Tomorrow is the day....

the BIG day...

I go for my final sonogram today and we shall see if the cyst has gotten bigger or smaller or at the least stablized...I am just hoping its stable...that joker must know something is up because its bothering me today, and after the sono I KNOW its going to be off the hook....

I have to be at Sibley Hospital at 9:55am (knowing my mother I will be there WAY before then because she doesn't like to be late...plus I really don't know where I am going IN the hospital OR how to get to the hospital)

I just got off the phone with her she wants to be at my house at 8:00AM...she is too funny..."you don't know about traffic (its a saturday morning) or what if we get lost..." I gave up, "Ok Ma, 8..."

Surgery starts at 11:55am

I should be done, granted if there are NO complications in 2 hours.

Recovery time about 1 to 3 hours, depending on how my body reacts to things...

So my mom should have me home early evening....

So that will be the end of that...or it may be a beginning...but I am going to think positive thoughts...

So I might not be on here for a minute folks...well that's not true I will be back at work (or I am planning to) on Monday...

So stay up people and have a GREAT weekend....

And remember to keep this at all times....

Ok...so while I would never buy this...

I have to admit that the Ying Yang Twins make some bangers...

I mean it makes no total sense why I like a couple of their songs...but I really do...

Tell me if I am totally OFF or not, but when I here some of their songs I get hyped and am ready to party....

First song I ever liked by them
Get Low....
(of course I couldn't post this video there is no clean version out)

Now don't ask me why I liked this song, I just remember liking it and in the summer of 2003 I was in Philly partying for Ni Ni's 23rd Birthday and the DJ put it on, and since they think I am so country anyways being from DC I lost it and man, I was getting it on the floor...Man that was fun...

Then there is this song...
Shake
(couldn't post the video either, no clean version)

I don't know man, I just love this song...ya'll already know I think I am Puerto Rican...seriously (one day I am going to do a post about why I think I come from some form of Spanish heritage) so when this comes on, I let my little Spanish side out...


Then there is this...
Wait (couldn't find a clean version of this either)

Just the fact that they whispered the song was different...

And finally the most recent song that I think will crank in the club...
Dangerous...



Them bamas is at it again talking about the scrippers (but aren't most of their songs about the scrippers isn't that how they started out making music for the ATL strip clubs...) but the guitar and dude screaming at the end I love it! And for once I don't think the video is totally offensive to women...and its sexy....

Yea I was pissed...AND

Man today wasn't looking to hot...I was really feeling overwhelmed...trying my best to just be THANKFUL for the things I DO have and not stress over what I don't...but let's just say my thoughts and everything was getting the best of me...but you ever just feel like, man why me? Why is MY life so hard and everyone else' isn't? And you KNOW that that's really NOT the case, because you NEVER really know what someone is really going through, but right now, at this moment in this space...you are questioning EVERYTHING...you just feel stuck and hopeless...

Yea well that's how I was feeling this morning....

For example, I still haven't received my papers from the insurance company yet...
I am thinking about moving because of the robbery AND because I pay entirely too much rent to be going through changes...AND I just pay too much rent not to be owning...
I am frustrated with my career path and trying to determine my purpose...I mean I like my job and its a good job with good people, but is this IT, what I want to DO with my life...
I keep having crazy dreams...

And that's just to name a few things that is going on with me

But MAN...when I say GOD can change things in a matter of moments...
I got the lady to say I could fax her my stuff and what everything is worth...
There seems to be a little light at the end of the financial tunnel, even if just for the short run...
My CEO came by to ask me about my health and I shared with him what is going on with me...he was a little shocked and I think he understands better now why I was out for a week the end of last month....
There also seems to be a little light for the career path...

So I am feeling a little better than I was this morning...still a little on edge, still nervous and still unsure...but I have been reminded by several people around me that GOD has me where HE wants me to be, and it may not seem like it, but everything is going to work itself out
I mean don't get me wrong I still have my doubts but that's where me praying and working on my faith comes in...

You got to have FAITH...
STAY UP PEOPLE!

Tag: IPOD of Your Life

I swiped this from Tenacious (I hope she doesn't mind) who did this and I thought I would try it....and it’s pretty fun actually

1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend you're cool...

Opening Credits: "Good Man" India Arie
*Wow....makes me think of my Dad...and my brothers...guess that's what deep down in my heart one day I want...*

Waking Up: "Good Ol Days" LeVert
*Man this was the JAM....this is what I need to get my spirits in a good mood and get me moving*

First Day At School: "Sweetest Thing (Mahogony Mix)" Lauryn Hill
*Makes me remember when I was bold, it was the end of 10th grade year and I walked up to this tall light skin dude and asked him "have you found the perfect girl yet?" Man I was something...far from perfect...but that dude turned out to be one of my closests friends...despite the beefs over the past what 10 years...that's my man...my homie....*

Falling In Love: "Be With you" Beyonce
*Man I guess that's how you are supposed to feel..."I'd rather be with you..." I like the orginal better though Hey Boostie*

Fight Song: "Boogie Nights/All Night long" Erykah Badu...
*I guess since I am too old to be fighting in the first place...I should be thinking about "boogin" and not fighting so this will work...lol*

Breaking Up: "Sunday Morning" Maroon 5
*NOT a break up song...but I love this song...so Imma let it ride for a second...*

Prom: "Take Me As I Am" Mary J
*totally how I feel now, not on prom...*

Life is good: "Closer" Floetry
*yeah the beat the rhythm....Just a little bit, little bit, little bit closer....HELLO...

