So as I sat and listened to this song, tears began to run down my face (literally I can't control it)...not tears of pain or of sorrow but tears of joy...because I KNOW that Jehovah the LORD GOD has truly brought me far...
As I sit back and reflect on the year that was, I know that he has been putting me through the TEST but without the TEST there is no testimony (Miss Alisa) and as I sit and reflect and look and stay focused on the light at the end of the tunnel I know that HE is going to take me so much further than I could ever imagine...
My life is going to go places I could never have dreamed of and that's because GOD has forgiven me and loves me, continues to love me and help me to grow...
So with everything that is going on in the world, lies, wars, theft, sickness....
just hold on people...just hold on...
Be Blessed people...
Thursday, December 07, 2006
Runaway Love...
Ok, so here is the deal, I have been wanting to post about this video for a minute now.
I must say that I love this song, I love the imagery of the video, I love the lyrical content, but most importantly,
I LOVE what this song is talking about...
I am so glad that Ludacris decided to really talk about the issues that many of our young women, our children are dealing with on a day to day basis...
Day to day with deal with various issues and things, that make us feel like we need or want to "runaway" but there are people, there are children that deal with serious issues, and some that are not so "serious" but are issues to them just the same...
I had to deal with this last year, I had a young woman whose OWN father was sexually abusing her, and I had to report it and everything, but because she was sexually active (due mostly to the fact that her own father "turned her out" at 11 years old...just imagine what that does to a child's body...we as adults are addicted to sex and we have the rationale of what to do and not to do...a child's, a little girls body, man penis...)the case was dismissed...
so she actually ended up right back in the home, they made her tell them who reported them (her father and step mother) to the authorities, and I haven't been able to see or talk to her since she had to go back home...
Its really sad when events such as these happen...I remember calling my own father and crying like a baby because the thought of a man doing that to a child, let alone his OWN child just sickened me...
I say all of this to say, people pay attention, listen to the children around you and take heed to their problems...even if they aren't being sexually or physically abused, there may be some other issues going on in their lives...something as simple as low self-esteem can have detrimental affects on a young person...
so give back, talk to them, even if its just your little cousin, your little brother, niece or nephew OR if you do have kids, PLEASE pay attention and talk to your children...OUR children
I don't know what sparked this today, maybe it was this song....
Wake up people and let's look out for the NEXT generation...
Peace
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
Tally It Up and Title it..."My Fine Is..."
Okay so I got this BluJewel and thought it might be something fun to post. Feel free to use this on your own sites as I'm all for spreading love and humor.
By the way, you don't need to reveal what your "crimes" were; just how much they cost you.
Smoked weed EVER $10
Done acid $20
Ever had sex at church (you're going to hell) $25
Woke up in the morning and did not know the person who was next to you $40
Had sex with someone on MySpace $25
Had sex with a Blogger $30
Had sex for money $100
Ever had sex with a Puerto Rican $20
Vandalized something $20
Had sex on your parents' bed (just wrong) $100
Beat up someone $20
Been jumped $10
Crossed dressed (Halloween excluded) $10
Given money to stripper $25
Been in love with a stripper $20
Kissed some one who's name you didn't know $5
Hit on some one of the same sex while at work $15
Ever drive drunk $50
Ever got drunk at work, or went to work while still drunk $50
Used toys while having sex $30
Got drunk, passed and don't remember the night before $20
Went skinny dipping $15
Had sex in a pool $20
Kissed someone of the same sex $10
Had sex with someone of the same sex $20
Cheated on your significant other $10
Masturbated $10
Cheated on your significant other with their relative or close friend $20
Done oral $15
Got oral $10
Done / got oral in a car while it was moving $25
Stole something $10
Had sex with someone in jail $25
Made a nasty home video $15
Had a threesome $50
Had sex in the wild $20
Been in the same room while someone was having sex $25
Stole something worth over more than a hundred dollars $80
Had sex with someone 10 years older $20
Had sex with someone under 21 and you are over 27 $25
Been in love with two people or more at the same time $50
Said you love someone but didn't mean it $25
Went streaking $5
Went streaking in broad daylight $15
Been arrested $55
Spent time in jail $75
Peed in the pool $5
Played spin the bottle $10
Done something you regret $40
Had sex with your best friend $20
Had sex with someone you work with at work $25
Had anal sex $80
Lied to your mate $25
Lied to your mate about the sex being good $75
My TOTAL Fine is: $385
Ok so that's my total...what's yours...Blu said I need to get out more and party with her and some other folks...LOL
I think I am aiight with being on the low end of the scale though...
AGAIN you don't have to tell what your crimes are, just tell us your fines....
By the way, you don't need to reveal what your "crimes" were; just how much they cost you.
