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ok so i am no longer emotional, but i will say this...i HATE my cycle....i hate it i hate it i hate it...
i got sick as a dog this month...uggggg

have i said that i am blessed lately....well i am!

my parents are the GREATEST parents in the world and i love them dearly...
my Madea hit a cow the other day, totalled her car and walked away from it...
GOD is GREAT!
if you don't know you betta ask somebody...

let's see a few of my girls are either getting married, having babies, or growing to be IN love...that's a GREAT thing...

well what about me, you maybe asking??? some things i would rather keep to myself...

oh, he quit his job this week, wants to go back to graduate school full time...
how do i feel? GREAT! Do what you gotta do, is the way i look at it...his schedule was such that he couldn't possible go to school and be a Jr. Executive...wasn't possible...to much travel, to many long hours...so I say go for it! you like it i love it...as long as you are happy...i am happy...
i am actually rather proud of you for not letting money dictate your life, but rather going after your dreams and goals...so my hat goes off to you...if you ain't worried about getting by then im not either....

my job is the GREATEST learning so much but loving it too...

my hair is a mess, my toes/nails need to be done some kind of bad...can we say ME day on Saturday!!!! yes...we sure can!

well i gotta get some work done....

as you can see nothing that BIG going on in my life...everything is everything...

I'll leave you with this:

The most important day

This is the most important day in your life. Because this is the day that you are now living.
If your life is headed in an undesirable direction, this is the day you can change it. If there are dreams you are longing to fulfill, this is the day you can follow them.

This day, right now, is the day when you can put to use all the knowledge, experience and wisdom you've accumulated. On this very day, you can do the things you've been meaning to do and connect with the people you've been meaning to see.

On this day, you have a world full of choices. On this day, there are more possibilities than ever before.

Of all the days you've ever lived, and of all the days to come, this is the one special day that now matters the most. For it is on this very day that you can now think and speak and act and love and live.

Give yourself a quiet, peaceful moment, and grasp the immense value that is now yours on this very day. Then step forward and fill it with beautiful life.
-- Ralph Marston

emotional...

ok so today i am extremely emotional...

yes i am emotional...i am sensitive, all over the place and things that wouldn't normally bother me are getting to me, slowly but surely...

i am not the type of woman that tends to have PMS or PMDD bad...but man i have it today...JCroft has written about this...so i know others that experience it, and man am i experiencing it today...

and what makes it worse is that HE has quit the little attitude, now don't take me for my word about this, because it might again be because i am emotional...but i hadn't talked to him all firggin day and he calls only to say HI and to let me know that he was at the new facility today and will be there for a while and he has a LOT of work to do...

so i immediately go into my supportive GF role and say "you'll get through it and i will support you, and i am here for you...." you know the whole, I am here for you, will hold you down spill...its not really a spill, its the truth, but even in my emotional state, i dug down deep and pulled it out of me, just so that i could be there for him, because i can tell he is drained and stressed well he doesn't say anything in return...and that was basically the end of the conversation...dude you could have at least said "thank you, momma/baby" something....

ok, how about i don't feel like talking to you and your raggedy butt no time soon...sure you sound stress and maybe that's a given, but just last week you appreciated me and know what you have and today you can't even say THANK YOU....

go kick rocks....

so see as you all can tell i am a tad bit emotional...the dude has been at work since 5am and probably been busting his butt, but i don't care all i care about is the fact that i was being supportive and he didn't care...

in the grander scheme of things this doesn't even matter...but today with my head, neck, back and stomach hurting....with my emotions being all over the place, today was not the day for his little pissy attitude...today is MY day for a pissy attitude....

and you know what imma keep it....so there!

200

so as of today i am past 200 posts (this marks 201) wow....BIG accomplishment right...

i don't know what exactly i want to do, i for dag on sure am not going to list out 200 thoughts or things about me like i did for the 100 post...

i think i'll do something big for my First blog Birthday....that's this month too...

so wow in less than i year i have posted 200 items...all about something that was going on in my life, something i was feeling, or something that i had seen or heard or something...

just something about my life...

i came to blog world through Mikesee, he put me on...he has been bloggin for a couple of years and i would just follow his life through his blog and comment...then last year i decided that i wanted to start expressing myself...

i found that this place has afforded me a release, i can say what i want when i want in MY HOUSE...its such a pure feeling to just get things off my chest...sometimes the things make sense, sometimes they don't...i tend to just write what comes to my mind and makes me happy or feel better...just because that's what I want to do...

i have also found quit a few kindred spirits in blog world...women and men, who are really grounded, there is even a sisterhood of bloggers...and that my friends has been the BEST

so today i sit back and reflect and I am totally glad that I was able to find a place of release and thus peace through my blog...

so happy 200 t.c.