Mental Breakdown: "Living Proof" Kelis
*me breaking down and rebuilding...love it*

Driving: "About you" Mary J
*yea man late at night in the truck, music going, sounds pumping...yea hear that beat...feeling it, feeling it...*


Flashback: "The Truth" India Arie
*Makes me think of what I THOUGHT my ex was...but in the end yea he would have to be real...and we would have to be a reflection of each other...that's what is supposed to be right*

Getting Back Together: "Torn" LaToya
*Umm I don't think we are getting back together...& that's a good thing...*

Marriage: "Necromancer" Gnarls Barkley
*the song is about suicide....so I don't think this goes with marriageeither...but imma listen....the musical composition...man....*

Birth: "Harder to Breathe" Maroon 5
*I can imagine it would be...*

Final Battle: "Forgive them Father" Lauryn Hill
*yea that makes sense...all those that hold a beef, got a grudge, liars, fakers, whatever...in the final days...forgive us all*

Funeral Song: " "I can change" John Legend fet. Snoop Dogg
*I guess at that point its too late to change...but like Snoop Dogg (really Sam Cook) says: "change gonna come nephew" HELLO*

End Credits: "Secret" Maroon 5
*yea in the end...imma still have some of them...*


Ok that was real cute and fun...man I have a lot of different music...but I still need to get some more...I don't think that mix list was a good one...a lot of Maroon 5's first album on here...but hey I didn't want to cheat...

Have fun if you decide to do this!

And yet I am still...

You ever just feel like its just one thing after another...I mean really...

I have surgery on Saturday..
I haven't received my paper work from the insurance company yet so that I can get my stuff back...
I went last Friday to get the oil changed in my truck...just the oil, only to find out that I needed 4 brand new tires...
So Saturday I had to go and take care of that...
Sunday was pretty chill....
So yesterday was just one of those days...got up at like 5am, worked from 7am until 5pm, had a project that HAD to be done by noon...
A friend of mines cousin died of sickle cell anemia last night
My sister-in-law has to have surgery on Friday
My oldest nephew worries me
My father is sick
...then things just went upside down in the blog land yesterday...
I am tired today...I just feel blah....

BUT

I have no reason to be sad, disappointed, discusted with anything in life...why because I have life...

....I have family and friends that love me dearly and I do mean dearly!
....I can get up and breathe fresh air
....I can read I can write
....I have a roof over my head, clothes on my back, food in my fridge, and a car and means to get back and forth to work
....Despite the fact that my tires cost me ONLY $550 (yea they were more but I went to Sam's) I have a mother who decided to call me and tell me come and let's go and price tires on Saturday and I only have to pay her back half...
....although my house was broken into, it wasn't destroyed and I found out yesterday they caught the dude that they think is responsible for all the break ins
....I have wonderful mentors that guide me and love me as if I was their own child
....I am not worried about my surgery nor about my sister-in-law...I have faith
....money is always coming in and going out....that's nothing new
....I have a good job making aiight money and learning I am actually learning...
....my review for my job is next Tuesday and I think I will get that raise
....did I say that I have the GREATEST parents well I do!
....I can see changes in the Kiamsha students, just stuff that they are saying it amases me
....I just got pictures of a friend of mines son, he was born pre-mature and he made it-and is just as precious as he wants to be
....I have two girl friends that are getting married-they make me believe in love again
....love, love in the world between people, all over-love makes me smile, just the thought of it, the hope of it
....regardless of what I have been through and what I will face, I have been kept



Life is good there is no reason to allow the things that happen to bring me down...there is so much to just appreciate, so much to just to be thankful for...we always have to look at the fact that life is beautiful, appreciate where you are, who you are and where you are going...appreciate it all...

Peace and blessings...

Song of the Week:

I don't know why but I like this song...maybe its the Classic "Makings of You" sample that really makes me like it...but I really like it...lyrically its NOT the deepest song, but its catchy and cute....

And finally Monica is singing....

Thanksgiving...

Man I love that holiday! I absolutely love love love it...why because you ALWAYS eat good, but for me, I love it because I love being around my family!

This year we took a ride down to Richmond, VA to go and see my brother JC and his family in their new 7,000 sq foot home! Yep, that's right people a 7,000 square foot home, all brick the BIGGEST thing sitting on their small country road...and get this...it only cost them about 300K to have built from the ground up...man, something like that would cost like 900K up here in DC...but anyways..

I love just sitting and talking trash with my family, laughing joking, talking about old times...we just had a ball. It was a killer getting up like I was going to work on Thanksgiving day to meet my parents and my other brother WC at my parents house, but it was worth it to ride in WC's new ride and just have a good time with the family...

My nephews are a stone cold trip...in fact my youngest nephew Daric (of JC's boys), who is ONLY 8 years old, was giving WC pointers on how to get a woman..."you know you just walk up to her, ask her her name, hold a conversation with her...and if she seems nice, then you ask for her number...once you get to know her, take her out..." So then WC asks him "well what if she rejects you or says no?" This little boy says, "well then, you move on, its ok, it just means she is NOT the one for you..."
I mean and all the while this little dude is saying all this stuff with the smoothest voice, just chill and calm...CLASSIC!

My other two nephews are equally as special...Devin is just the coolest cat...he is real quite though and stays to himself, but that just means he is picking up on EVERYTHING...

DJ is 18, dumb as a box of rocks, meaning he thinks he knows it all and knows nothing, has no respect and doesn't want to do anything out of life...everyone keeps saying I shoud take him so that he can finish school...and I would IF and ONLY IF he has no contact with his mother and them...but that's not going to happen...so at this point he knows right from wrong and he CHOSES to do wrong so its on him...

All in all it was a wonderful time...Miles wasn't there (that's my youngest nephew WC's only boy...) but me and the folks ate good, laughed hard...and just enjoyed being around each other...and that in and of itself is enough to be Thankful for!