Smoked weed EVER $10
Done acid $20
Ever had sex at church (you're going to hell) $25
Woke up in the morning and did not know the person who was next to you $40
Had sex with someone on MySpace $25
Had sex with a Blogger $30
Had sex for money $100
Ever had sex with a Puerto Rican $20
Vandalized something $20
Had sex on your parents' bed (just wrong) $100
Beat up someone $20
Been jumped $10
Crossed dressed (Halloween excluded) $10
Given money to stripper $25
Been in love with a stripper $20
Kissed some one who's name you didn't know $5
Hit on some one of the same sex while at work $15
Ever drive drunk $50
Ever got drunk at work, or went to work while still drunk $50
Used toys while having sex $30
Got drunk, passed and don't remember the night before $20
Went skinny dipping $15
Had sex in a pool $20
Kissed someone of the same sex $10
Had sex with someone of the same sex $20
Cheated on your significant other $10
Masturbated $10
Cheated on your significant other with their relative or close friend $20
Done oral $15
Got oral $10
Done / got oral in a car while it was moving $25
Stole something $10
Had sex with someone in jail $25
Made a nasty home video $15
Had a threesome $50
Had sex in the wild $20
Been in the same room while someone was having sex $25
Stole something worth over more than a hundred dollars $80
Had sex with someone 10 years older $20
Had sex with someone under 21 and you are over 27 $25
Been in love with two people or more at the same time $50
Said you love someone but didn't mean it $25
Went streaking $5
Went streaking in broad daylight $15
Been arrested $55
Spent time in jail $75
Peed in the pool $5
Played spin the bottle $10
Done something you regret $40
Had sex with your best friend $20
Had sex with someone you work with at work $25
Had anal sex $80
Lied to your mate $25
Lied to your mate about the sex being good $75
My TOTAL Fine is: $385
Ok so that's my total...what's yours...Blu said I need to get out more and party with her and some other folks...LOL
I think I am aiight with being on the low end of the scale though...
AGAIN you don't have to tell what your crimes are, just tell us your fines....
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
Song of the Week
OK so I must admit that I totally thought that Jay's new album was going to be a lot better...HOWEVER, I do like this song and this video...
Restin...
Well the surgery day was pretty eventful...
Yes, eventful
I wish I could say it wasn't but it really was...
First, on Friday, when I went for my pre-op appointment I found out that the cyst had grown from 13 cm to about 6 inches...
YES 6 inches! It was the size of a lemon...
The good thing was that it (the cyst) had stabilized and hadn't grown since my last appointment...but here is the thing...how about I didn't even know it had grown that much, I mean I remember everyone being freaked out about it and saying that it couldn't wait until after the first of the year, but geesh...I didn't know it was that big...
But then I was told that I had two "functional clear cysts" on the right...now remember the first time I had one, second none, now, two...so this could be from a number of things, including the fact that my body was in the process of ovulation...who really knows...
So they told me that they would look into it when they went in for the left cyst...
Day of
Me and my mom get to the hospital
check in
everything is cool...oh, but one thing, the person in front of me is having complications so my time gets pushed back...
I don't go into the OR until about 1:15pm...so while I am waiting I have this SHARP pain on my right side...well come to find out, that the two cysts on the right ruptured and I was homogening really badly...So instead of the surgery taking 40 mins to an hour it took 2 hours and 20 mins...instead of 3 incisions, I have 4...
BUT the cyst doesn't look to be cancerous and the surgeon sent the fluid and the cyst off to be tested...so I will know it two weeks when I go back for my check up with the deal is...
It really hasn't been all that bad...I have been in some serious pain and all of that good stuff but they didn't have to do a "binki" cut to get in and get stuff out (had they HAD to do that I would still be IN the hospital)
Pain is all relative when GOD keeps blessing me and bringing me out alright...
So today, by the graced of my supervisor, I am working from home, restin and healin...I will face the land of the living fully tomorrow...
Until then...
THANKS FOR ALL OF YOUR WONDERFUL WORDS OF ENCOURAGEMENT AND PRAYERS they truly have meant a lot!!!!
Yes, eventful
I wish I could say it wasn't but it really was...
First, on Friday, when I went for my pre-op appointment I found out that the cyst had grown from 13 cm to about 6 inches...
YES 6 inches! It was the size of a lemon...
The good thing was that it (the cyst) had stabilized and hadn't grown since my last appointment...but here is the thing...how about I didn't even know it had grown that much, I mean I remember everyone being freaked out about it and saying that it couldn't wait until after the first of the year, but geesh...I didn't know it was that big...
But then I was told that I had two "functional clear cysts" on the right...now remember the first time I had one, second none, now, two...so this could be from a number of things, including the fact that my body was in the process of ovulation...who really knows...
So they told me that they would look into it when they went in for the left cyst...
Day of
Me and my mom get to the hospital
check in
everything is cool...oh, but one thing, the person in front of me is having complications so my time gets pushed back...
