and their mother (she called and asked me to go with them to the splash park) and I did...i haven't spent as much time with them, so it was a good look for me to bond with them...

Last night i had a nightmare and it resulted in me waking in a panic and THUS having a panic attack...that turned into an astma attack...it was totally scary, I haven't had a panic attack in YEARS...but i prayed and got through it...

Today

just found out that he may be gone longer than initally anticipated...but its what 46 days...that's nothing...you go and do what you got to do and i'll continue to support you...that's how I honestly feel about it...

here is the another view of the look

yea i guess you can say I am gonna "party like a rock star-totally dude"

rAndomneSS (VII)

why am i constantly friggin tired- i was in the bed at 9:30 last night and woke up this morning my entire back was throbbing...

YES you still do get on my nerves, as I am more than sure that i get on yours...and I wonder sometimes to since you seem to always ask me "how do you put up with me?" hell if I know...but truth be told, with your crazy ways and all, i actually really like you (ok yes its more than like)

hell truth be told you make me smile, inside out...through the good, the bad, and the ugly...

YES i can't wait to go out tomorrow and to actually cook on Sunday...

Bible study tonight! YES! I can't wait seems like forever...so this will be good for me...just what i need some filling up of the soul...

i can't wait to take this weave out! tomorrow i WILL be at the salon BEFORE 9am...mohawk here I come..YES i am getting a mohawk and it shall be FAB-U-LOUS...

why did i feel the need to tell you last night, "babe, you know i am taking my weave out right?" and to my surprise you were like "ok...." i don't know i guess because i KNOW that you actually like the weave, so i was a little nervous...

geesh why does being a girl suck, always wanna make sure you are too cute...

and i will be too cute tomorrow when we go to the Caribbean Festival in baltimore...that will be cute...

going to Chicago on the 30th for work, me and the ED, excited about that, i am doing well being asked to represent the company and thangs...

my daddy said he wasn't feeling well, but didn't want to tell my mother because "she has enough on her right now" well i told her anyways...she needs to know what is wrong with him...parents man! sometimes i feel like i am his...

my mother is the GREATEST! strongest woman i know, my best friend...my everything, i lover her dearly, and bet nobody say anything bad about my momma, OR it will be ON...

my brother, *shaking my head* never mind

i miss my Li...she needs to come back to visit or i guess i need to take a trip to Houston...but i miss my Li...the older sister i never had, my sister from another mother...

ok, ok, my birthday is in what 3 weeks now...i know i won't be at work, but what shall i do...

maybe a nice peaceful day, a me day...it is MY national holiday...we shall see...

Harry Potter is out...you KNOW i gots to go and see that...next week after work sometime, still need to see Transformers...maybe we'll do that on Sunday...

oh how i can't wait to be in the hair salon tomorrow morning, nothing like it...just me and the ladies talking trash, being loud and gettin fly!

i am still coming to the A, just couldn't do it after convention, but deep, jus, and ci, i WILL be there in August when my line sisters baby is born! So watch out there now...

ok i think i have mind dumped enough...got a meeting

oh and i have offically started my diet plan...yea me...

Have a GREAT weekend and stay up people...

Peace

Inspired...

you know in life a lot of time, things are just coming at you

people on your job getting on you nerves OR you may not have a job OR you may have a degree and can't find a job that meets your qualifications...your kids, you man/woman ain't coming home at night OR simply you aren't getting along OR they may not be meeting what you feel you truly NEED out of the relationship...bills might be past due, you might only have $122 to last you until the 22nd (payday)...the news might just get you down...HELL life, can just get to you...but never forget to stop trying! NEVER stop trying

no matter what people, just keep trying...

Life is a Beautiful Struggle

you know what (fellas this is for the ladies)

i just wish my friggin cycle would start already....all of this ovulation and the like is for the BIRDS! now come on dag on it and get it over with...

my back hurts, my stomach hurts, my friggin side is cramping...

i think imma have to take my butt back to the doctor's and get another pill or something...

here's the deal, I HAVE to be on something because i need to have my hormones regulated...HOWEVER this friggin pill, which is supposed to be higher in dose than the last one i had but seems to be doing nothing for my physical issues that come with being a woman, ME, this time of the month...

i must say however that i am not as emotional as i was LAST month...so that's a plus, but geesh...now don't get me wrong there is still PLENTY that is going on, but last month i was hella sensitive you know...

anyways...

so in short my cycle is getting on my last friggin nerves...

i just needed to get that out...

I think....