I choose you....

don't know why but i LOVE this song...

its not the most politically correct and let's face it its NOT all that positive for women...its about pimpin for goodness sake...or leaving pimpin behind or not understanding how someone can leave pimpin behind or continuing to be pimpin....

but let me be real, the hook ROCKS and I like this song...


so what ya think? you can't tell me this doesn't rock

justice for all OR the whole system's corrupt

now mind you i went to school to become a lawyer that's what i wanted to do, make a difference in society by making sure that we achieved the GREAT "Justice for ALL" thing...

well as i went off to college and realized that, that wasn't going to happen, and graduated and started working 10-12 hour days at a law firm, i realized that wasn't what i really wanted to do...but really it is stuff like the crap i read this morning that really makes me sick to my stomach and glad that i work in the non-profit would to make the world a better place...

sure as you go through life, its expected that your goals and aspirations would change, but a lot of times, you may wonder if you were right in your shift or your change...

well CRAP like this,

Paris Hilton is released from jail after only serving 3 of her 23 day sentence...

you mean to tell me this heifer couldn't even do a REDUCED sentence and now gets to chill at home for 40 days and make money off of her "terrifying experience" in jail...

...this mess makes me sick!

reaffirms my determination that the system does not work for the betterment of ALL individuals but works "better" for those who have that cream, the almighty green, the dollar....UNLESS you would be a "good example" to make people know that certain folks aren't above the law, ie Lil Kim.....

this might also be hitting home for me because the dude that broke into my house, remember that, is up for sentencing tomorrow and will more than likely get a fairly liberal sentence because he will be in front of a fairly liberal judge...

now don't get me wrong, I think that we don't spend enough money in crime prevention (such as after school programs and education) and rehabilitation (i believe that we should have never stopped letting criminals be rehabilitated-how about we could really stop the revolving prison door if we really wanted to)

so i guess that's what pisses me off even more, star's like this brat get a brake, and everyday citizens don't....she could give a flying fart in space, she is going to keep right on drinking and acting a fool because she feels like she is untouchable, and why shouldn't she...she basically got off....

and its not just her, if you got money, you get off...that's the message we are sending to the American public, our young people...

I know that this was a rant and it doesn't really go into detail and is all over the place, but i was pissed and needed to vent...so there...

appreciation....

have you ever have someone tell you how much they appreciate you and your relationship? like just sit and break stuff down about you that you never even thought that they recognized or realized...and then you realized you weren't crazy this person really does care about you the way that you thought...you weren't crazy your feelings aren't going unnoticed...

to have someone say to you:

I appreciate you, I recognize how wonderful you are, you have morals, values, you are strong and steadfast, you have a good work ethic at your job, in your relationship, your prarents should be proud of the way they raised you...i recognize what i have...

wow...that took my breathe away

the thing is, so much more was said, you poured out your soul for 30 minutes, and i must say that my heart my soul, my spirit is smiling...its souring right now...

thank you for appreciating me

make up, movies, rain, & babies...

yea i know that sounds really weird right???

but hey that was my weekend...

Friday

the wedding...it was lovely and full of love, but man was it crazy getting there...who knew being in a wedding took so much out of you? you got to do all kinds of running around and things...up to get my hair done, got to grab something to eat, get down to the house so that i can get my make up done and get dressed, take pictures then get in the limo for the ceremony....we actually did pretty good...we only ran about 30 mins late, 15 of those because of us, and the other because of the limo...the ceremony wasn't long, but man did it feel like it standing up there in those uncomfortable shoes...then more pictures and off to the reception (which was in the same location as the ceremony) and then YES food! and relief for my feet...dag on right i brought me some flip flops....

here is me at the reception (better quality photos to come-i took this with my phone):

Saturday

up cleaning the house and relaxing...it was date day for me and HIM so we went to lunch, hung out at a local outlet mall and went to see Spider Man 3 and watched the end of the Playoff game between Cleveland and Detroit...

i must admit it was a GREAT afternoon/evening...we had gotten into it, earlier in the week, HENCE the "I need to be silent" post, but we actually did a lot of talking on Friday and Saturday-and we both have a better understanding even more now...he and i have had our ups and downs but seems like we getter closer after the fall out, but i guess that's really how its "supposed" to be right???

you are supposed to learn from your mishaps/misunderstandings/mistakes and get stronger...so i learned a lot about me, him and us...and i think he did too...

Sunday

it was raining...bad...so it was a lazy day....until i had to go to my LS's baby shower...i was stuck in traffic for like 2 hours, but i finally made it...and it was wonderful...then i went home and chilled out...

it was truly a GREAT weekend...full of love and joy!

like i am tired and this week and weekend looks like it won't be any different...HE is going to Chi-town for a week and a half so I won't see him this weekend, but i have a graduation party and two baby showers to attend so i'll be plenty busy....

I hope that everyone has a wonderful week....i'll be back...

peace