I don't go into the OR until about 1:15pm...so while I am waiting I have this SHARP pain on my right side...well come to find out, that the two cysts on the right ruptured and I was homogening really badly...So instead of the surgery taking 40 mins to an hour it took 2 hours and 20 mins...instead of 3 incisions, I have 4...
BUT the cyst doesn't look to be cancerous and the surgeon sent the fluid and the cyst off to be tested...so I will know it two weeks when I go back for my check up with the deal is...
It really hasn't been all that bad...I have been in some serious pain and all of that good stuff but they didn't have to do a "binki" cut to get in and get stuff out (had they HAD to do that I would still be IN the hospital)
Pain is all relative when GOD keeps blessing me and bringing me out alright...
So today, by the graced of my supervisor, I am working from home, restin and healin...I will face the land of the living fully tomorrow...
Until then...
THANKS FOR ALL OF YOUR WONDERFUL WORDS OF ENCOURAGEMENT AND PRAYERS they truly have meant a lot!!!!
Friday, December 01, 2006
An Ode to O....
So my girl friend sent me this message today about the recent comments about Oprah made by Fifty Cent. And I asked her if I could put this up..
I really think this is something that we need to talk about.
Like Jay said: "I got rich and gave back, to me that's the win win..."
To Fifty
From Jes
Fifty needs to sit the hell down.
I really hate when people make UN-EDUCATED assumptions and GROSS generalizations about people and/or things that they know nothing about. Before he even opened his mouth…that wack rapper could have at least GOOGLED her. Geeze!!!
Its not our fault or her fault that Oprah is hugely supported by White Women ages 25 to 60?? If he had a brain, he’d realize that there are more of them than us! We are a minority.
But Anyway,
I am not even going to go down the list of Oprah’s contributions to our culture, success and growth as African people in AMERICA and in the entire African Diaspora.
I have had countless arguments, debates with African American people about Oprah being an “OREO” – and I always win my arguments and debates when it comes to Oprah…cause that woman has put her MONEY & her HEART where her Mouth IS. The facts are there...if you want to know them...
This woman has dedicated her entire life to our struggle and cause as a people…but most importantly black women. Not only in this nation…but on the entire Continent of AFRICA. PERIOD.
I am grateful for her and to her for telling OUR story through accurate depictions in her movies, TV shows, books & the countless number of films she produces...
She has exposed and shared with the world (WHITE PEOPLE too) our jewels and most prized possessions (Toni Morrison, Maya Angelou, Alice Walker, Nikki Giovanni) our LEGENDS – she has given them a venue through her show that your Good Morning America’s and Regis & Kathy Lees NEVER DID and wouldn’t even dare to do.
She has given them (the world) a glimpse into the awesomeness of our best and brightest…
Through Oprah, our true and great story as women of color has had an opportunity to be accurately told.
Not only that – Oprah is a genius. She realizes that white supremacy and racism is REAL and rampant in our world.
SHE HAS SAID so NUMEROUS times in several interviews!!!! Fifty!! She knows that It is alive and breathing just as it was 600 to 1000 years ago.
She has been smart enough to use her star power and ability to capture audiences and use it as an avenue to tell a story that has been completely ignored in mainstream media and to hopefully change the mindset of our world. That story is the plight of African & African American women…and really all women of color across the world.
Why would or should she give attention to a worthless wanksta rapper like fifty??
Who isn’t really saying anything or talking about anything in his rhymes?? A rapper with no level of consciousness or awareness of who he is as a black man...(just my opinion)
I am completely offended by his ignorance and comments
– Fifty is on my list....
He will be officially called out and talked about in all of my celebrity emails, articles, books and publications...
Fifty – YOU SUCK!!
Holla,
Jes
So my thing is this....I mean how much of OUR struggle do we put on the shoulders of a few of our Black Leaders...
MikeSee's Letter addresses this VERY topic...
Why is it that we expect to have a Black "savior" sweep down and solve ALL of our problems...
Don't get me wrong I am totally for a Movement, and every movement needs a leader...but EVERY movement needs the people...
When are WE as a people, as THE people, going to stop bringing each other down, acknowledge that American as a whole isn't ready for a Black President, and that we need to really get together for progression of ourselves and our community FIRST (local, state and regional agendas) and get that straight and TIGHT...BEFORE we can ever take on a national agenda...
I don't know people what do you think?
I really think this is something that we need to talk about.
Like Jay said: "I got rich and gave back, to me that's the win win..."
To Fifty
From Jes
Fifty needs to sit the hell down.
I really hate when people make UN-EDUCATED assumptions and GROSS generalizations about people and/or things that they know nothing about. Before he even opened his mouth…that wack rapper could have at least GOOGLED her. Geeze!!!
Its not our fault or her fault that Oprah is hugely supported by White Women ages 25 to 60?? If he had a brain, he’d realize that there are more of them than us! We are a minority.