I think to much...

a lot of times I can't get my mind to shut the hell up, and most times I really need it to, so I can hear GOD speaking to me...I mean really

For example I was off of work from Tuesday at 2pm until this morning, and I am just as tired as I was when I left Tuesday at 2!


Why I didn't really sleep...my mind was running all the time, well until last night-but we'll get to that part....

I don't know I just think an aweful lot about a lot to things that mostly I can't control...

I am a day dreamer and wishing is something I do best...but its not helpful, so lately I have been trying to be a realist...

This weekend, was pretty much uneventful, cookout on the 4th, birthday get together on the 6th, a long conversation on the 7th and some good seafood last night at a dinner party...

but last night i was finally able to get some rest, a lot that has been bothering, I had cried about earlier in the day, and I mean I cried...

but as the tears began to dry up I had a moment of clarity

one of those moments that makes everything come together, one of those moments when you realize that sometimes it really isn't about you and has nothing to do with YOU, sometimes you just have to step aside, pray about it and let GOD and time do their thang....

so I feel jac today, I feel jus today...I feel blu today...

I feel all of my sistah's out here searching for that ONE thing that has your heart longing....

it maybe a job, it maybe more money, it maybe a relationship, it maybe to fix a broken heart, it maybe just getting away from the drama...

whatever it maybe, just stay focused, stay faithful and stay fighting for that inner peace...

I am finally working my way back to that inner peace...all my life i have had to work for and fight for what I wanted, and right now all I want is peace and so Imma get mines!

With the guidence and grace of GOD I know Imma get mines...I may not can see all that I want in front of my face, but a change is gonna come (as the old folk say) and when it does, Imma be ready...until then Imma go and sit and be silent and let GOD move....

Psalms 37:7
Hebrews 11:1

Stay up my people! Stay up!

rAndomneSS (VI)

The brain....can be a very interesting thingi took a test and my brain is blue

just like the heart, sometimes you can't help how you feel, sometimes you can't help what you think?
pish posh...

I think its all a choice, ya feel me?

Everything in this life is a choice
including love and who you love and how you love...

everything in life is a choice, so you know we need to stop and be real about that...
we choose if we are going to have a good day or a bad day-a good attitude or be pissy
happy or sad, that's all our choice you feel me..


so today i have to make a choice, I am tired, coming off a National Convention I am rather tired, starting to feel a little sick, but hey my work week is ONLY two days...

the sun is shining, its not to hot not to cold....supposed to be like this all week...that's a bet...that means i'll be actually out on the 4th at the cookouts and thangs

e's mix is crancking

"i gotta love jones for your body and skin tone.....valentine's cards and birthday wishes, please....we above all that romance crap to show love...you're all i need to get by"

so Convention was good...it went extremely well, so all the hard work wasn't for nothing...that's what's up...

definitely time for a new look, hair that is...i want to get a press and curl, but being that i am on a mission to lose about 10 pounds before my birthday which is August 3rd, I don't know if that'll be a good look for me...but paying for another weave or braids doesn't make sense, since I'll be getting my hair done FOR my birthday

why does hair matter so much?

i don't know i guess since i have ALWAYS had my hair done, via Ma...its just a habit

plus you can't be walking around looking all crazy...

yea you are on my LIST and not the list you would want to be on, but its cool...im totally not going to stress about it, with all things I take it to the LORD in prayer because LAWD knows I can't let you or anyone else drive me crazy, came to far for that mess...not worth it, especially since I KNOW I am worth so much more and dserve the very best...and I can work with you, cause LAWD knows I am NOT perfect and I too have flaws, but geezie peezie...WTH...

anyways....not that deep, life goes on...

i don't think people realize how draining they can truly be, but then again, when you are a spoiled brat, you tend NOT to care that you are draining...HA!

so yea like i only work today and tomorrow, how sweet is that! I actually need to do some actual work, ok ok, i'll do it tomorrow...

"I'd rather be with you...you know deep down inside I love you...we gonna make this time, you're the only one i really love, im coming at you with both hands tied behind my back, imma stick my love in your eye, you can see me cumin..." HA! Bootsie Collins was OFF the HOOK

i am definitely going to bestbuy today to get Chrisette Michelle's CD...she is totally AWESOME!
"one day we'll make love, passion unheard of, i'll be your woman, if I had my way...we will see heaven...we won't stop ever...if I had my way...."

.....WHAT you get it!

I mean really we don't have good music anymore...but this right here, that's that REAL right there.....

Ok so why am I listening to Al B Sure...you know what...that's what Imma end with...

"oooohhhhh this love is so..."