But Anyway,
I am not even going to go down the list of Oprah’s contributions to our culture, success and growth as African people in AMERICA and in the entire African Diaspora.
I have had countless arguments, debates with African American people about Oprah being an “OREO” – and I always win my arguments and debates when it comes to Oprah…cause that woman has put her MONEY & her HEART where her Mouth IS. The facts are there...if you want to know them...
This woman has dedicated her entire life to our struggle and cause as a people…but most importantly black women. Not only in this nation…but on the entire Continent of AFRICA. PERIOD.
I am grateful for her and to her for telling OUR story through accurate depictions in her movies, TV shows, books & the countless number of films she produces...
She has exposed and shared with the world (WHITE PEOPLE too) our jewels and most prized possessions (Toni Morrison, Maya Angelou, Alice Walker, Nikki Giovanni) our LEGENDS – she has given them a venue through her show that your Good Morning America’s and Regis & Kathy Lees NEVER DID and wouldn’t even dare to do.
She has given them (the world) a glimpse into the awesomeness of our best and brightest…
Through Oprah, our true and great story as women of color has had an opportunity to be accurately told.
Not only that – Oprah is a genius. She realizes that white supremacy and racism is REAL and rampant in our world.
SHE HAS SAID so NUMEROUS times in several interviews!!!! Fifty!! She knows that It is alive and breathing just as it was 600 to 1000 years ago.
She has been smart enough to use her star power and ability to capture audiences and use it as an avenue to tell a story that has been completely ignored in mainstream media and to hopefully change the mindset of our world. That story is the plight of African & African American women…and really all women of color across the world.
Why would or should she give attention to a worthless wanksta rapper like fifty??
Who isn’t really saying anything or talking about anything in his rhymes?? A rapper with no level of consciousness or awareness of who he is as a black man...(just my opinion)
I am completely offended by his ignorance and comments
– Fifty is on my list....
He will be officially called out and talked about in all of my celebrity emails, articles, books and publications...
Fifty – YOU SUCK!!
Holla,
Jes
So my thing is this....I mean how much of OUR struggle do we put on the shoulders of a few of our Black Leaders...
MikeSee's Letter addresses this VERY topic...
Why is it that we expect to have a Black "savior" sweep down and solve ALL of our problems...
Don't get me wrong I am totally for a Movement, and every movement needs a leader...but EVERY movement needs the people...
When are WE as a people, as THE people, going to stop bringing each other down, acknowledge that American as a whole isn't ready for a Black President, and that we need to really get together for progression of ourselves and our community FIRST (local, state and regional agendas) and get that straight and TIGHT...BEFORE we can ever take on a national agenda...
I don't know people what do you think?
Tomorrow is the day....
the BIG day...
I go for my final sonogram today and we shall see if the cyst has gotten bigger or smaller or at the least stablized...I am just hoping its stable...that joker must know something is up because its bothering me today, and after the sono I KNOW its going to be off the hook....
I have to be at Sibley Hospital at 9:55am (knowing my mother I will be there WAY before then because she doesn't like to be late...plus I really don't know where I am going IN the hospital OR how to get to the hospital)
I just got off the phone with her she wants to be at my house at 8:00AM...she is too funny..."you don't know about traffic (its a saturday morning) or what if we get lost..." I gave up, "Ok Ma, 8..."
Surgery starts at 11:55am
I should be done, granted if there are NO complications in 2 hours.
Recovery time about 1 to 3 hours, depending on how my body reacts to things...
So my mom should have me home early evening....
So that will be the end of that...or it may be a beginning...but I am going to think positive thoughts...
So I might not be on here for a minute folks...well that's not true I will be back at work (or I am planning to) on Monday...
So stay up people and have a GREAT weekend....
And remember to keep this at all times....
I go for my final sonogram today and we shall see if the cyst has gotten bigger or smaller or at the least stablized...I am just hoping its stable...that joker must know something is up because its bothering me today, and after the sono I KNOW its going to be off the hook....
I have to be at Sibley Hospital at 9:55am (knowing my mother I will be there WAY before then because she doesn't like to be late...plus I really don't know where I am going IN the hospital OR how to get to the hospital)
I just got off the phone with her she wants to be at my house at 8:00AM...she is too funny..."you don't know about traffic (its a saturday morning) or what if we get lost..." I gave up, "Ok Ma, 8..."
Surgery starts at 11:55am
I should be done, granted if there are NO complications in 2 hours.
Recovery time about 1 to 3 hours, depending on how my body reacts to things...
So my mom should have me home early evening....
So that will be the end of that...or it may be a beginning...but I am going to think positive thoughts...
So I might not be on here for a minute folks...well that's not true I will be back at work (or I am planning to) on Monday...
So stay up people and have a GREAT weekend....
And remember to keep this at all times....
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